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Go not gently into that good night, but rage, rage, at the dying of the light
Me, Myself, and I
Hello, my name is Paul and I'm a melancholic.

I believe the cost of life is Death and we will all pay that in full. Everything else should be a gift. We paid the cover charge of life, we were born.
The Other Half Of Me
Starfield Whore

Starfield Whore

Float on a river for ever and ever Emilie, Emilie

Happiest When
Overhead the albatross hangs motionless upon the air
And deep beneath the rolling waves
In labyrinths of coral caves
The echo of a distant tide
Comes willowing across the sand
And everything is green and submarine.

And no-one called us to the land
And no-one knows the wheres or whys
But something stirs and something tries
And starts to climb towards the light

Strangers passing in the street
By chance two separate glances meet
And I am you and what I see is me
And do I take you by the hand
And lead you through the land
And help me understand the best I can</b
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And no-one calls us to move on
And no-one forces down our eyes
And no-one speaks and no-one tries
And no-one flies around the sun

Cloudless everyday you fall upon my waking eyes
inviting and inciting me to rise
And through the window in the wall
Come streaming in on sunlight wings
A million bright ambassadors of morning

And no-one sings me lullabies
And no-one makes me close my eyes
And so I throw the windows wide
And call to you across the sky

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    • The Questionnaire(Summer1992)

      1. What is your idea of perfect happiness?
      Playing music - Performing - Creating

      2. What is your greatest fear?
      Answering introspective questions about myself

      3. With which historical figure do you most identify?
      Don't identify with anyone historically, but there are several people in the future who I am a dead ringer for.

      4. Who do you most admire?
      All the poets, all the prophets.

      5. What do you most deplore about others?
      Ignorance, dishonesty.

      6. What vehicles do you own?
      A left foot and a right foot.

      7. What is your greatest extravagence?
      My guitars.

      8. What do you always carry with you?
      My guitars.

      9. What makes you most depressed?
      Human suffering - especially my own.

      10.What do you most dislike about your appearance?
      My receding hairline.

      11. What is your favourite smell?
      Women.

      12. What is your most unappealing habit?
      Smoking.

      13. What is your favourite word?
      Release.

      14. What is your favourite building?
      My home.

      15. What is your favourite journey?
      The inner journey or my home, or whichever comes first.

      16. What or who is your greatest love?
      Laurie, Pamela, Jennifer, Robin, Massie, Lisa, Sue, Jessica...

      17. Which living person do you most despise?
      Every politician, no exceptions.

      18. Which words or phrases do you most overuse?
      Cool, later dude, look!, a pumpkin!

      19. What is your greatest regret?
      Laurie, etc.

      20. When and where were you happiest?
      March 6 1986, 3.30pm, Raleigh NC

      21. How do you relax?
      Playing guitar.

      22. What single thing would improve the quality of your life?
      Quit smoking.

      23. Which talent would you most like to have?
      To be able to sing.

      24. What would your motto be?
      Let go and let god.

      25. What keeps you awake at night?
      Loneliness and fear.

      26. How would you like to die?
      Rich, happy and very old.

      27. How would you like to be remembered?
      Rich, happy and very old, but serious as an artist who was true to himself.

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    • New Happiness (28 Jan)

      I'm done with excuses
      I've run out of time
      I've wallowed in sorrow
      And spent the night cryin'
      I've floundered in darkness
      in sight of the light
      If I am to live, then now is the time.

      Oh you knew I loved you
      I'm crying out to be led through
      the valleys of darkness
      these pits full of fears.
      I only know one thing for sure, I know
      I don't belong here.

      When I was younger things went untold.
      I built up a hard front, I acted quite bold.
      My feelings were strangers, interpreted none,
      I felt treated more like a daughter and less like a son.

      I was only a youngster when I fell in love
      My heart touched another's outside of my home
      My passion was fragile, obsession quite real.
      I followed my lover's dream till the end.

      My chasm of darkness needs to be filled
      Recovered feelings from long ago years
      No one was there to understand,
      Though as a child
      I thought like a man.

      Now I feel both - so young and so old
      My body more tired and desperate, not bold
      I've run from the shadows into the night
      If I am to live, then now is the time.

      0 Comments 17 days

    • April

      I need to be reminded where I'm going
      I need to be reminded why I'm here
      I need to be reminded where I came from
      I need to be reminded not to fear.

      0 Comments 17 days

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    1.What DVD is in your DVD player right now?
    In Bruges

    2.If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
    Depends on how long I'd have to wait for rescue. I'm not the surviving type...

