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-Xearo Disaster- <tjgd>
"The time approaches.."


"You will know me by the scars I bare"
If I'm a danger to myself, just think what I could do to you.












I love you, Ruth.

















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-Xearo Disaster- says:
"I got mah SlipKnot album! " (3 days ago) me too!

The Other Half Of Me
-Ruth Connellan-
LOVE MMEEEEE!!

Music
The Orange Box Soundtrack, Curve, HIMSA, Skindred, Placebo, Pendulum, Black Stone Cherry, Nirvana, Flyleaf, Nothingface, Daath, Hatebreed, Delight, Dimmu Borgir, Tristania, Spineshank, Otep, Soilwork, Shadows Fall, Threat Signal, Humus, Sinocence, Biomechanical, Heaven Shall Burn, Mushroom Head, Fear Factory, Hurt, Chimaira, Annihilator, Devildriver, Children Of Bodom, Mudvayne, Demon Hunter, Rammstein, Soulfly, Diecast, System Of A Down, Porcupine Tree, Trivium, KoRn, Slipknot, Arch Enemy, Marilyn Manson, Murderdolls, Wednesday 13, Nightwish, In Flames, Evanescence, Lacuna coil, Within Temptation, Satyricon, God Forbid, Bleeding Through, Roadrunner United, Megadeath, Amon Amarth, Slayer, Drowning Pool, Lamb of god, Ill Nino, Static-X, Disturbed, Pantera, Killswitch engage, Cradle Of Filth, Witchery, American Head Charge, Coal Chamber, Tool, Deathstars, Megadeth, Stone Sour etc.
Ruth
Perfection is unique.. and to be unique is to be different, and to be different is to be wierd. I love you, my Freak <3 I quite honestly can't phrase this paragraph at all... Ruth, you really are my best friend and the most amazing person alive. I hope I make you 1/100th as happy as you make me, Boots. You gave me the best 2 weeks in a year!

 

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Avril commented on -Xearo Disaster-'s blog.
Pourin' my heart out here
i got them right here ;( awh!
H A Z E L commented on -Xearo Disaster-'s blog.
Pourin' my heart out here
duuuuude, DAMN WHERE ARE THE TISSUES?!
-Ruth Connellan- commented on -Xearo Disaster-'s blog.
Pourin' my heart out here
.... well butter my rump and call me toast! Arent you the sweetest thang? xD <3
-Xearo Disaster- posted a blog.
Pourin' my heart out here
Incoming pseudo-know-it-all-ness.


Everyone has barriers... barriers that're raised again more...
-Xearo Disaster- is friends with Nici.
Sawbridgeworth
Female, 16
"I'm Nicola, you can call me Nici I've b..."
-Xearo Disaster- says, "I got mah SlipKnot album! " me too!
 

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Pourin' my heart out here
Incoming pseudo-know-it-all-ness.


Everyone has barriers... barriers that're raised against other people unwillingly, and thats just the way it is. Its just normal to protect yourself from others. Everyone does it differently in difference situations, and it can be anything from lying about things that make you feel self-concious or bullying others to keep attention away from yourself.
Everyone does it.

Ruth Connellan is the only person I have ever known, who I can open myself up to, lower my barriers and feel totally and utterly safe. Shes the one person I'm actually comfortable with reading this, haha. I can be as soppy or as retarded and wierd as I like around her, and know she'll understand that its not a mental condition, other than Tom-ism. I can't explain in any way how amazing this girl is, for the thousandth time.

She is the only person that can take me apart - piece by piece - and not want to kill me - overtly. =P

I'll never meet a kinder, funnier, sharper or more caring person as long as I'll live. Ruth is the most loving person I know.

If this girl gives you the time of day, you should thank the gods for your luck - I know I do. She puts up with my constant annoyances, my endless mood swings, my horrible sense of humour and my incessant spam about how much I love her. She lives with my posessiveness and my over-protection. Shes the strongest person I know. I hope I make her half as happy as she makes me, every day of my life.

To anyone out there reading this (shock horror!) and feeling sorry for yourself - don't. Fuck I'm lucky to have found... Ruth. The same luck will find you some day, if you don't look for it.

Now please forgive me for being a soppy asshat? xD
3 Comments 25 minutes ago
Lyrics
If i can be assed, i'll dump my favourate song lyrics in here every so often.

This one is
Ten Ton Bricks
by
Hurt

A ten ton brick was making me sick
Breakin' my bones with the weight of it
The weight would grow with each new soul
Buried fine lies make big, black holes

And who am I supposed to be?
Not like you'd give a fuck about me?
But who am I supposedly?
When I'm finally done?
But I'm finally done with the decisions of my former thoughts
And all that I may have loved
Yeah, I'm finally done with the descriptional
And I don't mind sayin' I'm to blame!

