I don't realli use bebo anymore. i actually never thought i'd say that. I love bebo but less and less people are using it. I'm on facebook and myspace so add me. Go on you know you wanna. I won't delete my profile, just because i'll come on here from time to time to have a nosey on all of you because i can because you're on the internet! mwahahaha!

Anyway in the interest of not using bebo much anymore. I think some things need to be said. Nothing major, just things that some peopl might not know and they need to because they'll check this hopefully, This sin't all about one person. It's a paragraph a person and if it makes sense then its probs about you.

I don't know what you really want from me. You say your sorry and that you'd do anything to show me that. Well you've had time and chances haven't you? It's not about second chances. It's about saying things you don't mean which you should know more about than anyone else. It's about saying you're sorry on the internet but not being able to say it to my face. Its actually about saying alot on the internet you couldn't say to my face that's why were here isn't it? I'm not angry at you. Not anymore. I'm pissed in the least angry way because you dont understand how much i would love for things to be okay between us and all it takes is for you to see your promise through? Confused? Then don't worry. We're not arguing that's something aye?

Speaking of saying things you don't mean. Where have you been lately? I know you've got a lot going on but we were so close and now i feel like you've done this great dissapearing act
on me and i feel quite pushed away and im wondering if it's something i did or didnt do. I worry about you and i'm being told news from other people that you've told but im still worrying. I don't know what to think or do, it doesn't seem to matter. I'm scared of losing you.

I miss you so much. Have you ever missed someone so much it hurt? Yep. some say i can't miss you, it's not possible. But what do they know? Its not fair. I just want you here with me. I'm waiting and trying to be patient but its hard, but i suppose i've done it for so long now the next stretch shouldn't be so bad but it is. I can't wait to see you.

I'm so glad we're friends, i told you to read this to find out what's going on in my head so yeah you know ho you are. You're my super awsomesause friend and i would not trade you for nothing in this world, unless i could make you into a skateboard then i could jus take you with me everywhere haha. Thank you for all the good advice you've given me in three years. In sorry i can be a pain in the ass sometimes but you know its only cuz of PMS haha. But seriously thank you and i adore you, nobody else could love yi as much as i do.

i think that's it for now
lyl
xoxox

Well, as of midnight tonight, summer 09 is over. How sad is that???? I have had a blast this summer. 50 days of summer. I've made some friends and the memories have been amazing, i wouldn't change a single thing about it, nothing. Year 11 awaits. Nine months until things change again. Let's not think about that. I wanna say thank you to everyone who i saw or spoke to in the summer, even if it was just a "HI!" It made summer so amazing. I didn't say summer was always fun, sometimes it was damn miserable and i wanted to run away but now, the day before we go back, i look at it and laugh, i loved everything about this summer. I used to say summer 07 was my best summer, it was a good summer but without a doubt this summer has kicked its ass! I did so many things. I went and saw so many people and did everything i wanted to. Remember me saying my summer motto was """we sure are in for a show tonight!""" well yeah that's exactly it. I did so many things with my friends and i loved it. I can't actually describe how sad I am to leave it behind and go back to school, but this summer has helped me grow, I feel liberated and damn amazing. So here's to summer 09. But what's next year gunna be? Summer 10? summer twenty ten? confusing. Heres to the last summer before things change forever. This time next year i know nothing will be the same but i have hope that everything will be okay, and with my amazing friends by my side, i know it will be.

I've been back in bournemouth for like 2 hours and it feels so weird. Going to see everyone feels like a dream almost and i had to wake up *cry face. But omg i had such a blast. the fun times that only my friends could make possible



CLINT: Exfoliate!!!!
I got locked in a mens toilet in the park pmsl, i couldn't get out. . . .till i pushed the handle down lol!
attempting to watch the notebook at chloe's (aka hloe) and failing because i fell asleep!
Jones Soda!
Trampolines
Going to barneys and numurous parks and getting food on the way and stealing barneys shirt</u>
TEE: Megan kiss me quick!</b></u>
TEE: HA i spoon you!. . . .flick!
Pizza and smiley faces at chloe's on her kitchen floor


that's just like a few of them but omg did i have fun or did i have fun? I fucking loved it and i miss you all so much now its not fair but I'll be up soon to see you all i promise. Now its back to bournemouth and the remainder of summer