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M finkin to delete this whole thing

Thanks to the readers etc..When i started writin this I had nuff love for it no joke
But i gess whatever happened happened lol
Au revoir Senoritas


Byee

Nothing is promised to me and you
So why will we let this thing go
Baby I promise that I'll stay true
Don't let nobody say it ain't so
And baby I promise that i'll never leave
And everything will be alright, I
I promise these things to you
Girl just believe
I promise(

I was Listiin to Jagged Edge Promise.. I'd almost forgotten how much i love them manz
They know how to touch a girls heart... Remembering the love i had for my ex is alot but im just glad i didnt lose him to a close girl friend coz it would have shattered my heart no doubt.. He made me hapy and made me feel like i was the only one.. I forgot about everyone else when i was around him.. But thats in the past now and we dont wanna dwell in it do we?

It was our song and he knew how much iloved it.. He always sang it to me and he wasnt so bad it was just as goood.. I loved knowing that he was mine.. Okay lets stop cause im crying already and the fact that i have earphones in and the true emotions of the song are seepin through me aint helpin... I live with my mother and have just one older brother.. He moved out a long time ago 20 goin on 21.. I love my family though they have no idea why i am the way i am.. quiet and reserved.. But i gess its thanks to him that i feel this way about myself... Ive lost my self esteem. Why did he break my heart? Why did he leave me?

I remember waiting for him to call me.. I stood out in the rain for 8 hours late at night waiting..For the one i love to show me his appriciation.. In a way he was half of me.. The only one i wannted in my life the one that "promised everything is alright"...

He moved away and told me he had moved on... A phone call after 3 years of having eyes for him and him alone.. Its been 8 months and ever since i was 14 I've always looked older and acted older and tHought older.. I never hung around with people my age and thats why i was so mature.. I looked it to.. I was 5 foot 9 slim built size 12 and 14 trousres due to the african curves God blessed me with.. I had back i aint gonna lie it was impressive i couldnt hide it so i stuck to skinny jeans etc..

Im a young girl 18 goin on 19 normal life... As much as i would love to turn my life around and go to church i dont think thats going to happen anytime soon!!
I was feelin so low i decided to call my girls and ask em wag1 for tonight..
So i called Louisa aka LuLu

LuLu: "Jaydar Baby Wasgud"

Yupp the names Jayda but i liked jaydar coz the r sounds sexy like dat!!
Me: "Nothin b you know me.. still on dem quiet levels init.. Lifes Just gettin more depressin"

LuLu: "Lighten up baby girl its friday and you know how "no offence" your life aint eczactly fun is it? But anyway like i always do im gonna give you 2 minutes to think everything through and tell me whether you want a new life or you still wanna be depressed coz you know you can start over no big deal and leave the past behind .. He promised and he broke it Jay it happens and it aint gonna undo itself its gonna stay the way it is.. Just live, laugh, love, forgive and forget.. Like Trinity said.."

So i thought I stopped thinking about him, and how nothing exciting was in my life.. I hardly ever go outside since were on holidays my being in my room has gotten even worse..
I always did this.. thought it through and saw that life couldnt offer me anyting new.. Or could it.. I always tried i mean i know goin out more would be a great start.. baby steps.. I gess it wouldnt hurt.. Maybe a party or 2.. Travelin since i have been saving up for he past 3 years and have alot of money i aint spent..

Me: Baby Steps.. Where do we start?

LuLu It's Been Too Long Baby Girl.. Welcome to my world

Jaydar Feirce... I felt brand new already and Boy DO I HAVE A GAME PLAN!!
New Me New Life!! Time to Become the Heartless Bitch ive always wanted to be...

Bring It On


HOL

I know I havent been on BEBO IN TIIIMMEE!!! ... BUT I BEG PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR MY COMPUTER AINT BEEN WORKIN N I JUST DIDINT HAVE TIME TO WRITE..

I KNOW I HATE IT WHEN MY FAV STORIES BLOGS AINT BEEN UPDATED N I FEEL REAL SHITTY LOL SO..

LET ME KNOW IF YOU STILL WANT CHAPTERS SO I CAN WRITE LOOOAAADSS AT THE ONE TIME..

OF COURSE THEY WILL BE EVEN BETTER THAN THE OLD WUNS.. I JUST WANNA KNOW IF YOU LOTS STILL WANT THIS OR I SHOULD JUST ALLOW IT N LET THE OTHER MODERATER DO WHAT SHE LIKES WID THE STORY

Nuff to my readers