My heart pains, my eyes filled of tears I can not cry. My thoughts are confused. I seek the right path but which one do I take? My jeaulct has taken over and my emotionals run wild! This is the life I live has made me numb inside, dead right down to my soul. It has made me weak and yet strong at the same time. Sometimes i don't understand the things I say or do anymore! There is only one reasoning to my life of which I choose not to say. I will never open up fully unless I can truly trust someone! My heart dosen't beat normal anymore! I guess I really have changed. Sometimes I don't even understand myself. I don't know whats going to happen to me. My heart has been stolen and riped into a million peices! I don't understand how I can still feel or how I am still alive! There is nothing left for me. My life no longer has any meaning to it!...and yet I still live! What do I do anymore!