No matter what I do
I cant get her to love me.
I cant get her to see
that we
is better than her and me,
that we stronger as a couple
and weaker as individuals.
i see her in my dreams
and see what we could have
if she would take me
as her other...better yet better half.
She makes me laugh
she makes me cry
sometimes she even makes me lie.
I wnat her so bad but all she wants are these other dudes
that dont give a fuck
and just wanna buck
better yet fuck.
Fuck all this confidential shit....Joi you kno this about you
This aint the first or last time im gon confess my love
which is as pure as a dove.
I wish we could go back to the early days
before joseph and all that shit
where we were happy and in love.
I still remember how we met
it was the perfect upset
like the Texans beating the Cowboys in the Superbowl.
I want her not for her body but for her
when i say her i mean it all
i'll even help take care of little Joesph.
I want all of her problems and all,
but i want her exclusively
no inclusively.
Im stingy
Im selfish
i want her for myself.
She makes my heart beat,
she makes me lose my seat
and puts me in more than heat,
it puts me in inferno
but this has nothing to do with sex
this about love
which fits us like a glove.
We belong together
we belong together,
YOu know wat Joi if you reading this
imagine me on one knee typing this
and ending with.....
Will You Marry Me and become Mrs. Matthew Dominic Stewart?

Somewhere over the rainbow i see the event and what it could mean and what we could be. i dont want 2 believe what i see but somehow i feel she's the key. first we're best friends and in the saying of one word she wont even talk 2 me. i dont know what 2 do, stop talking 2 her or make her my boo. this feeling right here is brand new if it was a color it would be a strange hue i try 2 stay cool but im getting red and green lights that made me reach new heights had me thinking i just might. it gave me feelings that ive never felt before like she had the key to my heart and opened the door. i wanna ask her whats up but its like she keeps her feelings in a half empty cup so i cant reach it cuz all i want to do is taste it a little bit. i aint cried over a girl in a long time but whats happening now is crossing the line. so now i lay down this stencil for my feelings i hope i can somehow resolwe these dealings.

I tell her i love her and she tells me she wants to take a break
I dont really think she understands whats at stake,
I dont really think she understand the extremity of this mistake.
She better be careful with the decision that she makes.
She tells me some dude she knows has her feeling torn
She acts like she has known this guy since she was born.
She likes him just as much as me
but what has he done
to deserve to be number 1.
i remember a time when i was the one that holds her heart
even though she lied i loved her from the start.
I hope she knows that she broke her lovers heart.
I sit here crying as I write these words
wondering why i face this awful curse
I dont understand y she must do this to me
I want to be with her
y cant she see!!
She was the apple of my eye for 2 years
and know she makes me shed tears
man that fuckin grinds my gears
Im tired of getting screwed over and stepped on
moved over and slept on
I treat them like queens
and they treat me like dirt
i might as well be a butler like old uncle lurch.
Man those words really hurt
I think we should take a break
SHe just made the biggest mistake
and lost the one who loved her .
But the truth of the matter is I'll always love her
but i dont kno if i can take her back
so that when anotha guy comes along
again she wont drop me like a sack
I kno i did wrong and I paid for my sins
but i never new i had to live them again
but in reverse.
This dude whoever he is can have her
i dont fuckin want her
fuck her
we been through a year together and this is how it ends
i feel like a fish out of water i just cant breathe
i dont kno wat to do
fuck her man i'll find someone else someone better
O shit i think I found her
The one that im takin to the Classic
now i wish she was goin.
Man now that church has no reason for me to be there except for the lord
but as for her i hope she gets stabbed wit a sword.
If thats what she wants then she can have him
i hope they have ugly kids together that grow up to stab them
I hope their happy when they see me in the crazy house
as i this poem comes to an end
and im babbling about her stupid mistake
and as they put me in a permanent sleep I'll exclaim
"The End"