I ended up staying longer in Koh Phi Phi, as the camera broke and we had to wait for a new one. - that suited me down to the ground as i loved it there!!

I went out Halloween night, it was some craic....just imagine an island and everywhere you walk on it theres a party!
All the crazy people come out on Halloween too..so it was bound to be fun!

The costumes were great, there was Lady boys to tarzan to zombies...so funny!

First off went to the Irish pub, but i dont know if you could really call it and Irish pub if they dont have Guinness on tap....hmmm?anywho....so yeah started there....played.. damn whats the name of it...totally lost for words....the game with the little men attached to the bars?...and the ball? so ya you get me. met some people had a few laughs...but it was time to move on...went to our next bar the tiger bar, this is where we met some of Tamsin's mates that she did kick boxing with...such nice people! trying to feed me "pad thai" local noodle dish...in a bar! haha so good!

for ye that have been to Thailand ye will know that drink are served in buckets....so yeah..you get real drunk real fast! but it was all good...stopped for a pancake to soak up some drink so i could keep going for the night!
I will miss those pancakes so much... *im in Bangkok right now...and they dont have them anywhere... *! they make them out of doughnut dough and flip and fold them every which way...and they taste like a nutella-ie heaven!mmm

so then after making a little possie for ourselves...we made our way down to the beach party....more lady boys than you could shake a stick at!...was great craic!
I wasnt dressed up on this fine occasion, as i didnt think they celebrated Halloween. so i went around the crowd and someone put a pair of horns on my head- have no idea who did it but i went with it...and danced about - *slightly tipsy* and had so much craic! some more buckets...and at this stage i sat down on the beach...then got another pancake for goodluck and went off home to sleep until the next day when the sun would wake me up..and that was my queue to hit the beach, whilst grabbing a coconut on the way!

Alright hmm where to begin, hard to concentrate with Thin Lizzy playing in the back round!!!

So for last week when i had my week off, with Andre. ok just imagine spending a week on a really relaxing island and lying on the beach. Ofcourse you mind is going to wander, my mind will generally go back to Ireland, and i think about how its going to be when im back. Also keeping in mind, my boy friend and i had just finished too, during this week, but ya know i went out with Andre we had mad craic and partied out , trying to take my mind off all that. It worked too, a bit.

I suppose im just so worried about what im going to do when im back, have no plans set in stone (apart from eating bacon and cabbage). I have been living a fantasy for the past 6months, and now i have to go back to reality, not to mention the weather the recession. Then not coming home to my ex. So yeah just having alot of anxiety at the moment. But I've thought there is sweet f a i can do now, and ive vowed to just enjoy and not worry for the next two weeks and just live it up. then when i get home, take each step as it comes. Theres no other realistic option anyway!

As for being the topic of the Gap year page, yeah it was hard...seeing people slate me and support me, i stayed well out of it, in the end it wasnt even about me.
My whole thought on it has been, yes ok i am in a vulnerable place, where people will voice their opinion of me regularly....but unfortunately with everything else going on, i wasnt as strong as i usually would be, the criticism was not the reason for me being upset, it just came at a shitty time and i was being asked about it when i was thinking and worring about other things. anyway everyone is welcome to their opinion, but i think people shouldnt be as blind, but youll always get that, people shouldnt take 7mins of a filmed week and think that is teh entire person, adn think thats the only thing going on in that persons life, youd be and eejit to think that way, but some do. I suppose as ive been in this position, i will always take care of my opinion of others, because you never really know a person. even your best friend can turn around and shock you. anyway point is, im fine and i can deal with that bebo gap year malarkey...as i know they just have no idea...none what so ever.
As for everything else that made me upset, sure i can only wait and see.

The thing with Andre and I is well plain adn simply, and Andre cant get angry, even though i was afraid of bringing it up as he might be sensitive with it. But ya cant be mad with someone whos honest.
Andre and i hanged out for the week, Andre wanted a bit more than friendship and then i told him, no what i said in my prior vid was true i didnt fancy him...all was fine....then i was trying to upload my challenge video, god forbid it would be late!! and Andre offered i said No, i have private stuff on it, he was being persistant about it i still declined the offer adn he went off in a huff.

Now thankfully im sure its all fine as weve chatted since.

so there ya go folks,

Right now, im in Koh Phi Phi, and lovin it, depiste the monsoon that pours down crazy at times, but its really nice...alot more alive than Koh Tao....and sure arent the Irish everywhere!!

talk soon. x

Right so this week and a bit, ive been in Koh Tao,Thai island! Its so great here i love it, relax by day in the sun (when the monsoon isnt pouring), and then go out at night. Ive met some really nice people here, couple of french & Irish people, yes we are in every country !! we invented craic!!
Anywho, so one evening i went out with Andre, had to put something in our video for the week! We have dinner down by the sea, amazing set up...the whole restaurant and kitchen was on the beach, as the waves crashed up onto the sand...was great!...serious food too!
Then after we go to a pub on the beach...yes we are on an island...lots of things are on the beach! we smell the pub before we see it.....smell of paraffin, jasus it was bad!!....then we see these fire balls being juggled....then to ass to the whole thing there was a kid, probably no more than 5 6 max....doing the same thing as the adult....juggling fire, for the crowds entertainment....!theres laws against this hey only in thailand eh...was wicked though...he was too cute...and just doing his thing not a bother on him!
Then before i could frek out a guy was juggling fire around my head...first initial thought was ohh lord...hairspray + fire = no hair!! then i looked up and Andre was filming and i was like itll be my luck because the cameras on my hair will definately go up in flames now...but thankfully it didnt..i still have my full head of hair!!

After the near bald incident we took a stroll down a street, me thinking this looks pretty similar to the street with the lady bar on it....before i knew it Andre had me in the door! It was gas there walked in and yer wan or man was singing whitney houston, and the lip sync was hilarious -- out fits gas --make up surprising well done ! few more acts passed by, i couldnt help but not blink and not smile. THEN...the presenter of the show says we need volunteers and before i knew it i was handed the camera and Andre was back stage getting ready! the music starts and Andre comes out in some very dodgey outfit, im sure he put together. he did some dancing and then my eyes turned to the fella in the wispy green hot pants....when i saw him i nearly burst out laughing BUT couldnt i had to film and try so hard not to shake the camera! he was doing some serious dancing which could in some light be called sexy, all i knew was i was going to get every pelvic thrust on camera to share with you guys...it was just too funny!! then at the end he whiped off his bra and rubbed his wet fingers on his nipples.....hahah pure gold!!!

After that gas experience, we stopped by a Irish Pub, generally i avoid these, as they dont do much justice to the real ones back home.....BUT i took a seat up on a table...was quite packed. The guy singing was unreal....people would just shout up a song.....like come on who knows the cords and lyrics of "peggy sue" by buddy holly...seriously now he was unreal!
Icing on the cake was when for the forth time everyone started up "ONE MORE TUNE" then sure didnt he start blaring out LISDOONVARNA...i was never as happy to hear it!!.....then ofcourse after that "ONE MORE TUNE" and youll never believe he started to sing "GALWAY GIRL" i had pains in my cheeks i was so happy!!

Before i went home to bed, i got a pancake from this guy who goes around with a stall....quickest fella ever jesus! took my first bite....and it was like a crispy pancake with nutella...serious drinkin food there!! right up there with curry cheese chips!!