When someone you love abandons you,
it doesn’t hurt just because they’ve changed,
or lied, or gone back on their promises,
but because you know what they really are and
what a beautiful person they can be.
And when they take that away from you and won’t
let you see that beautiful person again,
nothing hurts more than having someone just
deciding to take your entire world away without consulting you first.



Its horrible how people can go about writing blogs oblivious to other peoples thoughts and feelings. How one person is better than another...where rank is almost becoming an achievement to have. There, Its Out.

Its Amazing how stuck in these kinds of situations people are. They write passages like this, only because theres no other way to express themselves properly, thoroughly . Each one of us, different and yet, when pushed into a corner we all become one. Our strange minds overtake the common sense and obvious signs that are put in front of us.
They form questions, questions of matters that aren't even that important. Questions that lead you to think the impossible, to mix and stir until the situation becomes unreadable, rendering you helplessly confused. These questions present us with the task and goal that we think is right, that we believe is the only way out - or in. Leading to a place of uncertainty and paranoia it destroys our ability to stop and chill, to analyse and think it over.
Strange, how after our first mistake, after our first tunnel of darkness we seek more. we know of the consequences and yet we walk purposely towards that rickety bridge over the canyon. Its appearance tricks us, showing us all the people that have already crossed over it, and as we lust for that crossing, we forget what its all about. And as the planks creak, showing signs of wear we push on unaware of the imminentness that was to come.
Yet we cross it successfully, happy and joyous of our triumphant progress. It would have never occurred to me though that something so simple could destroy that bridge. Its planks could never break, its rope weaved flawlessly and its steady posture stands without delusion. Yet, something is there, chipping away at its strength and integrity, something invisible. You told me about this force, how it will drive away all that you care for and yet it does something i thought of the impossible. So simple yet, even though i was aware and knowing of the possibility it cut its way through, the strings of attachment snaps.
Its funny how i used ignorance to comfort myself during the trouble. the trouble that was yet to occur, yet to happen but hasn't yet. A soft cushion of memories and feelings rush down to break my fall, the fall that had not occurred yet, and though, i felt them there, i found myself asking for reassurance. reassurance that my ignorance of the matter was right, that the ship was steady, its captain sleeping merrily and the crew enjoying the view.
Its funny how logic defies us in the way that it does. When things just don't make sense, yet they give meaning behind the reasoning. or does it? maybe we just change our perspective on things, we change our own view for others, we change ourselves to see it the other way - their way. Our minds play tricks on us sometimes, clouding our judgment and thought. Our morals are trashed and stepped on in the process, where confusion consumes us and overrides the extra input.
This dirty horrible thing, wreaks of its bloodbath and passage of murder.
Its what brings us together,
Its that glue and sticky tape that bonds us.
And yet, we are so unaware of its potential in the opposite direction.
We Misconceive it.

Yet we embrace it...
Such a Funny World we Live in



Has Been Moved From Robert's Page due to Space Limitations

This is a blog that i posted to find out what is your opinion on our Triangle mv...
So feel free to post feedback ^_^

- the idea -

now we never used to pay attention to the song triangle, but it always popped up whenever you search dbsk on any sort of crap. triangle i'm guessing is called triangle coz there's the 3 bands in it: dbsk, boa and the trax, each with their own parts, dbsk having the main and most roles. now i always wanted to do triangle as a massive group thing, but it would require our dbsk to find girls to feature in this, as well as electric guitar players, and also emo-ish settings and clothes. now though it seems easy enough to get that sorted, we had all the other stuff getting in the way, like pe dances and purple line and that, and we were always more determined to do rising sun. but.. in rob's absence, triangle was one of the only things we could do if we wanted to do something in that time, because of the lack of yunho parts (rob's bits). so anyway, i came up with the idea to film a test video during the autumn holidays, to test our settings and camera techniques, and later i guess we'll film the other stuff.

- mv 1 - 22/apr/2008 - test video

arriving around 2 at my house, were chris, steven and john. the absence of a camera-man meant we really lacked camera techniques and had to resort to the tripod, but with nobody manning it. after practing triangle like 4-5 times, we left to walk around the area. filming back in our familiar tunnel, in parking lots, and even placing the camera atop of bins, we attempted to get as many angles and shots as possible in as many locations as possible. we filmed solo shots too, and thought it'd be good at night, but it just turned out really dark. after everyone went home, it was up to me to put the footage together and see what would become of it.

that's all for now.

written 22/apr/2008 by phil