It seems like its all going well one minute, Then your off with some other girl, Leaving my mum pissed off and angry, Worst part was, You didn't ring me on my birthday, Hugging you is like hugging a brick wall, I feel embarrased, i can feel you being embarrased also, The whole time im thinking, why am i doing this? He doesn't care, Hes only doing it because he has to, he has other sons to care about, he doesn't need another.
But i still wish i had a dad who cared about me, if only a little bit.

Thanks alot dad.

I can't help hoping that they fought over ME. Still doesn't help though.

i love you .

baby your tearing me apart
i dont know how much
longer i can cope.
but i still love you

I'm glad I was never included in "the gang",

I'm glad I was the one left out of games,

I'm glad I sat at home while you all went out partying,

I'm proud of the loner I am and I would want to be a pretentious fuck like the rest of you.

So don't try to be smug.

i wish you would get wiped of existence from earth

I wish you didn't love me then I wouldn't have to break your heart.

i still love you, but i love him aswell.

I can't even accept who I am myself, so I don't expect you to either.

i miss you.

i can't believe i cried over you.

www.bebo.com/newandifferent

if you're different

cant seem to figure it out
he says things that
make me so happy
and over the moon
but then, he says the
complete opposit
one minute im the
nicest person in the
world. the next, im
horrible for not wanting
to tell him a secret that
could honestly shatter him.

i feel we are drifting apart
but i made him a promise
i promised no matter what
wether we are together or not
i will get that star tattoo'd on my
wrist. because im getting five
stars on my wrist. one for all
the important people in my life
him, holly, mum, dad, brother.

i said even if im not with him
i will still get his star tattoo'd
because he is my life and my
world. i love him ):
yet why are we drifting apart?

im so confusedx

the song 'i'd lie' by taylor swift sums up exactly how i feel about you. down to the very last detail.

random conversations on the bus, a girl asked me :
"if you were aloud to kill ONE person, would you ? an who would it be?"
an amazingly, you popped into my head.
and i felt so bad for thinking it.
but you make me hate you so much.

I'm living a bit of a joke really, kidding myself that i've got all these friends that care when they keep walking off with other people.

I hate the way we are right now, I don't want to be needy but there's times when i need to talk someone and i wish you were here for me but you're not..

for some reason.. i find my mother completely revolting.

Thank you for all of the pick and mixes you've brought me over these past few years, nan.
They make me know someone cares.

I Hate you, go away.