Nathan Barr
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Male, 21,
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- I am Single
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- Tagline
- "your lips are better than myne, so you can kiss this goodbye."
- Me, Myself, and I
- monkey_guy18@hotmail.com, add me use me abuse me its all the same
Is it dark within your mind?
Does your body ache for love sometimes?
Is it cold within your room?
Did you pray they'd come back for you?
Did the world around you fail?
When it all came down on me
It begins with a dark glowing ember,
something black burning it's way out of me.
Searing the flesh,
pain is the only thing I feel,
scars all I see.
Close your eyes, so many days go by.
Easy to find what's wrong, harder to find what's right.
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear,
I can't just close my eyes
(my eyes, my eyes, my fucking eyes)
alone in my shell here i wait
slowly bricking up my heart
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alone in my shell here i rot
never to break free and see ur face again.
!!!!!! advice from mel !!! <3
"and u no what they say. What you don't know can't hurt you, it's what we suspect that screws everything up
- My life...
- So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head,
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit,
You tell me lies, and you get what you get,
so blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head.
Oh my god did you just hear
lies are coming back in style?
Oh my god this seems so real that they find you,
and confine you
So shut your mouth, we've heard it all.
Hypocrite's and critics all
can fuck off we do this for our souls,
our souls. - time??
- Go
A rush of blood
To my head leaves me winded and wanting
To feel the weakness in my body
Beaten and crushed like my soul
I walked the streets flirting death
But I never kissed back
I'm so lucky so cursed so fucked up
But that's the way that it goes
Its the ebb and the flow
I wish that I could give you my time
Give you my time
The memories stacking up
And they pull at my guts
What do I have to do to end it
The better days hacked away
Leaving me only pain
This regret is never ending
But in the blink of an eye
This life passes you by
I wish that I could give you my time
Give you my time - head
- It's in your head all the voices mistaken,
shake it off shake it off.
We're all dyin' in the end. - Rant
- im a great friend, a bad enemy and an even worse lover...
just stick as friends ppl tell me...
Clean sheets mean a lot,
To a guy who sleeps on the floor,
I wanted your love,
An a shelf in your dresser draw,
You tucked me in,
Stopped my tossing and turning,
But I turned back the covers,
And saw those sheets are dirty.
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Reach
sorry it reminded me of u...<3
Last night I dreamt I held you with me,
Close enough to feel you breathe,
When i awoke I lay here empty,
Cought between the want and need,
Now in the drakness i am only,
Thoughtful hopes and peices mind,
These dreams are all I've ever wanted,
Found behind the closing eyes,
How long we've been trying to reach you,
We all fall down like this sometimes,
Trying to reach you,
I'm trying,
Last night I dreamt I had you with me,
Closer still to see you leave,
When i awoke the fear of lonley,
Gripped my heart in conscious sleep,
Now in the darkness I lay empty,
Hollow beaten like a drum,
Sill water cages I am hoping,
In these dreams to me you'll come,
How long we've been trying to reach you,
We all fall down like this sometimes,
Trying to reach you,
I'm trying,
These fields alive with fire and ashes,
Inside these fields we'll find oceans of ashes,
When all your dreams have died,
I don't want to die,
Just keeping holding my hand,
Because i'm trying to reach you,
we all fall down,
I'm never letting you go,
Because i'm dying to keep you,
I'm trying...
I'm walking through your fields,
Of broken flowers,
They fall upon my face like tears for hours,
If all we are we are,
If all we are we are,
To wake and call your name,
In the tiny hours,
We all fall down...0 Comments 201 days
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poem by terri turner
His eyes
I feel his eyes look into mine
everything slows down, time after time
those blue eyes take my breath away
I always love to hear him say
"I love you, you mean so much to me."
Closing me eyes, it's him i see
Him and his eyes, so quiet, so lost
But when we're together, all worries forgot
Guiding his hands closer to my face
Time disappears, we fly into space
Head to his shoulder, he holds me tight
I know then that everything’s going to be alright
His eyes holding mine in a silent embrace
I don't want to be any other place
He smiles at me and those eyes light up
I'm never quite able to get enough
& his fingers through mine I can't feel a thing
Nothing but him and his soft breath, to bring
To bring me closer and see through my fear
I want him to stay, I want him here.
With him I can smile and feel happy and free
& It blows me away when he looks at me
Blue eyes watching me whenever I smile
Feeling happy for those small whiles
When he leaves, my heart follows him home
Knowing that hopefully I'll see him soon
& the next time I do my heart returns
Deep inside, that fire burns
He's always there, deep in my heart,
right where's he's been since the very start
& meeting his eyes for the first time today
I couldn't stop feeling myself fading away
Lost in those eyes, unable to move
Smiling happily, he pulls me through
& I love him, and i know that he loves me, too
"Baby, it's perfect being with you."
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it cuts
why does it hurt when u know someone u hold dear has moved on without u...
the so called friendship is short lived, and that person wont even show u some sort of recognition..
am i even here... im standing in front of u, but can u really see me, the true me, not the shell that has been built up over hardships and failures, i think if someone saw the real me they would laugh and think of me as a pathetic little...boy...
we hide behind excuses and live with regrets and smashed hopes, will someone be able to see the real me without running scared... 2 ppl already have, one couldnt see what she had and threw me away like the rest of her notches on the bed post, the other decided that she didnt want to hurt me more, didnt want to hurt me to the point that it hurts worse than it should...
a good relationship isnt found like a strong stone in the mountains... it is built like a house, with good foundations and structure... u need to b able to know all about the house incase something needs fixing... u cant just know a little bit, you wouldnt know how to fix it when it crumbles...
i guess im just a shitty builder...0 Comments 601 days
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Demon
You're being is that of a demon. On the out side your probably fun loving, funny and your probably good with people however, you hold on to your feelings, and you don't let things show. You prbably think you're weak when you do. Watch out for this build up.