    3.Do you look more like your mum or your dad?
    A hybrid, really.

    4.Is that your natural hair color?
    That? No, it's dark reddy/brownish.

    5.How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
    A sporadic 4/5

    6.Are any of your great-grandparents still alive?
    nat.

    7.Do you have a crush on anyone?
    Unfortunately, yus.

    8.How long have you known them and do they know you like them?
    All my life, probably, maybe, almost.

    9.Can you lick your elbow?
    I can lick YOUR elbow ;)

    10.If you jumped out your bedroom window right now, how injured would you get?
    None. My step is light as a mountain goat. And the drop is 2feet.

    11.If you woke up as the opposite sex, what’s the 1st thing you would do?
    Make the most of womanly excuses.

    12.Do you wear fake tan?
    Not quite.

    13.Do you like sneezing, or do you hate that feeling?
    I like 1/8th of an orgasm.

    14.What is your favourite room in your house?
    My house IS one room, almost.

    15.What was the last thing you had to drink?
    Waterwaterwatereverywhere.

    16.Do fish make good pets?
    As good as a plant, I guess.

    17.Would you rather have a pet Ostrich or a pet Sheep?
    I like the idea of walking an ostrich down the street. Imagine all those hurt eyes that keep staring!

    18.Has an animal ever attacked you?
    A gerbil thing. It was a vicious and unprovoked attack.

    19.What kind of mobile phone do you own?
    One that rings and shit.

    20.Whats the biggest amount of mobile phone credit/phone bill you've had in a month?
    400 one time....aeons ago.

    21.Who’s car were you last in that wasn’t family?
    Fran The Man.

    22.Are they a good driver in your opinion?
    Ask Karel Sedlak!

    23.When’ s the last time you showered
    After the game.

    24.If you didnt shower for 3 days do you think you would smell?
    I don't think.

    25.Do you sleep in a single or double bed?
    Single cos I'm just...one....persons.

    26.Do you make your bed daily?
    It was made before I moved in.

    27.How many clothes do you have in your closet?
    Interesting question. Consider the main problem: Are socks counted in pairs?

    28.Where’d you get the top you’re wearing?
    From some homeless guy. He looked dead so I didn't think he'd need it anymore.

    29.How many windows/tabs do you have open on your computer right now?
    Not enough, all the good ones died.

    30.Do you ever crack your knuckles/fingers?
    To the great distress of a few people, yus.

    31.When was the last time you laughed really hard?
    Last night.

    32.Do you take compliments well?
    Of course. I'm modest.

    33.Do you find piercings attractive?
    Not if it's an ugli fuck who has 'em.

    34.Would you rather be able to fly for a day or be invisible for a day?
    Invisible.

    35.Do you personally know the people on your top friends list?
    No, I'm impersonal. But yus.

    36.Where does number one live?
    Up the road.

    37.Would you date them?
    Sarah-Jane would NOT have that.

    38.Who kissed you on the forehead last?
    They know who they are. All of them.

    39.What color of socks do you have on?
    Navy.

    40.Do you have any interesting bruises or scars?
    My collar-bone from surgery, on my left arm from a bush, on my finger from a stanely knife, on my right arm from something. I'm not clumbsy.

    41.How long does it take you to get ready to go out?
    Minutes. Weeks to get motivated.

    42.Have you bought anything today?
    Sausage rolls, waterwater, ojuice, wibbly wobbly wonder.

    43.Ever dated someone you didn't find attractive in the least?
    They're saying yus.

    44.Where’s the closest hoodie to you right now?
    I assume you mean knack? But my hoodie is on the chair over there.

    45.Morning or night person? Or Afternoon?
    NightNightNight.

    46.Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
    Fran The Man didn't enjoy the distraction.

    47.What’s the weirdest thing you’ve ever licked?
    Face.

    48.How many pics of just you do you have?
    One.

    49.What fast food restaurant do you think has the Best French Fries?
    ZamZam/Bethleem

    50.Would you prefer Irn Bru or Vimpto?
    YUS.

    51.When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
    Not as urgh as normal!

    52.Have you ever had a “kick me” sign on your back without realizing it?
    Nope. I is smart like.

    53.Lap top or pc?
    Lap.

    54.What color is your keyboard?
    Generic.

    55.Who is your internet provider and who pays for it?
    Eircom-me, almost.

    56.Have you ever sat down in a chair but fell to the floor, only to find that someone pulled out your chair on purpose?
    Yus. I'm not the most intelligent chap.

