your grip is getting tighter
your prescence thats suffocating me
my heart being crushed and trapped

the threats of ending your life
your tricks on making me stay
trapped in a endless heart ache you call love

the ties you tangle to keep me
the pressure colasping my heart
lost yourself in your pain, you drag me down with you

are you the angel to save me?
or is it another mask
is it another lie that you will never reveal?

my sanity fading away
the childish fears that never leave
the time cannot change the past

my heart you still have, crushing with your hand
bound with your ties, left with your old life
your voice that surrounds my every move

your still here but i'm always alone
still looking for that angel light that dicipated
your love that seemed as a lie

a sudden move of my heart and it shatters
your sensless hate that you smuther me in
running away where its safe to hide

your life you put in my hands
the weight on my shoulders
losing controll on what you had

forcing your way to my life
pushing me away with everything you do
crushing what we once had

would you losen your ties and let me free?
would you stop the threats and let us live?
would you ask me if my smile was yet a lie?

could you tell me you loved without hate?
could i wake from the nighmare ive been placed in?
could you stop my heart from breaking?

lost without any place to go
saying goodbye this last time
but im always still here
and so is the heart you destroyed

would you still love the person you destroyed?
or leave her there to face everything alone

Your hate and blame
Your deception and lies
smothering me with your tainted heart
going down in the flames you drag me with you
so sick with shame
so lost in your pain
you hurt the one you love
now shes nowhere to be found
love you never felt
pain you never let go
the past that doesnt go away
the revenge you seek
the hate you love
the tears that never show
you wonder what made her leave
but you dont see the emptyness in her eyes
wishing or something better
wishing for the past
left without a word
walked away from it all
holding onto her when shes not there
sufficating
lying
cheating
acting like it was nothing
never believed until it was too late
manipulating
loathing
you words that fill me with sorrow
still looking from afar
still wondering everyday
you pushed me away
you cant find me now
its too late
you cant see the emptyness
only hearing the words inside your head
never let go
scream and yell
the same broken heart
a different ending

a poem I just wrote..its called did you ever love me?

tears come to my eyes whenever i hear your name

do you really care? or is it just a game

you said you loved me and would always be here

but howcome i havnt seen you sense last year?

we never wanted it to be this way

but what else were we supposed to say?

feeling so lost and confused

hardly know what to do

dont tell me it will be ok when it wont

dont lie to me and say you love me we all know you dont

so sick and tired of all the lying

sometimes i cant stop crying

family growing further appart

you have to learn to stay sharp