So as destiny unwravels its ugly little head i am once again questioned. Am i suppose to live. Than when i thought i had that question finished life decides to through the nastiest test booklet. So far i'm failing. So now i'm thinking i should go back and erase destiny's answer. For maybe that may not be true. Maybe i am a mistake. Maybe i was just born to serve and not to lead. Suppose that my eyes stop glistening forever and i turn into a souless creature who shall do nothing or become nothing. One eye shines with eternal light. The other is dark and is faint of the abyss. Yin and Yang. The two most powerful forces out there in the world. And it might be possible i have these forces right inside my eyes. I use them to see the future. But when ever i have the time to sit down and meditate i only predict the worse of it all. Does this mean i am unbalanced? Does this mean my heart is so cold and full of hatred and evil that my world is that to be only in thy serenity of evil and beneath the light. Am i forced to live in the Sanctum of evil? While my closes allies live in the kingdom of light am i forced to stay behind in the realm of darkness. While i know most people would say i watch too much t.v. what if i told you t.v isn't always wrong. Or is my voice so small that you do not hear me. Am i so lost in darkness that even my voice may not find the light. Must i be trapped to be depressed and unsatisfied with myself for the rest of my life. Why do i take a test i know i'll fail. It is ridiculous. And even when i find someone who fights his way into the darkness to shelter me with light and bring me home, i am reluctant to go with him, even when he is still there. While maybe it is at times he must flee home and recharge the light within, even though it is might fault for making him wait on me, at these times when i am alone, i feel forgotten and left out. I feel vulnerable to all forces no matter how small. How can the son of the moon be so weak. Even the moon upon which is a heavenly body that does not produce light, may still reflect so much of that on which i desire. So now i must ask myself. Shall i continue to bother this heavenly gifted, lighted spirit to continue to suffer with me through my agony and pain just so i may in the end fail, or shall i relieve this spirit of it all. He tells me he wouldn't be the same without me But my question is now , how can he be changed for someone he has no for so little of time. How can he call me his partner if i am the same force that is hurting him. Is my friend's spirit of light the end of my realm of darkness? Or is he Yin while i'm Yang? Or maybe i just answered destiny's question wrong.