you know I think I am just tired of being that person in a group.

I don't know what I can do about it.

but I know I don't like the way I am feeling anymore.

Thats right, on monday the 2nd, I shall be flying to NY, visiting a friend no less, I have come to the conclusion that I do not go on holidays, rather then travelfor reasons, I dont really enjoy sitting around in the sun or much of anything that people tend to do on package holidays, so this is probably best for me

I get to meet people I might never have met, and I get to see new countries too, I am really looking forward to it!! even though the last while has been hard on me, what with being Ill and loosing my best friend buddy(my dog)

But as they say, life moves on, it is only you who gets left behind, and rght now I am going to keep up with it, no matter what may happen in my life, the world wont stop for me, so I should not stop for it either

wow I went off topic a bit there... oh well, I guess the meaning of the jurnal is, No matter what is thrown at me, I will be okay, so everyone else should try there hardest too

but I would not have been able to be who I am without all my friends that helped me on my way, so Everyone look out for each other, and dont be afriad to stand up for something you think is right

Alright Alright, so there I am all inocently sitting on Julies bed when Disaster strikes!!! My tummy rumbled, this is a bad sign, it means I am hungry and when I get hungry.. I get HUNGRY!! so I proceeded to go inside and bounce around my mother untill dinner was ready and then Order her to give me more turnip cos it was yummy, and more potato cause it was also yummy!

I then whipped out my spices and RUINED my lamb burger cause I forgot it was not a shakey top and just dumped a load on the burger... Ate it anyway, I also stated that I would eat Julies because she would not eat it all

so my mother followed me into the room and proceeded to tell Julie about my dasterly plan, to which she vowed that she would eat all her dinner, even if she had to throw up and cover her floor with various meaty turnipy patatoy chunks that would look really gross but would make good referance for visual language, she WOULD finish the dinner

So... I had Two dinners....

They were so yummey!! and I was saisfied... for all of a minute... I then proceeded to go inside and mock my mother(while eating Julies dinner) and torment my dogs by waving the food in front of them (I gave them all a bit each... I am not that cruel... only to my nephews) well yes she was asmused and I was happy...

but not full... I returned to Julie and tried to eat her elbow... she was not happy and it resulted in her wipping my spit back on me... her Elbow was not that tastey anyway, tasted like fluff... cottony fluffy... like clothing cottony fluff....

I want candy floss now... Darn... Candy floss tastes sooo goood, and it reminds me of Mosney, I used go there every summer, it was GREAT!!! though thining bak on it, it was not that great at all really, the amusments where death traps and the pool was lame, you would be cueing for an hour just to get on the sucky slide...

though there was that time when a REALLY big lady got on the slide... and it folded in in the middled and burst (it was an air pump slide thingy) I got to go just before her, so I laughed lots!!! but the people who where going next were not laughing.... nor was the lady... I think she sued

but anyway I digress!!

After my failed attempt to Eat Julies elbow, I then proclaimed my need for tea!! I went in put the kettle on, and remebered it was infact JULIES turn to make tea.. but she is not well so I will make it later... Yes thats right!! I forgot!!! Why you ask? Well you didn't ask but I am going to tell you anyway! Because I looked in the press and thought... man... there is no food here... *was looking a a fair amount of food but it was not Cornflakes and I wanted Cornflakes right there and then because an add was on for cornflakes and I was like... oooo Cornflakes... they are so yummeh... I want a big bowl of Ice cold cornflakes right now... Oh no... I want cornflakes again) so I decided I would go to the shop

I went into Julie and said "I am going to the shop, do you want anything" After a grunt and a flustered stare, I saved her brain from exploding by answering for her " You want chocolate right" She nodded lots, and Away I went, but not before watching lots of Tenimyu, then Away I went.. but was distracted then by moon child...

Finally I went!! blocking my ears as Julie tempted me back with other random stuff she found (how does she find these things!! Seriously!! she warps my mind... not that I am complaining) so there I was, over in the shop, feeling very spiffy as the wind was making my hair look Tre cool!!

And the shop keeper was all like, you look Great today, and I was all like, thats cause I am!! I rock!! and Roll All day long! Sweet Susie!! I was disapionted he did not get the referance, but quickly got over it as I went prancing around the shop, proclaiming I was hungry and did not know what I wanted, for as I looked to the box of cornflakes, I no longer wanted them, after a while of prancing I picked up a pack of rashers and sausages, proclaiming.. " They are Go