This is a ridiculously long blog which served no purpose other than to allow me to reminisce over the year. It's probably too honest, and certainly not perfect, but if you feel like reading my ramble go ahead It's also up on my website, along with lots more. http://smudgefish.twenty121.com

As is the thing at the end of the year, we reflect on how the year went. Was it good? Was it bad? The web polls go on, and I can't decide. So I've instead awarded the figurative "most eventful" ribbon to 2009.

This is because some of the best and worst things that have happened to me have occurred in this year, and the previous years just seem kinda boring in comparison. I didn't realise how much smaller my life was those other years until this one, filled with multiple groups of friends from all over the place, people who meant the world to me coming and going from my life, and... well... I can't really summarise it up in a paragraph of blanket ambiguous statements.

Today last year *checks old calender* I was apparently doing nothing. Yesterday in 2009 I was at my (first) girlfriend’s house after spending New Year’s Eve with her, and tomorrow I was going for a sleepover (which somehow turned into a drinking session) at David’s house. Only 5% of the people I know now I knew back then, and I was a different person back then. Well not a completely different person, I was already on the way to becoming who I am now, but I had a long way to go.

One of the things at the forefront of my mind was that I was going to branch out and make new friends when starting Hawker College. I wanted to make myself seem like an appealing friend to people, and somehow believed that my appearance was the most important factor in this. Thus I went down from about 78kg to 72kg. At this point my relationship began to get rocky and, not wanting to go into comfort eating, began somehow comfort starving myself. Not eating and knowing I was losing weight made me feel good somehow.

Most of my friends had gone to Lake G, so I was in a group of Monica, David, Joel & I (Toby had pre-existing friends there). I had reached 61kg (from my original 7 thanx to stress and starvation. I had woken up early and straightened my hair, and then due to the heat and anxiety, I had sweated my hair back to it’s horrible curly state by recess. I ran into Alex Speed, who I believed would be the most sympathetic to my plight, and he turned to a red haired girl I recognised from bebo, to get me reassurance my hair was fine (soothing sweet lies...). That’s where I first met Alsex.

I just realised that if I continue at this pace I’d have a full book on my first day of school. I’ll try to speed up a little.

Over the next two weeks I began to get some familiar faces, in particular Grace, Alsex, Harry & Joel. I was trying hard to branch out of just being a Canberra High kid. Of course, during the first week at school I went through a bad breakup with my first girlfriend, and having recently been diagnosed with anxiety and depression disorders, I was all over the place. The first day of the second week we had a big argument on the phone during lunch, and afterwards I began telling Speed, and Cat somehow joined the conversation. This girl I hardly knew was a great ear, and gave me some good advice and since then we’ve been bros, despite the fact neither of us could remember each other’s names (this was admitted much later on).

That afternoon during the last class I again vented some frustration onto Joel (who seemed to be the only other alternative looking kid at Hawker) and he invited me out to spend the afternoon with him, Harry, Alsex and Grace. It seems pathetic saying this but I was so proud that I’d actually been hanging outside school with a group, of which no one was a Canberra High kid.

Since I always grew up a lonesome walk away from school, I thought the experience of the (now deceased) bus interchange in the mornings was an exciting and inc

Hotmail don’t make it easy, but I eventually managed to prove to them that I was who I said I was, and I got my account back. Everything was intact, except for my facebook page which had been totally deleted.

I contacted facebook (who make it easier than hotmail, I must point out) and they still had my page saved, so I got that back too! Despite how frustrating the whole thing was I’d say for big companies it’s pretty good they were able to deal with all this in less than 24 hours.

Anyway this is just to let everyone know that things are all G.
Alex ( 1, Hacker 0)

My Windows Live/Hotmail/MSN account was hacked sometime last night or this morning. The secret question and alternative email address has been changed and, as far as I know, there is no way for me to gain access to it.

This isn't huge or anything, just a bit of an inconvenience. I consider myself lucky with how few hacks I've had (only one, which was bebo back in late 2006). But i should let u know that if you receive anything from smudgefish@hotmail.com, or something strange from anything else anything claiming to be me, it almost certainly isn't.

I'll be making a new email address soon, which I'll post if you want to re-add me In the mean time my facebook and bebo pages have had passwords and email addresses changed so (I think) it's still all G to contact me through there

Alex