music: last dance - sarah mclachlan

i envisioned
i motioned
all the possible ways
i could have said good-bye
like moving towards you
like brushing your cheeks
or squeezing the back of your arm
all so planned so perfectly
but in haste
in utter waste
our time came so suddenly
i faltered
as i muttered
not a sense in my words
amidst my flawless accord
it slipped by
it passed by
only a tear rolled back in my eye
as you raised your hand uneasily
and my last glimpse of your blue-eyed misery

i portrayed
i plotted
all remarkable ways
of saying good-bye
but as we walked together
in front of these majestic cliffs
lights flashing from nowhere
with our matching turtle souvenir shirts
i stopped
the world halted
the inevitable can't be maneuvered
but only be embraced
and let the calm take its place
as we stand here
almost an eternity
relying on the peace in between
and a dream we will forget .. in time
we will eventually ... some time ... trust me

music: black coffee - all saints

half hearted half witted
my dimwitted attempt to commitment
after all, after all these months
i thought i've known it all
i thought i've seen it all

this anchor in my chest
imagining all of the pathetic excuses
to win you, to corner you
after loosing my chance when i'm with you
yes, after all, after all these months
yes, you've won, you've won

rub it in, rub it in
cut the politeness and learn to scheme
i need a reason to quit you
i need an excuse to move on
to my next best option
to my life's next season


half hearted half witted
this feeling has got me dumbfounded
unexpected unrelated
wishing this has never happened ...

music: for all i care - above & beyond

i speak
in tongues
of stoned origin
the narcotics playing with every word
the phrases stoked to surreal proportions
can you hear the music
banging in my heart
splitting in my ear
the ecstatic voices
just in my head
confiding in my head

i lay
with astral emotions
scattered around me
freely flowing
overly escalating
this pleasure
this lush multitude of emotions
from the peak of my shin to my nape
so inconceivable
so unbelievable
in my head
they conspire only in my head

no motion so subtle
no greatness so insurmountable
the glee
that pleas to be free
from beyond the control of sensitivity
i am passing
the transformation to another being
fully taking over me ...