well, its nearing the year 2008... and there have been so many changes in my life.

i have gained friends ... and i have lost friends
i have lost a lover ... and i have found a new one
i have had to say good by to loved ones over and over again...
i have cried ... and i have laughed
i have gone through hug amounts of pain that people put me through ...
and came out the other end --->>>
STRONGER <<<---


i am not what i use to be...
the old me was -
a teenager with life skills who knows the horrors of this world... but chooses to ignor them...
but now -
i am a teenager that knows the horrors of this world and chooses to fight against them...

i watch out for what ever is going to come around the corner and i take it head on...
because thats all you can do...
the tides of life dont stop... they just get bigger...
and if you stop jumping over it or swim under it or even through it...
your going to be swept away and killed...
because as hard as life can get....
if you cant stand on your own two feet alone sometimes...
your going to end up alone...
with the harsh currents of life taking you where it wants you to go ...
not where you wanted to...

how am i like this now... how have i changed my opinions and mind set so dramatically...
well... i have a few people to thank for that one...

my family is one.
because even though im stupid sometimes-i know they wont leave me... not just because they cant... but they choose not to. i love them all so much - i know i dont say it as often as i should - but i hope they know that i am grateful for all the things that they have done for me - showed me - and taught me. THANK YOU ALL!! xox =]

my friends is another.
Chrissy is the first- this girl has the strongest mind on her shoulders- she can do any thing- except fly [lol] we have been friends for two years now and are about to start our third year of our friendship. - the sad part is now its just us two- but when i look deep and hard into it i have realised that it was always us two - our friendship started before any ells entered the picture- and it still remains. - yes, we have our weaker moments where we could be closer - but it aint easy to keep a friendship like this sooo together constantly- but it is easier then most because we have a special bond that not many other people have - its not just a friendship that you see in the court yard at school in 8th grade ,, its more of a sister hood. something as thick as blood - and its wont be watered down. thank you chrissy for helping me - guiding me- strengthening me through so many problems [broken hearts + losses of loved ones] your so awsum chrissy - Dina.Dino... -THANK YOU- xx
Anne is the next - i met this girl right after my heart ws crushed,, so she saw my depressed side striaght away. i remember when i first met her [she was already dating my older brother] and she came in all smiles and laughs - and the first thing i thought was "why is she so god dam happy" - but thats just who she is - its not just because she was dating an awsum as guy but its just her - its just anne- the smiling,, bubbley,, non-stop moving anne [aka = JellyFish]
her smile and courage gave me hope and strength too. and in a time of depression and hate,, i saw a small glims of light that bounced onto me and pulled me up alot. she probably doesnt realise the impact she has on me - but its there - thank you anne - J to the ELLY to the F to the ISHY
Nicole- haha- teddy- the lil lepracorn with a pot of gold and a four leaf clover [lol] ahh.. the laughs that you have given me will never be forgoten. with all the stuff that you have been thorugh your still up and running head on - yeh you are weary with certain things [eg BOIIS;; inc YUN] lol but you continue to fight through things - and even with all the doubt you have in life,, i still see you trying new things - getting back on the horse for round 2 or 3 or 4 or how ever many tries it takes you - and that does

-..GeneRal..-
1. Full.Name: Shana.Marie.Coles
2. Nick.Name: Bubi.Beneenie.Shorty
3. DOB: 7th.May.91
4. POB: REDDY HOSPITAL! WOOT!
5. SigN: Tauras. Good with Virgo.[JakE]
6. SeX: ...um....pretty sure im female...lol
7. ResidancE: ....the gutter...lol.nah a house
8. HaiR: BROWN...BLONDS SUC!
9. EyeS: they change..green.hazle.brown.MuLtI-CoLoUr.
10. HighT: lol...no mesurement avaliable...lol. only 160cm

-..Fav..-
1. ColouR: ha...blue.pink.yellow.purple.
2. FooD: nah... i dont eat...jkjkjk...chocolate is good.
3. Music.StylE: anything but jazz+country...
4. Drink: alcoholic?? hum... well i like puls.vodka. anything not to do with beer!! NoNalcoholic... anything.
5. Sport: H8 FOOTY!! cept state of origin..QLD.QLD.QLD!i like.soccer.basketball...
6. Month: augest...mine and jakes anivers+jakeys b'day!
7. Day.Of.The.Week: friday.night.saturday.
8. Smells: Jake.Vanilla.Jasmine(the Flower).Frangapanies.

