Half of me is working extra hard these days just to get out of bed, and perhaps - just perhaps - to fix myself some breakfast.
The other half of me died a long time ago.
She shuddered in the wind, and then vanished, like ashes caught in an updraft.
I think it was a mercy killing really, a euthanasia of sorts.
She did not really want to die, just a relief from the pain.
She has lied to everyone; friends, family, lovers... noone would see her weak. Noone would see her in any form of real light.
The lack of this light caused a slowly growing shadow to engulf every ounce of her being, the narrow walls seeming to cave in around her whilst she lay sobbing wrapped in bedsheets drenched in her own cold sweat.
She has lied to everyone..
But not anymore. What is left of to hide? Only half of me remains.
She thought the deceptive tales she told would help her, would nurture her, would protect her from the harsh reality of emotions.
But when she lied to them, she lied to herself.
Carrisa Simpkin
Yah, im starting to get used to bebo lolz! =D
Hmm what do you do out of school??!!
OH! yeah schools just a bludge really lol leave everything til the alst minute then pass heh.
just proves how stupdi teachers are AHAHA lolz :S
BUT, i spose thats a ggod thing thou!
XO
1 day ago
Carrisa Simpkin
OH! No, sorry!
Its juts that i havent been on here for like years since i signed up lolz.
im more into mysapce thou thats why lol.
Yeah, im good! =D
SOOO gay we gotta go back to school tomorrow!
you lucky!
you dont have to ahaha lolz
XO
1 day ago
Carrisa Simpkin
Hehe nah ias posting a comment to you kelsey! =D
Amber and i are friends eyah were in mostly all the same classes lol
XO
1 day ago
Together Forever
Nah, its the company. i had heaps of reception when i was attempting to send texts. oh well, if it's not better by tomorrow, i'll ring them and abuse them.
lol
xo
1 day ago
Together Forever
well, my sister just rang me and she can't send text either. . . neither can the person that's at her place thats on the same network, so...yeah. its not my phone after all...
what is your phone (what model)?
1 day ago
Together Forever
fucking pissed off.
my vodafone sim card is playing up. it lets me call people but i can't text anyone.
so, yeah,I'm not in a very good mood at the moment.
xo
1 day ago
Carrisa Simpkin
Hey! =D
SOOO sorry i didnt comment like WAYYY earlier!
i only went on here for the first time in like two years yesterday lolz :S
How are you??!!
XO