    57.Do things like that still amuse you when they happen to other people?
    But of course. PeoplePain is hilarious.

    58.Did you know that twinkle twinkle little star and the alphabet have the same rhyme?
    : /

    59.Did you just sing them to make sure?
    I do not sing.

    60.Are you a secretive person, or are you open with your thoughts?
    I am openly secretive.

    61.If you had to, would you rather eat maggots or worms?
    No.

    62.Have you seen a sunflower in real life before?
    Yus, she was as beautiful as I expected.

    63.Have you ever used eye lash curlers?
    Only to scrap dirt off a table......No.

    64.Do you text or call more?
    None.

    65.Do you find Russell Brand funny or irritating?
    Interesting.

    66.Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
    ________Worth dying for.

    67.What item that needs batteries is nearest to you?
    Laptop.

    68.Who was the last person you slow danced with?
    Never.

    69.Have you ever taken a picture of your eye?
    Only cos it happened to be in my face at the time.

    70.Do you actually believe that Alaska is covered in snow?
    I don't 'believe'.

    71.Do you prefer peppermint or spearmint?
    Peppered Spears.

    72.What is the most amount of money you would spend on a pillow?
    5er, prob.

    73.If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
    All of 'em.

    74.How many tv's in your house?
    Ein.

    75.Type your name using only your elbow
    rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr no.

    76.Do you ever go a few days without changing your underwear?
    No.

    77.Are you ever purposely irritating?
    Most of the time.

    78.If you were another person would you be friends with you?
    Not even.

    79.Do you still have your tonsils and your appendix?
    Yeah, but i think i need to put them in fresh jars.

    80.Favourite sports to watch?
    None really, boring mostly.

    81.Can you play Poker?
    Like a shark, i.e. no.

    82.Do people ever make stupid mistakes when spelling or saying your name?
    Only Kablaamee.

    83.Have you ever touched an Elephant?
    Yeah but it was consensual.

    84.Have you had a Birthday so far this year?
    Only one.

    85.Do you like to have ice in your drinks?
    Only if I'm 5.

    86.Have you ever used a metal detector to look for treasure?
    No, I use my eyes.

    87.Do you prefer Lemons or Limes?
    Lemons are nicer. Limes are just rude.

    88.Do you prefer trampolines or bouncy castles?
    I prefer Trap Castles.

    89.Have you ever crawled through a window?
    No, but I've climbed out of many.

    90.Did your parents spoil you as a child?
    No, I did it all myself.

    91.Look behind you, what do you see?
    Wall of Posters.

    92.Have you ever lost anything down a toilet?
    Only what was meant to be lost.

    93.Do you prefer beef, pork, or lamb?
    Yes.

    94.Are you an aunt/uncle?
    Aunt. I have the best niece :]

    95.Do you know all the words to your national anthem?
    I know there ARE words....

    96.What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
    URGH sunday dinners with bacon.

    97.Do you still watch kiddie films and tv shows?
    No, they don't make 'em like they used to. You can't get good kiddie porn anywhere, these days.

    98.If you were walkin down the street and someone sprayed you with water what would you do?
    Get wet.

    99.Have you ever broken a bone?
    Most of them.

    100.How many times have you moved house?
    Once.

    101.If you could make someone disappear who would it be?
    Me.

    102.Curtains or blinds?
    Curnds.

    103.Can you cook a Sunday Roast?
    If the instructions are printed clearly and legibly on the packet.

    104.Have you watched 'the cunt family' on youtube?
    No thanks.

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    I don't want to make any huge generalisations about women, I'm not here to do that, it's—it's vulgar. But all I'll say is that they have no feelings. Because it's actually men, you'll find, who are the far more romantic. Men are the people you will hear say, 'I've found somebody. She's amazing. If I don't get to be with this person, I'm fucked. I can't carry on, no, I mean it, she's totally transformed my life. I have a job, I have a flat, it means nothing. I can't stand it, I have to be with her. Because if I don't, I going to end up in some bedsit, I'll be alcoholic, I'll have itchy trousers. I can't—I can't walk the streets any more.' That is how women feel about shoes.

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    • Rubycube
      Rubycube

      hahaha

      it's always okay with mary

      5 hours ago
    • Rubycube
      Rubycube

      ar, right, tape that is red is the worst colour of tape.

      i've never gotten into nz as an immigrant/tourist before, so i'm not really much help therree sorreee

      6 hours ago
    • Rubycube
      Rubycube

      nagh, i'm into digital media design me me reckons.


      can you not get into this country of ours?

