I really want to see Ashton again...

I go through his letters a million times over but it's not the same.
When i read, i hear his voice as he'd speak. So clear, like on the films. But it's not the same. I can't smell or hold him. I can't get a direct answer. I have to wait a good few days for a reply. It's shit.

Lately i've really been thinking of Lee. It's getting quite annoying actually. I'll see things on TV, or get little flashbacks, or i'll be going through things and i'm still finding his clothes, still with his gorgeous scent hanging onto them..

I thought of that night.
That night i was so scared. Sitting in my room, terrified he'd get in. Sounds stupid i know. But angry + knife doesn't equal very positive. I sat crying for a while as he banged on the door, threw rocks at the window, hoping he would eventually get bored.
Hours went by and he was still there, 'asking' for me to let him in. Because he wanted to see me. Because he loves me, he said.

By around fiveish in the morning, when he tells me he's 'broke the wall' and scraped a hole in my door, i'd had enough.

I text Ashton begging him to come over, i'm hysterical and not making sense. He phones me but i'm scared to answer, i whisper soft as i can, he's on the other side of the door listening, going mad for who i'm speaking to.

I have to text him. He says he'll be down as soon as he can. I'm scared i tell him to get a Taxi and i'll pay. I warn him he may have a knife.

He's banging on the door still. I'm completely shook, sat like an idiot waiting...

He arrives now, i dart to the window and throw out my keys, with the ten pound note slid inside the ring.


He comes up the stairs, and tells him to leave.
I hear him say, 'I just wanna see her please just let me see her'.
But he tells him to go...

He comes in and cuddles me, plays Black Magic Woman on guitar hero's, with the controller like a gay.

Then we go to sleep.

Ok! Well!, new year new start huh!?
I'm a complex person, ...you think you know me, I tell you, you don't know me!, I'M just gettin' to know me! *Things aint always what they seem...*

I can be many things, but i'm best at me. I can be calm, believe me! I can be hyper (BELIEVE ME) I can be daring, chatty, cautious, sexy, kind, cheerful, someone to laugh with, someone to cry to, I can keep a secret, I can spread cheer, i'm known to be an energy source, I can soothe, I can give a good massage, but only baby gets the privilege!
I'm polite, I have manners, i'm educated. I'm in love right now, with an amazing person by the name of Lee Huckfield. I think he loves me too, which pleases me, it pleases me when he tells me he loves me, 'cause I love him too. So deep. So true.

I'm not Spanish dammit, ...ok, maybe I am, ...jus' a lil bit! ;P

You should worship me, ...but you don't have to!

-You.Know.You.Love.Me-





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Salky lol Salkaholic! You moanin' that there aint shit 'bout you in my profile so here you go lol as well as being my other half you get your own section thingy lol!
Luuuuurrrrrrrrve Sally so much lol we done through some good funny stuff lol even though she says that she never gave Romeo head and she doesn't know how to work the shower or turn on the taps lmao but it's ok 'cause she can live without a wash 'cause she has a healty diet on fatty foods and semen! Lmao jokes Sal' love you millions! x x x x x x x x x





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Hello.
I'm a psycho freak.

You may have noticed me with my friends kalabalaberating around the streets of Redditch some time...
That's where i live.
My friends all have bright purple hair and wear dungarees over ballgown dresses.
Have you seen them? They are very cool.

I love Haagen daaz cookies and cream, you should buy it me. Whoever you are.
...It would please me! ;-]

I once sang to an audience in front of over 20 people you know! I'm practically famous! ;-]

And my boyfriend is too. Yeah. Hell yeah. He makes songs. Hell yeah. He's a rapper and stuff.
[You may know him from such songs as, 'The Pasty Blues', and 'Clarinet Hoodster'.]

You should ask me for my autograph anyway before this leprosy get's the better of me.
But enough about that...

I'm a legend! ;-]


Hell yeah!





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Big Mark: Only be nice to be nice. Be nice if you can be nice. Because if you don't you will loose. And you will die. - Ashton: I'll be sweet if i get sent down tomorrow, got a fresh haircut! - Homework: Learn the word french. - Lakim: Nah come on turn it off now (The piano! ) - Matty: Make a video of the ganja plant!


I wake up...I take a little time to lie in bed...I get up...Have my morning piss...Do whatever it is i seem to waste time on before i actually start getting ready...I wash...I brush my teeth...I get dressed...I do my hair...I moisturise my face...Then i'm about done! - My days are acted out randomly, i never really have a plan...I have a lot of love for people, i'm very loyal, very honest.Don't know what else to say really! x


My boyfriend is Lee Huckfield and i love him lots! He is amazing and never fails to marvel me! He is very nice and gives me great sex and sometimes buy's me sweeties!





