- Tomorrow is Not Promised
- Me, Myself, and I
- "If I could recollect before my hood days
I'd sit and reminisce, thinking of bliss of the good days
I stop and stare at the younger, my heart goes to 'em
They tested, it was stress that they under
And nowadays things changed
Everyone's ashamed to the youth cause the truth looks strange
And for me it's reversed, we left them a world that's cursed, and it hurts....."
- Who am I
- Anthony J. Lewis
"is Malik in here?"
it was the girl that knocked on the door. she looked so familiar but mans just don't know where. She was so pretty light skin chick, more like a younger version of Lauren London, yeah that chcik that had Wayne's baby. Before I could even respond to her, Malik staight up came from the back and gave her some hugss that had an thinkin' wether tey were dealing.
My thoughts were true, just after a few, Malik lipsed her like mad, but the pretty girl looked liked she was forced to lips him back. I turned around, sat down and mind my own business.
"Yo fam, I almost forgot, this is my wifey Alicia" I turned around and the faced Alicia.
"U cool yeah?" I took out my hand
"Yh im ite,2she blanked me completely and bare avoiding mans eyes, must be the fact that she's going out with Fat albert Malik, lol. To give out my boy Malik some space, I got up nd told him that was leaving and tings.
"Ite fam, wewill talk inut," He said
"Ite safe yh, later Alicia," she just nod her head and turned again quickly.
Left Malik's house and hed to the bus stop. Saw a couple of chicks jamming, eyeing man but I ignored them and sat at the end and waited for my bus. The bus kind of took long, and one of the girls came up to me. She looked yardy but you can see her african roots in her, but pretty.
"Hey..." she said
"erm....you see my friend tere," se pointed at the mix girl that was dressed in black out jeggins.
"she likes you int?"
"Must be my swagger and looks then?" I joked
"Lol your so vain you know, actually it's my friend dat likes you tough"
"who is i then?"
"Me inu" she lokked bare shy
"ite, my bus's here, how about you add me on facebook and I will hola at you?"
"I don't mind, whats your facebook?"
"Ite fanks, can I atleast get a hug then?" she asked, and all hr bredrins bare watching. So i gave her a hug, and watched her friends faces and smiled. Got in my bus and left.
I got home and my mum was bare happy. I guess that dumb teacher didn't call her to tell her about what happened then. do the normal routines and jammed for a bit with Destiny for a bit. Mum came and told me how she got me a job down West in some Afro-Carribean restuarat and that I should go and check it out tomorrow. I gave her a hug and a kiss on cheek and went to my room.
I logged on to my faceboo, a group fans of Justin Bieber asked if I could join, fam are they mad fam, nothing against that lil dude yeah but mans ain't no batty man, you get me. so I ignored it, and checked out my other tings. some chick called Lisa added me, and a girl called Shacell, the girl at the bus stop. chat to her for a bit and moved on. I checked on Malik's page, and saw Alicia's picture in the folder tha says "Wifey". no gonna lie but I was a bit jealous, not tryna diss Maik, buh the girl was to pretty for him. Just before man logged off, the Lisa chick started chatting to me, turned out it was Alicia, Malik's girl. she asked me if I know, a girl called Jessie frm bac in the days. Mans remmebered inut, Jessie is the chick that used to deal with Ashley in year seven. Oh s******........Lisa is my girl from back in the days. Nah fam mans blacked out right now. I couln't type anymore, and told her to hola at my number right now.
fews minutes later.....
My phone rang, must be Lisa. Fam I knew her face was familar, what a small world. not tryna sound corny or anything, buh thats my girl, my first girl that I went out with fam.
"Yeah Anthony J...it's me" yes fam that's her, the only gir that took my heart and use o call me Anthony J. we talked and remebered dem old days.
"A.J remember when you and Ash got kicked out in cinema just cuz...."
"Yh mans still remembe..."
"How's Ash..omg i miss his jokes no lie"
"Yh....I guess you didn't know huh?"
That was it, Lisa cried out on me. I don't blame her cuz I know her and Ash use to be like bros and sis. I tol
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Mans not that good in college and not dumb either. Cuz i know there's certain teachers that like to look down on students like me, like mans life only revolves around crime just cuz I'm black. Just like my english teacher giving me essays that are jus plain boring and waste of my time and I told him that mans can't deal with dem writing essays about shit like Romeo & Juliet or of mice and men, my man tryna say I can't do s***.
"Sir listen like i told you, I can't do that..."
"Anthony you either do it or you fail"
"do you know what yeah F dis class fam, i'm out"
"alright that's it, get out of my class..."
"Don't let me catch you o the street SIR," everyone just bugged out laghing. just cuz this his skin's white and was born in england, my man thinks he knows everything. Low life-twat.
