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Scott's Pain And Anger
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Scott yesterday sustained a serious injury to his left shoulder. This was result of a direct impact of a fall. The implications of this fall has lead to him falling further and deeper within himself. Snowboarding is his passion, his job and seems to be an escape or addiction and he is now knowingly without it... perhaps for a long time. He is suffering and I feel this demise is only the beginning. He has started drinking alcohol already, an act that that he intends will cover up his depression, his anger. I am afraid for him but perhaps I will be able to uncover some darker truths in this time of uncertainty.
Ciao
Carlo
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63 days ago
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Gods and Ghosts
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There are certain things we believe in, be it ghosts or god, we are not as free in our mind as we may think.
Last night I watched the subjects of my film, the so called "athletes", get very drunk and foolish.
How they expect to perform to the best of their ability having partaken in such excess is a mystery to me. Perhaps they attempt to numb their anxiety with these intoxicants. I see weakness in them at these times.
Weaknesses that I must uncover to reveal their motivation for their extreme pursuits.
They are driven to this behaviour by forces unknown to them.
I will continue my study and attempt to find the answers.
Carlo
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64 days ago
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A New Day
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The worst of the storm seems to have passed. It is still.
Energy levels in the chalet are low but tensions remain high. There is a strange aura about the place. Tyler's video entry has made me feel very positive. I am aware that it must be very difficult for both Scott and Tyler to be made the focus of this study, to be held under the microscope.
The pressure is getting to them. I have become the catalyst that allows their emotions to be revealed.
The intensity of my research has risen. I am uncovering their subconscious. Real fears.
I am close to discovering what drives them and the roots of their anxieties. From fears that have haunted their past. Oppression, inferiority, concerns over security, loss of identity. To fears over the future.
To suffering there is a limit, to fearing none.
C
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65 days ago
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