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♥

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Mysterious, ever changing...

♫...Why don't you stop, and look me over. Am i the same girl you used to know?...♫

I'm absolutely fuckin' amazing!

♫...I'm capable of anything, my imagination can give me wings...♫

Went through a lot lately, ...forgive me if I haven't been myself...

♫...Places I have been, things that I have seen, What you call a nightmare, are what I have as dreams...♫

***Unconditional love to Lee Huckfield, my best friend, true love, brother, my all...***

♫...And no

My name is Rochelle and i am fat.

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General Stuff: Walking the dark streets with my headphones in (My nan would kill me if she read that! ), Cadbury's Creme Egg's, Good company, The smell of water in summer, Having my back tickled, Doing my homework with my rabbit, Long baths and showers, Cold showers, Hot baths with the window open, 'Simple' Hydrating light moisturiser, Sunsilk leave in conditioner, Being at my Italian nans house, Not understanding what the hells going on on the telly at my Italian Nans house but still somehow being massively engrossed in the story anyway, Shopping, Purposely dressing out of topic on random days, The taste of my contraceptive pill, Boys with big shoulders, Troll Dolls, Handbags, Jamaican Strawberry Syrup, Cereal, I'm gonna leave it there...

Music: I like...Hip Hop in most forms/ /R&B/ /Soft R&B/ /Drum & Bass/ /Soul/ /Motown/ /Reggae/ /Indie/ /Jungle/ /House/ /Bassline/ /I have no idea what it's called but like, Chinese classical music!/ /Dancehall/ /etc...
Lauryn Hill, DMX, Amy Winehouse, Tyrese, Jenna G, Donna Marie, Erykah Badu, Usher, Rakim, Tupac, Snoop Dogg, Lupe Fiasco, Dr Dre, Gwen Stefani, Bone Thugz, Cypress Hill, Wu Tang, Ludacris, Linkin Park, Nas, Bob Marley, Coldplay, Beres Hammond, Morgan Heritage, Shy FX, T Power, Kanye West, Jack Johnson, Boys to Men, 112, Jagged Edge, Neyo, Gravediggaz, Joe, Judy Boucher, Aaliyah, Missy Elliott, Beenie Man, Keyshia Cole, Biggie, Michael Jackson, Janet Jackson, Public Enemy, LL Cool J, Mary J. Blige, Marvin Gaye, Sam Cooke, I shall think of more and add later...

Foods and Stuff: Chicken Rice & Peas with the mushroom sauce, Gungo Pea soup, the other soup, Dumplings, Ackee Rice & Saltfish, Spaghetti Bolognaise, Curry, Yorkshire Puddings, Stew, Goat Curry, Pork with the butterbean sauce, Corned beef curry, Ham sandwiches, Jelly, Again, i'll try to think of more!..

Alcohol:(Not really a drinker to be honest...Jack Daniels, Brandy, Carling, Amarula, Malibu, Gin, Sizzurp, Alize, Some old man whiskey, i forgot what it's called...basically i either like really strong drinks, or really fruity ones. =]

Television:Family Guy, Spongebob Squarepants, erm, ...eh-hhh...right. Totally don't watch telly...

Films:Anything Disney really, Friday, Boyz n the Hood, Shawshank Redemption, Never Die Alone, The Butterfly Effect, Number 23, Gorgeous, Cats Don't Dance, The Nightmare before Christmas, That Tony Jaa film (the one from Ong Bak) the film about the elephant, Spongebob Squarepants movei, Don't be a Menace, American History X, Atonement, A.I., Beat Street (Eat your eggs before i break your legs! ), I'll add to this!...



People say i'm not fat..and it hurts my feelings.



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General Stuff:My paranoia and insecurities, Waiting, Repeating myself, Rascists, English people! haha -just kidding yeah! , People who think they're 'hard', People who think they're gangsta and shit and talk like twats, People who copy my style after telling my i dress like a freak, People who copy my style 'cause they like it, Slags who don't realise, Boys who think they can prove anything by eatin pussy, Not having enough time for a bath or shower, When i run a bath at my nans without realising that we've ran out of gas and my bath is cold, College in the morning, ...etc.

Music:All these shit rappers who think they're good..by the way, people who say they like HipHop and all that and then they actually just like shit peolpe, like, you ask them and they don't even know like, the sugarhill gang or nuttin, 50 Cent -absolutely can't stand him, Girl bands, Just shit music really! =]

Foods and Stuff:Mashed Potato, Sprouts, The way English people cook Chicken, Mushy Peas, erm...

Alcohol:Carlsberg 'cause it reminds me of Jack.

Television:Hollyoaks, ...erm...i don't watch telly so i don't really know