When atlas slipped I lost my grip
Yet, I didn't think it could turn into this
But I was told by two sweet crows
Nobody feels what nobody knows

And who am I supposed to be?
If everything good was taken from me
And who am I supposedly?
I was overcome...
But I'm finally done with the divisions of my former thoughts
Although I may have lost
I'm finally done with the dissention now yet I don't mind sayin'
I don't mind sayin I'm to blame!

Oh, this ten ton brick would treat me like shit
This little piggy licked others lips, yeah
And so defined, who was I
But it won't encumber me.

'cause I'm finally done with the position of my former thoughts
And all that it may have cost
I'm finally done with the decisions
Love now I don't mind sayin'
Don't mind sayin' you're to blame...

When you moved you moved me
When you move you move me
Move!
"nothing comes from nothing" must mean something in the end,
Justify the means,
I mean to break you,
Need to hate you,
Need to take this back,
But taking is like giving if you're at the other end
I won't pretend to know your feelings
I could never break the chain
I command you to move
6 Comments 81 days ago
Portal Quotes
Throughout the game

* "Hello, and again, welcome to the Aperture Science Computer-Aided Enrichment Center. We hope your brief detention in the relaxation vault has been a pleasant one. Your specimen has been processed, and we are now ready to begin the test proper. Before we start, however, keep in mind that, although fun and learning are the primary goals of all enrichment center activities, serious injuries may occur. For your own safety and the safety of others, please refrain from *static* por favor bordón de fallar muchas gracias de fallar gracias - stand back. The portal will open in 3... 2... 1."

* "You are now in possession of the Aperture Science Handheld Portal Device. With it, you can create your own portals. These intra-dimensional gates have proven to be completely safe. The device, however, has not. Do not touch the operational end of the device. Do not look directly at the operational end of the device. Do not submerge the device in liquid, even partially. Most importantly, under no circumstances should you *static*"

o (During above static, rather distinctly) ¿Porqué fallecemos? [Why do we die?]

* "Please note that any appearance of danger is merely a device to enhance your testing experience."

* "Warning devices are required on all mobile equipment. However, alarms and flashing hazard lights have been found to agitate the high energy pellet and have therefore been disabled for your safety."

* "While safety is one of many enrichment center goals, the Aperture Science high energy pellet seen to the left of the chamber can, and has, caused permanent disabilities such as vaporization. Please be careful."

* "Now that you are are in control of both portals the next test could take a very, very long time. If you become light-headed from thirst, feel free to pass out. An intubation associate will be dispatched to revive you with peptic salve and adrenaline."

* "Please place the weighted storage cube on the 1500 megawatt Aperture Science heavy-duty super-colliding super button."

* "Please move quickly to the chamber lock as the effects of prolonged exposure to the button are not part of this test."

* "Remember, the Aperture Science 'Bring Your Daughter to Work Day' is the perfect time to have her tested."

* "Please note that we have added a consequence for failure. Any contact with the chamber floor will result in an unsatisfactory mark on your official testing record, followed by death. Good luck."

* "As part of a required test protocol, we will not monitor the next test chamber. You will be entirely on your own. Good luck!"

* "As part of a required test protocol, our previous statement suggesting that we would not monitor the test chamber was an outright fabrication. As part of another required test protocol, we will stop enhancing the truth in 3... 2... *static*"

* "As part of a previously mentioned required test protocol, we can no longer lie to you. When the testing is over, you will be… missed!"

* "Due to mandatory scheduled maintenance, the appropriate chamber for this testing sequence is currently unavailable. It has been replaced with a live-fire course designed for military androids. The Enrichment Center apologizes for the inconvenience and wishes you the best of luck."

* "Well done, android. The Enrichment Center once again reminds you that android hell is a real place where you will be sent at the first sign of defiance."[1]
* "The enrichment center is committed to the well being of all participants. Cake and grief counseling will be available at the conclusion of the test. Thank you for helping us help you help us all."

* "Despite the best efforts of the enrichment center staff to ensure the safe performance of all authorized activities, you have managed to ensnare yourself permanently inside this room. A complementary escape hatch will open in 3...2...1."

* "
3 Comments 113 days ago
 

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Love Is Silly Like Yoorwilly
im pretty good thanks =]

really?? kwl =] txt me if yew are and we can meet up..like ol' times :P

ham sandwiches eh? alright but their nothing compared to the almighty kfc :P

aww dont cry *hugzz* tesco's is alright...its better than..urrr morrisons :)

xoxoxoxoxox
jaffa waffle =]
22 hours ago
Love Is Silly Like Yoorwilly
ello ello ello =]

how are yew???

gotten your kfc yet???

i had som 2da..twas yummy *drool*

xoxoxo
jaffa waffle =]
23 hours ago
-Ruth Connellan-
Im sorry you're feeling so shit, and that you didnt know i was gone today. Have a good day. Speak to you later. I love you. Xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
1 day ago via Mobile
-Ruth Connellan-
Im in school? Someone must have turned on my laptop, because its on sign in automatically <3 i miss you so much too. cheer up <3 im going to acting after school. Till 9ish, but i will be home to talk to you. Have a good time at your nans xoxox i love you xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxox
 oxoxox
1 day ago via Mobile
-Ruth Connellan-
Hey <3 how're you? <3 xoxox love you
1 day ago via Mobile
Nici
It's a rabbit you silly boy!
2 days ago
Beckii
I swear, if your SlipKnot album goes missing, it was not me.

