Do you ever find that every single person you meet there is a part of you in them? Every person I have ever met, in some way, good or bad, small or big, there was a part of me that was like them. Some people will know I live under the subjective reality model of reality rather than the very ego based objective reality or solipsism (which is very often confused with subjective reality, they are two completely different things). Basically what I am saying is that everyone you meet is a reflection of yourself in some way. In fact the more I become a better person, I end up loosing touch with those who reflected a bad part of my personality and closer with those that reflect a good part of my personality.

When I was depressed, I attracted more depressed people towards me, I ended up helping all of them first when really I should have worked on my own wellbeing first. When I am simmering with sexual energy I attract all these horny people BWAHAHAHAHA.

Before I go on about how we are all linked, I'll talk about what da fuck is subjective reality bro?

It's extremely hard to explain, but in simple words, there is one consciousness. You. This implies that you're god and you do whatever the hell you want. At first thought this seems like a very egotistical belief, really it's the complete opposite. Lemme explain

Before I talked about how we are all linked (the people you meet) and how they are a reflection of yourself. If you link this idea with the idea of you being God and being the one consciousness it makes sense to assume that you and the person sitting next to you are the same thing. One consciousness.

Now the reason why SR (subjective reality) is not a egoic system of reality is because you have to love yourself, and love others for it to be a successful system. If you treat yourself like crap, you'll reflect that in other people and they'll treat you like crap. So if your depressed and feeling shit, the only person that can truly help is yourself because everyone else is a reflection of you.

So yay in real life, you can get whatever the hell you want (I mean...you ARE God). You want money you gets. You want love, you gets. You want a good job, you gets But what stops us from reaching these things? That dreaded word, ego. Ego is full of self concern, connecting yourself more with your body which is meant to be a simulating tool to experience life, not as YOU. I'll explain ego in more detail in another blog but for now...

Ego thinks it creates. It doesn't. It's meant to validate what you created which was through pure consciousness NOT THOUGHT OR EGO. When you are reacting to ego you're blocking your full potential power to manifest anything. When you simply step back, intend whilst in the present and between thinking and then validate with your ego rather than reacting, manifestation becomes easier.

Just remember this, if you accept that you are the creator you must accept responsibility for everything you have created. You can't blame someone else, you can't be god and be in denial. Every single thing that happens is your responsibility. I'm not implying that if you got abused it's your fault, but you need to take the responsibility to actually move on from that, don't use things that have happened to you to not take responsibility. Love life, live consciously.

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I know some of you probably have questions because I didn't explain it in detail (I would have gone on for pages )
Comment and ask questions xoxo Sarah.

Click the title for the full blog (only part of the blog shows on my profile, so click "The Retarded Year 9's and their tendency to act like douche bags." to see the whole thing, and trust me if your a year 9 and being a silly cow you'll want to read this)
I don't have a problem with calling you a cunt if it's true. Other than that, it's a gross word haha the fact I'm even using it suggests how ridiculous I think you are.

The events in the past 3 days have called upon the great and fabulous Sarah to write another blog entry. Of course by now you will know of the large amount of sanctimonious, pretentious bitch’s that are about five foot short that have being using the most basic of words in the English language to insult me, and epically fail. Anyway the point of this blog was to use these girls (Kushla and her fuckcows) as an example. They have used me as an example for a “slut” so I shall gladly repay them

This made me think back to who I was in year 9. Am I still the same person? Deep down, the very fibres of my soul, yes I am. I am Sarah, mother to my friends, councillor to those in need. I’ve always been the one to help people with their problems. To keep them in check. To tell them when they’re wrong when they can't see straight, to help improve their life. I still love creative writing, that is certainly a part of who I am. I’m still an avid reader. I’m still extremely opinionated. I still question the world and how it works. How peoples minds work. That is me. Not all of me obviously but those are some things.

