happy father's day dad, another year gone by
wish i could be there but i cant, can i
no, because you are to much of a coward to show your face
now i have a step dad who took your place
i wish i could be there to celebrate this day with you
but your celebrating it with another family so what am i suppose to do
cry until you can hear my pain or my aching heart
i just wish we didnt have to be so far apart
i hate you so much believe me when i say im not joking
its because of you that im completely broken
but, for some reason another part of me will love you and that wont stop
i wish it could but you are my dad no matter what
it hurts dad it hurts just way to much
i will never be able to feel your touch
ive missed out on so many stuff
but please come back dad enough is enough
were you there when i needed you to tuck me in to bed
were you there to say goodnight and kiss me on the forehead
you could be dead and i wouldnt even know
believe me when i say i have tried to let you go
please just wake up and hear me scream for you
i love you dad and i wish i could hear you say you love me too
every year i have to see my sister hug her dad
and knowin thats something i never had
see her give her dad a card and a kiss
look at what you have missed
some day i will find you even if you are on the other side of the world
but for now i have to live with the fact that i am not daddys little girl

All About Me...
Full Name: Natasha Kelly
Birthday: 27 october 88
Birthplace: Craigavon Hospital
Eye Color: browny greenish
Hair Color: brown
Height: 5 sumfin lol
Weight: dont no actualli
Right handed or Left handed?righty wish i wos both tho
My Worst Habit: scarcasim lol
Zodiac Sign: scorpio, its da best
Shoe Size: 5
Parents Still Together?: they never were lol
The Shoes You Wore Today: nikey
Your Weakness: emmm mite take a wile lol
Your Fears: 2 many but worse is people walkin out of my life
Your Perfect Pizza: between spicy chicken an ham an pinapple
Goals You Would Like To Achieve This Year: to keep in touch wif my best mates afta i finish tech
Your Most Overused Phrase: ive a new one everyday lol but its, fack it dont worry bout it an u ave 2 do it in an american accent lol
Thoughts First Waking Up: o god same old same old
Your Best Physical Feature: apparently my shoulders lol
Your Bedtime: fuck emm wenever depends in my mood

MY FAVORITES...
Favorite color?: ocean blue
Food?: pizza
Sport?: footie
Animal?: puppies and dolphins
Ice Cream?: belgain chololate
Song?: wasted by LP
Letter?: N
Number?: 7
Season?: autumn
Radio Station?: dont ave 1
Perfume?: gwen stefani
Scent besides perfume?: new carpet and paint
Body part on the opposite sex?: mmm stomach

FRIENDS AND LIFE...
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?: a poet
How Do You Want To Die?: in my sleep
Which One Of Your Friends Acts The Most Like You?: rachel its weird how much we r a like
Who's The Loudest?: me lol nahhhh amy u cant get louder dan her even my mum z so lol
Who Makes You Laugh The Most?: has 2 b ashlene she always cracks me up
Who Have You Known The Longest?: wud be rachel feel like ive known her my whole life
Who's The Shyist?: ash wud b wen it comes to meetin sum1's mother lmao
When Have You Cried The Most?: my grannys funeral miss ya loads xo
What Is The Best Feeling In The World?: the moment i hold my godchild dylan cant beat it
Worst Feeling?: havin sum1 walk out even tho its their job to look out 4 ya
Where Do You Want To Live When You Grow Up?: LA
If You Could Change One Thing About You What Would It Be?: to b less of a joker im workin on it now actualli lol
How Long Do You Think You'll Live?: dont no it dont bother me

FINISH EACH SENTENCE...
Let's walk on the: sand
Let's look at the: clouds
What a nice: ass lol
Look Where all: livin a lie
Why can't we: make others love us the way we love them
Silly, little.. doggy lol
Isn't it weird that: things never turn out the way u want it 2
Never under any circumstance: u shud keep things bottled up
I wish:that certain things cud stay the same
Everyone has a: dream
I am: in luv wif spashley lol dont ask

HAVE YOU EVER...
Been In Love?: nope
Mooned Someone?: no no nooooo
Ran Away From Home?:nope ave fought bout it tho
Pictured Your Crush Naked? i cant picture any naked how do ya do dat lol
Skipped School? yep but 4 a good reason
Thought About Suicide?: who hasnt
Slept Outside?: hell yea
Laughed So Hard You Cried?: all da fuckin time
Cried In School?: yep
Thrown Up In School?: yes
Wanted To Be a Model?: u kiddin me ha
Cheated On Someone?: nooooooooo
Done Something Really Stupid That You Still Laugh At Today?: omg all da time
Seen A Dead Body?: yep an never again it so scary
Drank Alcohol?: nooo lol yea i have
Smoked?: nope
Been On Drugs?: nope never wud
Eaten Sushi?: yea
Been On Stage?:in primary skool
Gone Skinny Dipping?: nope
Shoplifted?: ehhhhhhh lol no comment
Been Drunk?: hell yea
Been Called A Tease?: nope im a good kid
Been Beaten Up?: not badly no lol