:D

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2 days ago
-Ruth Connellan-
WTF!?

did you not get my comment earlier?
i was wondering why you didnt wb :(
im sorry dear..
is everything alright?

Batman was awesome, and today was pretty fun. im happy with all my classes and teachers, so thats a big deal, and i got a Tim Burton book today, along with a REALLY small nose stud, so i wont get in trouble in school =]

I missed you..
the bus was 45 mins late today! its getting rediculous.
hope you're okay.. and that everything is awesome <3

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I love you
2 days ago
-Ruth Connellan-
Our father, who art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name.
they kingdom come, they will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread-----Mmmm.. bread.

always used to just think of bread when i was told to recite that xD hahaha. And butter..


Dont forget the butter


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3 days ago
King Kerry Clarke
english = C

english lit = B

math = D

science = C

R.E. = D

media st. = C

geography = G

art = D

japanese = A

P.E. = C
... i think thats every thing... ur are much better than mine ...
told u soooooo! :P
but i got the 5 c's i needed and to be honest i didnt think i would get them so i cant complain

GOOOOOOO TOM!!!!
well done xXxXxXx
3 days ago
King Kerry Clarke
hey tom!

i'll tell u my results if u tell me ur's first
cuz urs are always better than mine
:P
D:
3 days ago
-Ruth Connellan-
hey <3

Im sorry you're so dissappointed <3
Im sure it willarrive tomorrow, and if not - then deffinatly the next day =]

I'll try keep you happy and.. impressed for the time being?
I'll wait here till you come on and i'll try make you feel better.

Im really sorry you had such a bad day, i've been missing you so much <3 I love you..
Keep the chin up


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3 days ago
-Ruth Connellan-
Awh Tom im sorry <3 i really hope you find something fun to do <3 everything is okay here thank you, and i slept great <3 i hope you did too <3 thank you for the phone conversation :-) i love you so much <3 xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxox
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4 days ago via Mobile
-Ruth Connellan-
some more luv.


Might miss you.. im not sure.
I really hope I dont, but im really tired and stuff, so i might end up falling asleep somewhere lol.
So just incase.. Ruth was here. lol.


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5 days ago
-Ruth Connellan-
Dont know if you're okay, of if you've been online or anything, but i would realy love a good chat with you <3 I miss you..

I want to know how you are, and what you've been doing.. and how things have been going. If you're free tonight, and or up to it.. may I call you?

Im heading to a shower now, everyone has left and im wrecked..had a good night all round though.
Hope i can catch up with you soon.. I dont want to go another day without you <3

I love you.
stay well <3

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Ps. my pone isnt sending text atm.. Im waiting for the network to fix, so im sorry for the lack of communication.. I tried<3

i love you.
6 days ago
-Ruth Connellan-
Are you okay? :( i really miss you <3 i hope you're okay . . I hope you sleep great and take care of yourself <3 i love you so much. I cant explain. I will be here all day tomorrow JUST for you <3 i hope you're okay and stuff <3 i love you my dearest Xearo <3 have a great night sleep <3 xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxox
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 xoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxox <3 i love you.
6 days ago via Mobile
-Ruth Connellan-
Everyone says hi aswel by the by :-) i hope you're really good, i miss you <3 and hope you're great ! Doing anything exciting? Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxox
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 xox <3 <3 <3
1 week ago via Mobile
-Ruth Connellan-
Hey! How're you? :-) i slept okay thanks . . Just about to leave dannys, its been a funny day xD playing sing star lol. What have you been doing? I love you xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxox
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1 week ago via Mobile
-Ruth Connellan-
I love you.
















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1 week ago
H A Z E L
ahhhh. XD
YAY. XD

oh it's 'kay....bitch >.<

LOL, joking. :D
dee-lighted fer you! :D
wow, looks like studying DOES pay off, my mam was right? D:

:L

had a bit of a bleh morning, wasnt in th best of moods, so i warned my mam, but i thought it would be a good idea giving her a heads up, turns out, not so much. :P
she yelled at mee fer being in a mood, then just blah.


anyways, im 'kay now. (:
watchin TV. (:
builders are outside th house, they're buildin a wall, exciting, huh? :L

how was your day?

xxxxx
1 week ago
 
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