Well Its been ages since I've written a blog on here and for some reason I like writing Bebo Blogs ! ! ! ! .

Anyway since the last big thank you blog I made some mistakes again but I got myself back on track, also my relation is become even more amazing and the band has come along way in a short space of time.

We are sorting out making the label a LTD company, we have our set list, recording a new track in August, going on Black and Beard Radio and we got a YOG gig next year.
I couldn't have done this without my band mates and the people that support us.

Also put myself into therapy, yeah who would of thought.....its helped A LOT....I am starting to see things a little more clearly now and I guess I wish I could heal some wounds and build some bridges with ex friends and ex girlfriends. Equally I realise that they were not necessarily worth my time in the first place, and anyway I'm happy for once, so why would I want all that stress again.

Yeah well....that's all really, things are moving along nicely.

Feeling very reflective at the moment, so I thought Id say a few words.....

Its hard to describe how good things feel right now without having to talk about the past and the horrors my mind were creating. I was so low six months ago, in a place I couldnt really imagine myself being in.

But then something changed, I was given a chance, an oppourtunity.
I was given the encouragement to start making my music project "Spawn of Psychosis" become something substantial and maybe Ill fulfill some dreams of mine.
I chose to take the chance and do something with the gifts my mother put into my blood, and god was it worth it.

I was then given the chance to meet a beautifal, funny, amazing women, who I fell in love with and who helps make the pieces fit and stop me from becoming HIM again.

Then theres my mates..........

Its not easy for me sometimes, you guys are younger than me, and hanging out with you all reminds me of my past, of a much younger and more innocent me.
But you guys have given me so much fucking support for my music its been amazing and Im humbled by the fact that you believe in my creative expression.

I dont make music for fame, or to look like the next big thing in metal, I do it becuase I have things to say, because it helps me make sense of things, and I do it for her memory.

She didnt have time to fulfill all her dreams, so Ill let her be remember in my motivation to fulfill my dreams.
It wont be easy, its only just begun, Ive got a long way to go but Im grounded and Im focused.

So to all these people I just want to say thank you...and you are part of the only family Ive ever know and been happy to be part of.

Helen: I love you so much my little Penguin

Beckett: My biggest fan

Kornhole: My second biggest and only imaginary fan

Lewis, Matt and Alice: You guys take an interest and it matters to me

Adam: See you on stage fucker

MInus: See you in the vocal booth, just be yourself, and be confident with your gift.

Panda: You were always an inspiration for getting through and beating my depression, thank you....now bring on the Vodka

Sam Gamble: We fight like siblings and I dont always agree with you, but dude, you should just go for it in music..... PATRICIDE ! !

Luke Knight: Hopefully Ill see you on the stage too, with your umbilical chord lol.

Amber: My wannabe manager lol, even if you nag me I know you want me to succeed. No doubt Ill give you loads of jobs to do for Spawn of Psychosis.

There have been so many people who have given me feedback on my music and I appreciate it, thank you for the support, and to some of you...thank you for keeping me alive.

1. Whats your Name?
2. Are we close?
3. What do you think of me?
4. Do you hav a crush on me?
5. Would u kiss me?
6. r we mates?
7. Describe me in 3 words?
8. If u Had Me for 30 Mins wat would you do?
9. What was ur first impression of me?
10.Do u still think the same?
11.What reminds u of me?
12.If you could give me anything what would it be?
13.How well do u know me?
14.What do u like best about me?
15.Ever wanted 2 tell me something u could'nt?
16.Could you ever love me?
17.Give me a nickname and explain why?
18.R u gona put this on ur blog and c wat i say bout u?
19.Anything 2 say b4 u go?