DO YOU...
Swear?: fuck yea
Sing Well?: fuck no
Shower Daily?: yep of course
Want To Go To College?: im in college now but dont wana go 2 uni
Want To Get Married?: hell 2 da nizzo
Believe In Yourself?: at dis moment in time nope
Get Motion Sickness?: yea sumtimes
Get Along With Your Parents?: wif my mum yea my dad....nah so

I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.
I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.
I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a ditz
I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.
I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.
I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.
I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a b***h.
I'm a GAY RIGHTS SUPPORTER, so I WILL go to hell.
I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.
I don't have a RELIGION, so I MUST be evil and have no morals
I LISTEN to RAP, so I MUST be a GANGSTA and do DRUGS
I put up a BRICK WALL when people get close, so I MUST be HEARTLESS
I ALWAYS have a SMILE on my face, so I MUST not have any PROBLEMS
I SELF-HARM, so i MUST be STUPID and ATTENTION SEEKING
I TAKE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.
I play FOOTBALL r RUGBY, so I MUST be a TOMBOY
I'm a GIRL, so I MUST only be good for COOKING and CLEANING
I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.
I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.
I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a whore...
I'm a DANCER, So I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore
I wear SKIRTS a lot, so I MUST be a slut.
I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.
I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.
I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth
I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.
I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible slut.
I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.
I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life.
I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.
I'm INTO THEATER & ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be f*****g them all.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be a player.
I have Big BOOBS, so I MUST be a hoe.
I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.
I'm GERMAN, so I must be a Nazi.
I hang out with GAYS, so i must be GAY TOO
Im a STONER so I MUST be going in the wrong direction
Im a VIRGIN so I MUST be prude
Im STRAIGHT EDGE so I must be violent.
I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly.. or crazy.
I'm a GIRL who actually EATS LUNCH, so I MUST be fat.
I'm SINGLE so I MUST be ugly.
I'm a SKATER so I must do weed and steal stuff
I'm a PUNK so I must only wear black and date only other punks
I'm CHRISTIAN so I MUST hate homosexuals.
I'm MIXED so I must be screwed up.
I'm MUSLIM so I MUST be a terrorist.
I'm BLACK so I MUST believe JESUS WUZ A BROTHA
I'm WHITE and have black friends so I MUST think I'm black
I'm GOTH so I MUST worship the devil
I'm NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser.
I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.
I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.
I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.
I'm BI, so I MUST think every person I see is hot.
I'm a GUY CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be gay.
I'm a PREP, so I MUST be rich.
I don't like the SUN so I MUST be an albino.
I have a lot of FRIENDS, so I MUST love to drink and party.
I wear tight PANTS and I'm a guy, so I MUST be emo.
I couldn't hurt a FLY, So I MUST be a wimp.
I support GAY RIGHTS, so I MUST fit in with everyone.
I hang out with TEENAGE DRINKERS and SMOKERS, so I MUST smoke and drink too.
I have ARTISTIC TALENT, so I MUST think little of those who don't.
I don't like to be in a BIG GROUP, so I MUST be anti-social.
I have a DIFFERENT sense of HUMOR, so I MUST be crazy.
My hair gets GREASY a lot, so I MUST have no hygiene skills.
I'm DEFENSIVE, so I MUST be over controlling and a b***h.
I read Comics, so I MUST be a loser.
I hang out with a FORMER PROSTITUTE.. So I MUST be a whore myself.
I’m a GOTH, so I MUST be a Satanist
I’m a CROSSDRESSER, so I must be homosexual.
I draw ANIME so I MUST be a freak.
I am a FANGIRL so I MUST be a crazy, obsessed stalker.
I WATCH PORN so I MUST be perverted.
I'm an ONLY CHILD so I MUST be spoiled.
I'm INTELLIGENT so I MUST be weak.
I am AMERICAN so I MUST be obese, loud-mouthed and arrogant.
I'm a GUY, so I MUST ditch my pregnant girlfriend.
I'm DISAB