; go after her. fuck, don't sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because that's what you should do if you love someone, don't wait for them to give you a sign cause it might never come, don't let people happen to you, don't let me happen to you, or her, she's not a fucking television show or a tornado.
There are people I might have loved had they gotten on the airplane, or run down the street after me, or called me up drunk at four in the morning, because they need to tell me right now because they cannot regret this; and I always thought I'd be the one doing crazy things for people, who would never give enough of a fuck to do it back. or act like idiots, or be entirely vulnerable and honest, and making someone fall in love with you is easy; and flying 3000 miles on four days notice because you can't just sit there and do nothing isnt.and breathing into telephones is not everyones idea of love but it is the way I can recognise it, because that is what I do. Go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is beautiful, and that is generous, and that is what loving someone is, that is raw and that is unguarded, and that is all that is really worth anything, really. '

get ears peirced
dye hair
fuck ellie bishop
get drunk
lose weight
stop biting my nails
get a boyfriend
get a boyfriend that isnt a player
learn chinese
catch up with brooke streeting
catch up with tayla cassidy
catch up with hayley bryan
marry jazmin pearce
go to a party
make new friends
get a haircut
have sex with lady gaga
go into town heaps
get a new phone
get another sportsgirl bag
get a job
buy heaps of clothes from ally
go on a shopping spree to dfo
rob the bank
sneak out
have a birthday party on bondi
have heaps of days off school
go to all the bluelights
play indoor soccer again
work out who my real friends are
not go on the computer for at least 2 weeks straight
delete bebo.

the fucked thing about life is the way it ends. lifes tough. It takes up a lot of your time. what do you get at the end of it? a death. what's that, a bonus? i think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you're too young, you get a gold watch, you go to work. You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into the womb, you spend your last nine months floating...and you finish off as an orgasm.