For all of you who are annoyed by me right now...
i really couldnt give a rats ass

a lot of you have not even heard MY half to the story....so
how the hell can yu judge me without fucking talking 2 me eh eh eh?
nd i dont appareciate it if people make shit up about me either.

Look, i really thought a lot of you were my friends
i guess not

take a look at urself
grow up

RISE AGAINST LYRICS

"Everchanging"

in the face of change
that's when she turned to me and said,
"i'm not sure anymore..."
and there amidst the waves
and the cloudless skies
that blanket the year before
i watch my life wash a shore

have you ever been a part of something
that you thought would never end?
and then of course it did
have you ever felt the weight inside you
pulling away inside your skin?
and then something had to give

[Chorus:]
now the lines are drawn
is this feeling gone?
the best parts of this have come and gone
and now that is all this is
with the reasons clear
we'll spend another year
without direction, full of fear
and now things will be different

there's nothing simple when it comes to you and i
always something in this everchanging life
and it probably always will
now that time is getting harder to come by
the same arguments are always on our mind
we've killed this slowly fading light

[Chorus:]
now the lines are drawn
is this feeling gone?
the best parts of this have come and gone
and now that is all this is
with the reasons clear
we'll spend another year
without direction, full of fear
but now things will be different

and now something has kept me here too long
and you can't leave me if i'm already gone

well now something (hey) has kept me here too long
and you can't leave me (hey) if i'm already gone

now let's say that something (hey) has kept me here too long
and you can't leave me (hey) if i'm already gone

make the same mistakes we're always hanging on
break the promises we're always leaning on
all this time spent waking up
{now i} keep this line open to get this call from you
{as you} speak the words that keep me coming back to you
now this time it's all different

now something has kept me here too long and now i'm gone...

You are one sick person if you dont repost this i feel for you
if this doesnt touch you because this is just wrong. read this. its disgusting

Walking in my nighty, rubbing my eyes
My fathers sitting on the sofa with his friend
He pats the seat in the middle, i sit
Shivering so cold, a quilt he lends
"Jessy you love me dont you" I smile
Their breathe spirts weep
"Daddy you know i do, what is it?" He smiles at his friend, his hand creeps His friend takes my hand and looks me in the eyes
Daddys creeping up my nightys with such cold hands
I try to pull his hand away the grip is strong!
They look at one another then nod, somethings planned
I feel my palms sweat, Daddys under my knickers
"Daddy im going to bed! Night" Pulling again
But there grip is to strong for me
I look at both, and ask, who are these men?
His fingers going up me, pulling away
His friend leans forward, a kiss? Why?
His toungue moving mine, my eyes squint
Lean back and away, "Why are you doing this?"
No answer, i feel the pain inside me
Chucks the quilt on the floor
I try and scamper away, but im not fast
"O Daddy please, i love you"
His friend is pulling at my nightys
And my Dad pulling my pants down
His friend pinning my hands to the floor
As my Dad lies himself on the ground I squirm,
as Daddys friend pulls me up
And places me ontop of Daddy, thrusts within
I cry, i bite, i scratch, i slap, i fail
"O Daddy please you win you win!"
I can feel my skin rip, my virginity breaking free
I can feel the blood seep down my leg
"Daddy your hurting me please" I plead to him and his friend, not even a beg Daddys laughing, why does he laugh?
His friend shoves himself in my mouth and moans
Tieing my hands together, moving in and out
"Ride me Jessy" He laughs and groans
They smile at one another, laugh too
They roll me over and spread me wide well
My daddy sits on my face, himself in again
While his friend talks and pushes himself inside I can hardly breathe; i gag for air
I cough and splutter, cry and weep
I beg and plead, but its no use
They've already made me hurt and bleed I stare into his eyes, that look upon me
This is not my Dad, where is he?
If he was still here, would he care
Would he actually even, see? Finally they get of and lie me on the sofa
My cheeks blouchy from tears and pain
They play with them selfs, all over me
Rub it in, making me feel the shame "Why Daddy? Please tell me why?"
Dad looks at his friend, and waves him away
"Jessy i love you" he smiles and kisses my cheek
"Is that all you have in your heart to say?" He puts my nightie on me and walks me to my bedroom door

Ever since that night, His friend And himself every Friday come back for more "Night sweet Girl, You are my life"
Closing the door, tears still down my face
Still the smell of him and his friend
Fade into me like disgrace I watch the Moon go down, the sun come up
"Jessy its school"
Knocking at my door
I cant help but cry, weep in pain
Because im so scared he wanted more
But one night daddy took it too far
Daddy and his friend came back for one last shot
They were worried they would get caught
So he and his friend took me to a cemetary lot I was blindfolded and my hands were tied back
"Daddy please!! Not tonight!"
Daddy and his friend both had their last fun
After that i tried to put up a fight I begged daddy "Please no more!"
All he could say "Shut up you stupid whore!"
Daddy unblindfolded me at last
He said I love you so much
He went back into the car and pulled out a bat
"Daddy I swear I wont say a thing!!!!"
I was dead After only one swing..........................

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