its just sad realy, what this world has become.

when distorted perceptions determine the way you think of others, and yourself.

when you not 'pretty enough' because someone else you know is 'prettier'.

when you aren't seductive enough because you havent lost your virginity by 15.

when people say stuff to you as a joke and you laugh it off, until you get home and cry.

when everyday is a struggle to avoid looking into a mirror because you hate what you see.

when the words "your beautiful" mean nothing because you cant believe it yourself.

when you take for granted every compliment said about you so that when you finally need it, they stop coming.

when just the mention of 'depression' stereotypes you so you continue to suppress it from the world, making it even harder to breathe until its too late.

when sometimes you want to just breakdown and cry, and you dont even know what it is thats wrong.

when it feels like there isnt a person in the world you can talk to.
when you know you cant.

when you lie in bed at night and think "if i ceased to exist right now, would anyone even care..."

when each line you just read you thought to yourself "that's me..."

im no mind reader. im no psychic. but i can see just how messed up this world is, and that its all kept in the dark, so that you can never get the healing you realy need.
you look around the classroom, the workplace, the shopping center, and you think, all these people have such perfect lives, when underneath the smiles they could be hurting more than anyone.

Im writing this blog today to say that enough is enough. if we go along with this world and the bullcrap it puts infront of us there can be nothing more but pain. and with it, depression, eating disorders, violence, abuse, self-harm, low self-worth, and even suicide. im sick and tired of pretending these issues arent real, and acting like they just go unnoticed. they dont. we see them everyday, whether it's in other peoples lives or our own, whether we chose to believe them or not. its there. and its real. and its destroying us from the inside out every single day.

i didnt write this blog for you to shed a tear over, or get depressed about, or to pity the people that can relate.
im writing this blog to offer myself as an ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on, a person you can talk to, and simply a friend who will not leave you and will comfort you in the times you need it most.
if there is anyone out there reading this, who could relate to any of those things or others i did not mention, i ask you to please, send me a message, dont write a comment for the world to see, this is just for you, and is sworn to complete secrecy, no one else will ever see the message or hear anything about them. they will be deleted as soon as i reply to them. if there is absolutely anything you want to say, or anything i can do, leave a message and i will be there. i will respond. i will listen. i will write back. and i will be able to relate. i think that everyone reading this well be able to relate to what they just read above, whether they chose to accept it or not is an issue of its own. but either way, this is your opportunity so start getting freedom from all this crap thats been going on in your life, whether it was over a day or the past 16 years. you cant do this alone, and from this point on you wont need to.

this blog doesnt just extend to the people i know, if there is anyone out there that just happened to read this by chance and needs help, belive that is wasnt a chance, and let me try and be the one to help you. my names Kiran Skariah. lets get through this together. i believe that, in time, we can see the world change, the world heal, the world be as it was intended to be.
but right now it all starts with the next move you make, as you finish reading what it is that i had to say. write me a message, be it 1 word or 5 pages, anywhere is the place to start.
you dont need

I believe

Life is more than survival

I believe

The heart is more than a muscle

I believe

We Can know right from wrong

I believe

In hope and freedom

I believe

My life can make a difference

I believe

The message of the Cross


so what do you believe?

1. whats your name?
2. are we close?
3. what do you think of me?
4. do you hav a crush on me?
5. would u kiss me?
7. describe me in 3 words?
8. if u had me for 30 mins wat would you do?
9. what was ur first impression of me?
10. do u still think the same?
11. what reminds u of me?
12. if you could give me anything what would it be?
13. how well do u know me?
14. what do u like best about me?
15. ever wanted to tell me something u could'nt?
16. could you ever love me?
17. give me a nickname and explain why?
18. are u gona put this on ur blog and see wat i say bout u?
19. anything to say before u go?