-..HavE.YoU.EveR..-
1. Dated.The.Same.Person.Twice: um...yeh...bad choice.
2. Been.Cheated.On: Yes...
3. Cheated.On.Any.One: NO...But TraciE wiishes...lol.jk
4. Kissed.Some.One: HELL YEH!
5. Kissed.Some.One.You.Regreted: YES.BAD MEMORISE! Tracie tryed...lol.jkjkjk!!
6. Loved.Some.One: only 2 people...LoVe is a BIG thing for Me.
7. Lost.Some.One: Yes...Quite afew people actually...
8. Seen.A.Died.Person: Yes...Alot...so gross!!
9. Been.Depressed: ...ha...stupid question..hasnt everyone?!
10. Goten.Drunk: .I've tried...didnt work!!grrr. =P
11. Thrown.Up: ...haha...Yeh.. but not from drinking...
12. Had.Braces: HELL.NO!
13. Had.Glasses/Contacts: NO GLASSES!! coloured contacts yes!
14. Had.Any.Where.Peiced: lol...welll..*shifty eyes*...just my ears..
15. Have.A.Tatoo: ...Geting one this christmas!
16. Goten.Close.to.Some.One: YES...JAKEY ESPECIALLY!
17. StreakeD: not yet...well...not fully! =D

-..WhicH.OnE..-
1. RighT.OR.LefT: ...RIGHT!!
2. NighT.OR.DaY: ...NIGHT!...then i can roll down the street with chirssy and tracie.
3. EyeS.OR.LipS: eyes...so i can get lost in them...
4. HugS.OR.KisseS: HUGS!! I LOVE HUGS!
5. Fat.OR.ThiN: In the middle!
6. DogS.OR.CatS: DOGS!!
7. SummeR.OR.WinteR: suMMer..H8 WINTER!!
8. ChickeN.OR.EgG: ..WTF..um..chiken.. =S
9. Macca'S.OR.KFC: ... which ever is closest!
10. ChocolatE.OR.VanilA: Banana...lol..chocolate of course!!

-..RanDoM..-
1. Got.Pets: YEP...DOG..Fish.
2. Got.Kids: NOot Yet!! but i want them!!
3. Career: I want to own my own business. and be a interior design/decorater.
4. Car: i have a mitsubishi Lancer..So HOT..ITs YeLlOw! WOOT!
5. Colour.Pants.Your.Wearing: ...um... im not wearing any... lol *shifty eyes* jkjkjk... Blue!
6. Last.Thing.You.Ate: um...food i guess.Cant rememba.
7. Last.Person.You.Talked.To.On.The. Phone: Yo MUMA! jk... JakeY Boii.
8. First.Thing.You.Notice.About.A.Guy
 /Girl: GUY OFCOURS... their eyes..then Smile..then their laugh.
9. Do.You.Hav.Siblings: YES! 5... 2.bros. 3.Hoes. lol!
10. Are.You.To.Shy.To.Ask.Some.One.Out
 : haha i never ask people out! but if i had to...no im not shy.
11. Whats.Under.Your.Bed.Right.Now: probably tracie and chrissy...lol..no jake...lol jk..nothing.
12. What.Did.You.Do.Last.Night: Yo MUMA! lol... chilled.talked to friends.nfm.

-..So.FaR..-
1. Have.You.Gone.To.School: YEp...gay...wanna leave...
2. Have.You.Fallen.Out.Of.Love: yes... =[ i got hurt... but now i love again =] YAY ..JaKe!xo
3. Have.You.Laughed.Till.You.Cried: HAHAHAHAHAHA *tear* lol.. lyk every day!!!! =D
4. Have.You.Gone.Behind.Your.Parents.
 Back: nup...No need to!!
5. Have.You.Disappointed.Some.One: grrrr... i h8 it when that happens!! yes probably some one.
6. Pretended.To.Be.Happy: lol...story of my life (sometimes)..but only at school. i h8 it when teachers ask questions!!! =P
7. Have.You.Given.Up.Your.New.Years. Resolution: haha.. i newver had one.. cause i would of! lol
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