      6 hours ago
    • Aisling Face.
      Aisling Face.

      Nothings new,
      I hates school,
      What are you upto these days mister? :)

      14 hours ago via Mobile
    • Rubycube
      luv Rubycube

      i fink i'm gonna go learn design in wellington.

      OH AND FUN WELLINGTON FACT #27
      it is super windy there. so don't wear any short fluttery skirts, miss monroe. i know what you're like with skirt-wearing, paul. keep it in the house while yer there, yeah?

      19 hours ago
    • Jamie D
      luv Jamie D

      shite song:L

      3 days ago
    • Rubycube
      Rubycube

      Um and if you want internets for $3 an hour instead of $4, there's a place called Oblong, run by volunteers.. webcafe / activist hotspot on the Left Bank just off of Cuba Mall - apparently features affordable internet (NZD3/hour as compared to the usual 4 elsewhere in town),

      Und ja, that's all the research I've doen for you for now unless I think of some other rad shit. Also I might apply to go to uni there at VIctoria, cooooooooooooool.

      Ciaonow. Tubular Rube

      5 days ago
    • Rubycube
      Rubycube

      ... http://www.wellington.govt.nz/servic... Botanical Gardens are pretty famous and nifty. Take the cable car up from Lambton Quay for $1.80. Mean views of the harbour and all that. And they have shit on there too sometimes so maybe check the Events Calendar on the site.

      http://wellingtonzoo.com/ Erm, our oldest zoo, founded in 1906. I've never been there though so I don't know if it rates or not.

      Pretty important: gig guide. http://www.wotzon.com/gigguide.html so you know what's on and shet. Welly's got a pretty sweet music scene with the bands that are unknown and stuff. Heard of Conan and the Moccasins?

      Cuba Street has got an excellent variety of cafes, pubs, clubs and restaurants.
      Good coffee,vegan food (vegan chocolate cake!) and nibbles at Midnight Espresso in Cuba Street - open quite late. But you aren't vegan are you? :) ...

      5 days ago
    • Rubycube
      luv Rubycube

      Sry that was all I could think of at the time but I am better now.

      Can i HTML post here? no? okay. just names of sites then..

      Attractions

      http://www.beehive.govt.nz The Beehive is New Zealand's Parliament. They do regular free tours during the day. (I went once with school. I can't remember what it was like. Boring I think. But maybe interesting if one is into politix.)

      http://www.tepapa.govt.nz Museum of New Zealand Te Papa Tongarewa on the waterfront. Te Papa rocks, spesh the 2nd floor with the gizmos and shite you can pay to go on... like shearing a fake sheep and doing a fake bungee jump and fake going back in time and forwar in time (I did those things and they were pretty fun at the time. I might have been ten years old though. Actually yeah, flag the fake bungee jump. Do one for realz.)
      ...

      5 days ago
    • Aisling Face.
      Aisling Face.

      You remembered :)
      Im wonderful,
      You sir riddle?

      5 days ago via Mobile
    • Siobhainana
      luv Siobhainana

      Im always like that when Ive some of the evil liquid :L
      So youre clean now? Good stuff. I do reckon youd make a good version of Charles Bukowski though. Bit of an effort really but like, why not?
      Im very hungover :(
      Ill be in your land two fridays away! Have babysitting though, so cant watch weird movies with you or drink with ya in empty pubs:(

      6 days ago
    • Rubycube
      Rubycube

      Cuba street. Mall.

      1 week ago
    • Jamie D
      luv Jamie D

      soo..how was last nite?:)

      1 week ago
    • Rubycube
      luv Rubycube

      WELLINGTON....



      i get back to you on thut

      1 week ago
    • Aisling Face.
      Aisling Face.

      Totally ;)

      How are you sir? :)

      1 week ago via Mobile
    • Siobhainana
      Siobhainana

      Mehhhhhh its not in my power, I am so far down the fail road!:L
      Sup anyways?
      Hows work, life, drinking etc?

      1 week ago
    • Siobhainana
      luv Siobhainana

      Hola! Im failing college, did I tell you? Ive already lost 50% in economics.....:O :O :O

      1 week ago
    • Aisling Face.
      Aisling Face.

      paulwall :P

      1 week ago via Mobile
    • Siobhainana
      luv Siobhainana

      How was your halloween? Please tell me you went out!
      Guess whats overrated! I had baby trick or treaters though, so my life is complete :D

      3 weeks ago
    • Jamie D
      luv Jamie D

      aww stopp sure i kno:DD

      3 weeks ago