im the proof of an addict
to let loose in his attic
with the head of a moose
cut up in two in a basket

with a candle lit dinner
so i could handle the liqour
some are calling me a sinner
so theyre handing it quicker

but im sick of taking sedatives
thats what i said to tiff
right before i popped half the bottle
and the rest i sniffed

cause im on the point of breaking
sitting in a corner shaking
just because im off the medication
i was taking

but even though the sedatations
kept all the medics waiting
i got alot of dedications
from the headaches im creating

Its hard for her to open her feelings and show that she cares about me and her...
could she be afraid of love? is she afraid she would push me away?
it dissapoints me that she cant do that. I'm trying to keep this relationship going
but its like im standing in one spot while shes in front of me walking running and having fun while I stand alone watching her slowly ruin her life.
she won't listen or take into consideration that i care shes more worried about her friends
instead of me. Is time off good or bad?
To me its good but to her it seems to be bad but its how i feel
she cant show how she feels so how am i to understand her?
is love filled with questions doubt and unforgettale pain if so
i can understand why she is scared maybe shes afraid of love and her feeling is love
I wish i could talk to her about it instead of me having to think and talk to my self about it .


I dont know what to think should I be me and break it off and maybe some other time try it out agian or would that be immature?


Shes a Locked Box unable to open to someone who cares

im trying to understand her....

UPDATE!!!!! Apearently NOBODY GIVES A SHIT about BIGFOOT
SOOO FUCK HIM!!!!

jp everybody bigfoot iight man he could smoke alot of weed
just dont try his snow cones man....moving on
there isthis girl that ive liked for a while and i guess she liked me for a longer while but pushing that side were together now since saturday of last week i think? idk man forget. I feel happy when im with her so i guess thats a good thing she feels the same way so thats just the other half of a full circle the way I see it.. Shes at school right now getting her edgeumahkashun...Im at home
doing fuck all writing to this blog shit as if it was my very own diary
do you gys like reading all my bullshit? probably laughing inside your head
knowing that i know what your doing sitting in your chair playing your rap songs
well guess what rap sucks...sure its spoken word and everybody has a message but if they wanted to get a message through why dont they just say it in their songs instead of a long ass riddle that no one seems to understand at first? so you guys could listen to your favourite song and not really know what its meant for. If you wanna listen to music listen to it for what the emotions meant for dont listen to it ACTUALLY LISTEN!!!! and dont sing with the fucking lyrics thats just childish sit up straight and rock your head and know what the lyrics mean you fuckin pieces of shit!...

That being said now readers keep reading listeners keep listening
and poeple who listen to music for what its not meant for understand the lyrics before you put on that eminem song or d12 or the game or lil wayne or w.e the fuck you kids are into these days


your friend
-Orty