In year nine I was a crazy little chick that didn’t give a shit about school. I wanted to fit into school and would conform to what others believed. Obviously not to the extent KFC goes to (KookyFuckcows/cunts. lols I am beyond awesome:p). I still had my own mind, but I would sometimes stray as a sheep. I did feel crap about myself back then, I smoked cigarettes and I drank gin. But that is not me. I am not the cigarette. I am not the glass of gin. Actions represent people which is correct. But to what extent can you label someone because of an action? If you have a cigarette once a year does that make you a smoker? If you had a glass of alcohol does that make you an alcoholic? If you starved for a week does that make you anorexic? If you speak your mind does that make you a bitch? If you tried weed does that make you a stoner? If you hooked up with one guy does that make you a slut? The answer to every single one of those questions is no.
If you smoke a ciggie everyday you’re a smoker. If you hit the bottle every night you are an alcoholic. If you continuously starve yourself you’re anorexic. If you lash out at every single person in sight you’re a bitch. If you do weed every weekend you’re a stoner. If you hook-up with every guy at a party every other weekend you’re a slut.

Now lets talk about our second problem. Why do so many year 9’s act the same? They all chant “EWWW” at the same time (buy a dictionary lovelies, your vocabulary is in some serious need of updating) they all walk around with supre bags and they all write lyk dis cuz lyk daht is thee cool wayyyy of rytiiing! In other words what is happening at school is a very good example of crowd psychology. Basically this is where ordinary people gain power from acting collectively. Their minds merge into a certain idea of thinking. They are not individuals anymore, they are sheep, people who are nothing special. If one of them dies no one cares, there are still loads more of them. They are all clones of each other, no longer unique, they appear as this obese mass of unintelligent fools. This is their uniform. You might be a really smart, pretty year 9 but it doesn’t matter now because you’re not you anymore, you’re KFC

I’ve made a promise to myself to keep true. To stick to my beliefs, to make sure everyone knows I’m Sarah Wilkinson and not some other label “emo” or “

You know what I realised? A bunch of my friends are fake fucktards who try so hard to be weird and different they are just as bad as people who try so hard to be like everyone else. My friends are basically everything they are against.

"OMG like if I act really really weird and talk about rape and sex with corpses everyone will love me and stare at me and I'll get all this attention! OOOOOH!" *Ahem* yeah you look like a retard and any respect I had for you is now lost.

Please. Stop bitching about our whole group to me and then acting like their bestfriends to their faces. At least our group and other people know when I'm pissed off with them. I'll straight up tell them. Two faced cunts are on my hit list.

All the shit you say to me about them? Wow, now I wonder what you say about me.

Stop changing yourself for other people. I'm not talking about a specific person here. No that'd be mean. I'm talking about people in teenage society in general. Be happy. Be yourself. Be in love. We are. - Lena Katina

It's seriously pathetic. I thought people got over the need to impressive the whole entire world in year 9. Your not fooling anyone. Everyone isn't going to love you. True people are going to hate you. Fake people will push you around. And fellow desperate wannabes will cling to you. People like me will move on and get on with our own personal development.

Another thing. Stop coming to me with your problems. I used to care. Until one day it was my turn to find a shoulder to cry on and you weren't there. "People don't know what to say". I didn't realise I was surrounded by imbeciles. Considering I give advice everyday and help people all the time I know it's not hard to come up with something. Oh but wait? You don't give a fuck except for your own problems. Don't expect me to help you next time if you're one of those people. I'm over it.

Don't hate on me because I love myself. I don't prance around on my high horse and go on about how I'm totally IN love with myself. NO, I shouldn't be punished because I'm happy with who I am and don't give a fuck about whether I'm a size 6 or 8 or whatever. Just because I wake up feeling great about myself doesn't give you the excuse to try get me down whenever you can. Go to a shrink and sort out your self esteem issues.

And to the people in my life who are simply amazing. A handful of people that are sparkingly diamonds and are extremely hard to come by. Be happy that you lot are part of a minority and so are even more special! Through out the years I don't think I could be the person I am today with out some direction from you and experiencing life with you guys

XOXO Sarah


By the way this isn't about Madina. She's one of my best friends and is the queen of original weirdness. All you dumbasses that this blog is directed at should get their own lives. It's like all the g units stealing Tupac. LOL