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So as most of you know i have been moderating the BIGGEST most haunted group on bebo for the past 2 years or so..

Has been pretty fun i'll admit,

But recently due to new staff involvement it has collapsed down,
Skin and module changes,
Plus a distinct lack of correct language usage regarding polls, blogs.. etc

I'm seriously thinking about leaving the group and dropping the job,

Its not as it used to be which has really pissed me off

The past is falling apart,
like the inside of my body and heart.
My body is trembling - I can’t sit still,
losing you was not my will.
Dark shadows are eating me,
trapping me - I’m never more free.
I’m a victim of the sorrow,
that will be even worse tomorrow.
In just a second - a disconnection,
everything changed in the wrong direction.

My tears are never stopping to flow,
like the blood from my wrist I cut oh no.
Nightmares turning out to be real,
that is how I really feel.
Reality spreads like poison,
in my veins and my motion.
I’m falling down to something unsteady,
I know with myself I’ll never be ready.
A dying light is like watching me I guess,
as I fall deeper into the emptiness.

Darkness is suffocating me,
I’m a prisoner - I’m not free.
Chained in the words you said,
unable to live - or to be dead.
I’m broken inside - empty for blood,
I have now finally understood.
I’m trapped somewhere - not able to heal,
inside torture is all I shall forever feel.
I’m bleeding unconsciously - always dying a little bit more,
one day I hope you will regret and pick me up from the floor.

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Suffering is only the first stage..

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