Diego, he was Beautiful. The hair, the eyes, even the way he sweated after playing soccer. The best guy anyone could ever know. A friend, a brother, everything. It shattered my heart when I saw him with her for the first time. Standing on opposite sides of the field. I almost went over to him before I saw her. I felt my heart breaking into a million pieces as I stood watching her hug him. I would have treated him so much better than she ever did. He deserved more. So much more. I couldn't believe it when I saw her. Sitting in the library. Kissing Hunter. Right there in front of me and Madison. We went straight to him. Told him everything we saw. Trying not to smile as I did so, I watched them talk. She cried and screamed but he didn't believe a word that she said. He even asked if they had slept together. He didn't seem to believe her when she said no and looked at me for advice. I shook my head, I don't think even she was low enough to do that. They didn't break up though. Not until the end of the year.

I never told him I liked him. Well, at least not until my friend Claire made me. If it was up to me he never would have found out. We were talking to him one day and Claire looked at me and said "just tell him already". I shot her a glare and told her yet again that I didn't want to. She said it again and I looked her straight in the eye and said "Fine I like him. Are you happy now?" I walked away from them unsure of what to think. I told him, he knew. What would happen now? Not much as it turned out. All he did was ask why I hadn't told him. I couldn't answer that. It just wasn't right to tell him. He was my best friend. Plus he was leaving at the end of the year to go to America. A soccer scholarship I think it was.

He was the best friend I ever had. Him leaving was one of the hardest things I ever had to go through. I hated him for it. But at least I got to say good bye to him. It was a sad day, his last day of school, but fun at the same time. I met him at school and we hung out for a while before class started. We walked around and we talked. There was a lot I wanted to say and a lot I probably should have. I was sad walking to class. Two hours before I would see him again. That was a long time for me. I practically ran to the gym at interval. I was devastated to see Her with him too. He introduced me to his mum. She seemed to like me a lot. She was nice, I liked her too.

I haven't talked to him since a day sometime in year ten. I was so excited to see him. I ran up to him and he caught me in a massive hug. It was gorgeous. So wonderful. But that was the last time I ever saw him. I haven't seen or talked to him since. I don't even know if he is still in the country. I would do anything to see him again.

© 2007 J K Butchers

Messed up and confussed,
mistreated and abused,
happy then sad,
Everything going right then all going bad,
Lifes a bitch...
And then you die,
But thats the way it goes,
Big girls dont cry,
Haha, yeah,
And boy dont lie,
Life is just a waste of time,
Until you grow old and die,
So why even bother,
Why even try,
All happiness ends... eventually,
When you say... Goodbye.

© 2007 J L Walton