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Mellow Reaper
You’re an easy going kind of guy and maybe even a little lazy at times. You’re easy to get along with and like to make jokes. You make a great friend but when you and your friends are threatened they better watch out for your silent temper.
All Reapers must have a scythe choose them; your scythe is the normal scythe that most people think about, but hey, you don’t need anything flashy to look good. Its personality is that of an intelligent aristocrat who’s a bit uptight. Its name is Shade and it has the power to manipulate the light and shadows.
Your aura’s color: Green
Your quote: “I am ready to meet my Maker. Whether my Maker is prepared for the ordeal of meeting me is another matter.”
Wings: One feathery white wing and one black.
How you died: Motorcycle accident. Look both ways before you cross the road and slow down!
All Reapers must have a scythe choose them; your scythe is the normal scythe that most people think about, but hey, you don’t need anything flashy to look good. Its personality is that of an intelligent aristocrat who’s a bit uptight. Its name is Shade and it has the power to manipulate the light and shadows.
Your aura’s color: Green
Your quote: “I am ready to meet my Maker. Whether my Maker is prepared for the ordeal of meeting me is another matter.”
Wings: One feathery white wing and one black.
How you died: Motorcycle accident. Look both ways before you cross the road and slow down!
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My result is: You LOVE her!
Do I hear wedding bells? She must be the best thing that happened to you, DONT let her go.
Your relationship will last. You will probably end up marring this girl. Dont leave it too late to ask her x x
Your relationship will last. You will probably end up marring this girl. Dont leave it too late to ask her x x
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My result is: whisky
your a dead good drinker!
you have been drinking for a long time if you can handle this drink, sometimes when your lonely you crack open a bottle of jack daniels and have a few to yourself!
you have been drinking for a long time if you can handle this drink, sometimes when your lonely you crack open a bottle of jack daniels and have a few to yourself!
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My result is: Old age!
You lucky cunt!! Your gunna live 90+!! Yeah but you will die eventually!
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My result is: french kiss
French kissing is the best physical expression of love and can be passionate, romantic and totally set the mood for a totally unforgettable night.
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My result is: Fairy
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How Much Do You Love Him/Her???
My result is: not so good...
you dont really love this crush of yours and u do stuff like this.....
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yea sure thing but I can't put it up till I go to jordans n use his net
haha realli? kool
yea. aparently male staff keep checkin me out...it's makin me feel very uncomfortable
xx
Lish
hey man!!!
im so sorry to hear that!
i thought she already had a bf that u told me about? hmm.. well i can tell that u are prety cut about it. but im glad u arnt one of those parents that dont want anything to do with the child. um wouldnt u only pay for things for the kid? not for her?
anyway dont worry man! im sure it will work out for u.. it always does eventually
oh ur a funny man ..funy man lol
um havent been up to alot... u should visit me too someday!!!
but yer ive been working at the parents and i go bak to armidale on the 15th... and then after that.. is sooo eventful!!
have like guyra show, freshas bash, armidale show...and so on..lol
but hey i will try to organise some mates to head to moree one day kk?? i want to go check out the spa baths..bcos fuk tis been ages since ive been there..lol
you just like atreyu cause your life is another song by them... its all from the new album. which i dont really think is their best. i like the screaming ^^
it was slow burn by atreyu
dude u got ur main profile thing from a song so its not ur advice
Awwwwwwwwwh
hehehe.
Bored, Bored, Bored.
You randomily left me at....... Josh's.
And I think I passdout?
Nah not daisy, lol.
Someone else.
Gah
Soooooooo bored.
How's WOW?
Hehe.
Im sooooooooooo bored.
Naww.
I hopes you finds a new onee >.<
Yeah, loll.
Will be abit weird if she invites someone I have a srong hate for but eh. Anyways she just makes me feel sick at the thought of your name.
Finding someone to fuck wouldn't be hard, Gosh! There are so many whores in Moree that will open there legs for anyone and lie about the number of people they have fucked, pathetic cunts!
Girls piss me off!
Hahaaha fair enough
Awwwhhh..
Cheer up! Go get layed then!
How are youu?
LOL.
Its nice up here.
I love it. Hehe.
Nahhh nothing much. Finding a house, swimming, shopping. Uno?
Hehe.
Yourself?
Lol Hey!
Awwh thanks xDD
Well nothing happpened, I didn't really just 'take off'.
I went to meet mother at Maccy D's so yeah. LOL.
yeah everything is okay with me, what about with you??
I did add you.
Ooo, herveybay tomorrow
hey magic man, come to my 19th on the 25th, byo.
xoxoxo
LO
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dropped it off fer u
Heeeey =]
i remember lol
not much is happening tbh =] life is rather boring
how was ure xmas??
its bloody freezing ere!!!!!! no jokes had to wear four pairs of socks=[
wana swapp??
tap back xoxox
hey, Im really sorry to hear about you and Terri..
I hope your okay
anyway, take care
xx
hey happy birthday.