I took myslef out of class and heading out of college. I know Ma will get mad yeah but don't mean I have to put up with low life teachers that can't even affod a car.
Just before I took a bus home, I heard someone call my name like mans on sale like, allow it man.
"Yo Anthony hol up"
I turned around and I saw Malik. He used to go to my secondary school and ting. he's cool though but man need to stop baiting my name out like I'm some next batty man. Anyways yh I didn't even know that he goes to same college as me, what a small world.
"Fam is this you yeah?" I smiled, Malik was like the younger version of that guy that played B.I.G in Notorious.
"Yeah T its me man, for a moment I thought you won't remember me fam"
"Fam how can I forget you after them days of sweets in secondary school" I laughed, basiculy Malik used to bring sweet every lesson and made serious business. This guy can be the black Bill Gate no lie.
"Yeah I memeber dem times man..." He smiled and suddenly his smile fades.
"U kool fam?" I asked
"Nah...I heard about....Ash"
"Oh, you didn't no blad"
"Nah fam, I went jamaica for the summer inut"
"Yh Ash's gone just like that inut"
"Fam i'm sorry for real man..."
"Don't worry about it...it's done and pass
"I hear you man"
"Anyways what course you doing?"
"Mans doing business you?"
"what's dah course caled again...wait..yh...erm...Media, english and maths"
"That's cool though"
The bus came, we both jmped on it and talked ust like them old days. we end up jamming at his house down New cross. Malik was cool but the guy just ate too much. His room was hard just cuz he had all dem games that can't make man move. Just by his computer, he had a picture of all us, including Ashley in secondary school on prom day, this guy was taking mans back to old memeories that I didn't want to visit. We jammed to the old music, and found out that Malik maakes beat and asked if I still rap like back in the days. I told him i do that but just on the daily basis, so he said we should do some mix. we jammed until someone knock on the door. I told Malik that I had it and got up to open the door............S****
Wha u guys fink?xxxx
4 Comments 136 weeks
My boy Ashley's death was a wake up call in my life, though crime madness was happening down south, I never really thought something like that could happen to someone close to me. his funeral ceremoney was quiet but I clocked a few mansdem from secondary school, they came by and droped a few rhymes for Ash, a few chicks that knew him dropped by as well. Then I realised that he was just like me and that tommorow was not promised for any man, including me.
I never told Ma about them threaten call that i got that day, I had to take care of it myself, had to be my own man. I wanted to drop college but i knew Ma was gonna freak out, so let it be and dropped by just in few classes. I needed to do something to earn something, just like that guy Tony Montana from that movie Scarface. if those wastemans told me that i was next, I knew I needed something for my own protection and I knew who I had to go to.
They called him Tiny, cuz he's so skinny and dark. he had business that provided everything needed for the street. he lived down Elephant and Castle in them ghetto places and no one would ever clock that he run dirty businesses. I knew about him after Ashley's older sis Tia was dealing wih him back in the days. he told me and Ash that if we ever need any of his service, we could just hola at him. This was also an opportunity for me to tell him about what happened to Ashley.
In the long bus to Tiny's place, I could hear Ashley voice talking to me just like back in the days and I would just respond without no care, and them stinky people in the bus would just look at mans like I was some next crazy black boy that had no ambition when they didn't even know me. I never get angry at things like that cuz I had better things to do in my life. Ashley's voice kept repeating in my head, to avoid his voices, I turned up Tupac's hard tune "Ghetto gospel" from my ipod and rhyme to the lyrics...
I was so caught up in my world that I nearly missed the bus, good thing a african lady was talking so loud that her accent hit my ears like mad.....mothers from the motherland,...I respected them from my heart. I got up and got off the bus and walked to Tiny's place.
"You serious cuz?"
"Yh man...he's gone inut"
"Hows Tia doing?"
"she's ite though..." No she was not fine. Tia haven't gone to Uni since Ashley was put to rest and I felt for them big time but that was not my business to brag about their life to anyone, so I shut my mouth and told Tiny why I was there instead.
"I see you wanna be the next Tony Montana fam, don't you?"
"Nah I just wanna be Anthony inut"
"Anthony, I see..."
After Tiny sold me the ting, no lies yeah I did feel like Tony Montana, and that was the first time I ever bought a gun in my life. I placed my ting under my jacket in a safe place and left Tiny's place.
walking back home, I saw bare chicks with look of, "talk to me darlin" but I passed that cuz if I wanted to get with a chick, she had to be different, someone unique and can make mans go crazy and I knew it wasn't one of them wanna be Nicki Minaj chicks.
Inside the house, Destiny and Ma were watching Xfactor. I sat down as well by that time, I already hid my ting in my room. We ate and just jammed as family. Ma talked about how I needed to focus in college and think about where I heading in life.
what you guys think?
3 Comments 136 weeks