Im actully REALLY bored so i thought i'd write a blog but about what... Hm - Ex's? I havn't had many SERIOUS relationships but let me start somewhere...

Reiss [Also.Known.As] DJ Yungah Decks (Sometime In Late '05) - We met through a friend on MSN, we spoke a few times && he asked me out && at the time i didn't like him but i still said yes but like 2/3 days after.. I dumped him. Lol, i know.. Sounds mean but i was ONLY 14 back then, i was VERY stupid && immature but anyways... (Sometime in Mid '06) Reiss && i started talking again && i apoligised for the way i acted when we first went out, we spoke about our feelings for each
other && yes this time i DID like him so we gave it another go but a few weeks later he ended it with me because APPRENTLY he wanted to be with my friend instead of me && she sort of liked him even though she had a man but hey.. We all argued but in the end i gave up, they ended up not getting together lol?! Reiss && I are ONLY close friends now, everything in the past is put behind us && we're not going to let anything that's happened effect our friendship.

Kieron (28th July - 23rd Sep '06) - I had ALOT of love for him, our relationship was so PERFECT till i made a BIG MISTAKE, leaving him for someone else... I've learnt from it.

Leon [Also.Known.As] R[DOT]Kid (24th Sep - 16th Oct '06) - The toyboy i left Kieron for. Way TOO childish for me, i couldn't take being someone like him... Don't get me wrong, he's a lovely little thing but i don't ever see my self with him.

Calvin [Also.Known.As] Venos (7th Dec 06' - 16th Jan '07) - Calvin meant ALOT to me although he just wasn't what i thought he was. His family are great && i love every single one of them till this day, it's just a shame that Calvin didn't turn out to be respectful like them... Basicly, i got cheated on... It's not a big deal, im over it but yes it did hurt. Calvin is now in prison... FreeVenoS!

Sean [Also.Known.As] Skamz (27th March - 22nd April '07) - The ONLY one who has broke my heart deeply. Sean was older but we both saw passed the age gap, i had so much love for him but it's a shame our relationship ended with me in tears. Sean had found out that his ex girlfriend was 5 months pregnant with his baby, he only had to do the right thing by sticking by her. I admit, i DO miss him dearly... We COULD of had something really special.

Bobby (2nd May - 6th May '07) - A complete tramp, homeless && unemployed... Gorj but so bugging, funny enough he cheated on me too but i actully don't care *giggles*

Calvin [Also.Known.As] Venos (10th May '07) - He explained to me that he had changed && what not so we got back together but later on that day we talked it out && desided that we're not made for each other.

Andrae [Also.Known.As] Drealdo (30th Aug '07 - Start of September '07) - It was complicated, we got togther on 30th Aug 07' then we spilt up a while after... We then got back together then we spilt up once more && since then we tried to sort it out so many times but it just wasn't working out... It was about time we both move on.

Jezreel [Also.Known.As] Cutman (September '07 - October '07) - This ISN'T an ex, we never actully were togther but oh my it was SO complicated. Me && Jez... We wanted to be together since day but funny thing is we didn't know how each other felt, well... I kind of gathered he wanted me but he didn't clock that i wanted him && because my feelings wernt spoken he thought i was just on a joke thing so he ended up meeting up with one girl he was suppose to see from back in the day && guess what, they got together! When i found out, i confronted him about why he didn't tell me he had a wifey && like i was REALLY upset. He felt SO BAD but at least he finally knew how i felt, we spoke about what to do && what not init && i ended up seeing him on Sunday 7th Oct 07'. On that day he finally realised that he made a mistake && he started to plot to leave his so called "wifey" for me on Friday 12th Oct 07'

When those hot tear drops run down your face && build a puddle...

Have you never thought about HOW MUCH emotion your letting out?

Was there any need for those tears to be set free?

Was the situation that important to cry over it?

Why does it hurt you inside even though no one is doing you any physical harm?

Tell me - Why am i crying over him?

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Rumour about this && that BUT who to believe?

It's a thing where you know that most guys are liars but this one seems different (okay, yeah i know... They all seem different at first) - Honestly, he just aint the same... Well, anyways... You here rumour of this && that but then you don't know weather to believe your friends or that one guy you get along with && care about?!

They mostly say that your "girls" come before any man but this is the year 2007, do you know how bitchy && two faced nearly every girl has become?

So, who to believe - Them or him?

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