It was one of my signature cards in dueling... force both players to destroy one of their soldiers...
Okay so it was share the pain.. but that wouldn't make any sense.

I'm at a crossroads, though it's not much of a choice, but it's times like these I self examine to a dangerous point.
Friends, I believed them to be, harbor hatred against the one I care most for.
The choices in my mind are extremes, believe in him, or them.

Those friends I believed in, poured my heart into, cared and sought out.
And just because the site fell apart, because they feel the way they do..
I'm forced to actually choose.

It's not even a choice.
Digital friends.. or real people, and a real chance at life.

Yet I can't push asside that burning sensation of pain stretching through my chest.
I seem to be a bundle of joy.

Sorry lot, I mostly blog about what saddens me most..

Alright, so I'm trying to just keep kicking in the right direction..
Y'know that whole determine the rest of your life within a few short years bit. And I'm able now to say I got the best tarot reading in the world last summer. The usual misfit rides and a few tradesmen. One tent had a reknown tarot fellow who's name is completely behind me.
Most of what he read is fallen out of my mind, but one thing I shan't forget, his final draw. The card that would sumerize my life.

Conflict.

And indeed it reigns true.
This wannabe noble human wants to live on the British isles. Only one problem.

The visa is probably going to cost a fair bit- so I'll have to get a job.
Won't be able to take my schooling with me because of my mother- so I'll have to finish that before I go.
I've been seperated and I'm struggling to remain sane, when I want to escape- but with each new piece unfolding, it appears I'm stuck here longer and longer.
So the country won't let me in.. without some more work.
I have to leave most everything I was raised to understand and feel comfortable around for a new life.
In a place where my closest companion has a mother who dispises Americans...
It goes on..

Okay I lied.. it's a slew of 'em..

And best yet, I have to do it all and face it all, alone.
This is why I'm just a tad unstable, and thicker than usual.
Sorry.

Natural Hair Color:
[ ] Brown - $100
[x] Blonde - $50
[ ] Black - $15
[ ] Bald - $5
[ ] Other-$75

Total: 50

Eye Color:
[ ] Brown - $50
[ ] Green - $75
[ ] Blue $150
[x] Hazel $100
[ ] Other - $15

Total so far: 200

Height:
[ ] Over 7′ - $200
[ ] 6′8″ to 7′ - $175
[ ] 6′0″ to 6′7″ - $150
[ ] 5′5″ to 5′11″ - $75
[] 5′4″ to 5′10″ - $85
[x] Under 5′4 - $95

Total so far: 295

Age:
[ ] 50 to 56 - $175
[ ] 46 to 50 - $150
[ ] 41 to 45 - $125
[ ] 31 to 40 - $100
[ ] 26 to 30 - $75
[ ] 21 to 25 - $50
[x] 19 to 20 - $25
[ ] 0 to 18 - $100

Total so far: 320

Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $750
[x] First Born - $320
[ ] Only Child - $250
[ ] second born - $150
[ ] Middle child - $100
[ ] Last Born - $100
[ ] third born - $550
[ ] fourth born - $300
[ ] fifth born - $400
[ ] sixth born -$215

Total so far: 640

Drink?
[ ] I did like once - $400
[ ] Only Holidays - $250
[ ] Sometimes - $215
[x] YES - $200
[ ] only weekends - $300
[ ] Every other day - $50
[ ] Once a day - $15
[ ] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$ [[back to $ZERO]]
[ ] No - $600

Total so far: 840

Vision?
[ ] perfect vision $400
[ ] need or have glasses/contacts but dont wear them $200
[ ] No correction $100
[x] Glasses $50
[ ] contacts $25
[ ] Surgical correction -$100

Total so far: 890

Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $300
[ ] 12 and a half to 13 - $250
[ ] 11 to 12 - $400
[X] 7 to 10 - $500
[ ] Under 7- $450

Total so far: 1390

Favorite Colors (two):
[ ] Green-$750
[X] Red - $600
[ ] Black - $100
[ ] Yellow -$475
[ ] Brown - $300
[ ] Purple - $225
[ ] White - $400
[x] Aqua - $350
[ ] Orange - $300
[ ] Blue - $300
[ ] Pink - $100
[ ] Other - $500

Total: 2240

Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[ ] Yes $0 (that hurts )
[X] Nope-add $1000
[ ] some- $750


Final Total: 3240

Not bad..