Well id like to say it has been fun but that would be a load of bollocks and why should you lie when things come to an end? Never really wanted this and now I have too many reasons not to keep going on with it just pain all the time so why continue?
id like to say goodbye to you all and hope it works out better then it ever did for me cause tbh it was crap have fun don’t let life get you down its not worth it crap things happen in life its up to you to get better and move on and trick yourself into happiness but I’m to smart to be tricked like that and know things like this always hurt all what happens is you hide it away forever messing with your head therefore things never heal therefore I’m cutting it all off for even a moments bliss.
I’m never coming back so don’t ask moan or be upset … like any of you will cause its not going to happen I’ve given up will stick to the decision till the end this place is shit the people are shit “one or two exceptions” and everything’s just so controlling you cant be yourself without people hating or everything being destroyed and that’s what I hate…
I’m not ending this just yet so drop me a goodbye when your done reading this I may get back to you I’m not salvaging anything so not sure when I’m just going probably be Monday due to how life is but ill see how things go in the last days
have fun… cheer up… and feck off

I’m sure everyone’s herd the story by now from one persons side or another and if your reading this your more likely to know my side or none at all.
Before you start reading this I’m not going to include the story if you want to hear it you’ll have to get in touch with me or go to the slut yourself but I suggest doing both.

My life is shit I wish heartbreak on nobody not even a human and I certainly do not wish it upon myself but I’m cursed with it may I be alive much longer or without blood upon my hands.

I have officially given up on the human race and all it stands for yes I still have my friends but if this race comes to an end they shall go with it or join the higher race.
I am not one who is scared of bloodshed may it be my own or others it bothers me not there’s only one person in this world that could make me fall to my knees and I’m quite sure you think you know who it is but you don’t know its just apart of me no one has ever seen.

I have discovered proof there is more then meets the eye in this world something more powerful then a human what lays in wait and what stalks this hell and as I wait to encounter what ever it maybe.

But I have lost faith in everything I’m told to believe in all I wish for is revenge, love and more to life then living just to end up dead. I want to stand for something again like I did when I had something to live for somewhere I belong cause I don’t belong in the life I’m forced to live in now or among these people who don’t understand the first thing that I know or believe in I just want more.

I also want to ask something… is vampirism real? Are werewolves real? Is witchcraft real? Is everything were told is make-believe, fantasy and legends real? Because the idea must come from somewhere right? I don’t mean the petty diseases like rabies for zombies and that and I don’t mean all the stupid little freaks and sluts out there with a blood fetish like Carly (to one which took blood in return for hers) but I mean the real deal even if its not like films or books but what is the real thing? Is all this just fantasy after all sure there’s evidence to show there not real but what is evidence? How do you prove something? What’s to say even science is real with all its “proof” so if there is anything more then human out there I want to be found and I want to become, To have something to my name that not a lot of people do to be something more.

There are ways to contact me and some are more known then others but if there is I want to be found in person I don’t get around much I barley leave the shit “town” I was born in so someone like you reading this must sure find it easy to track me down but don’t expect me to believe without physical “proof” that your not just another sick human, pervert or psychopath that has contacted me before I want to be found by something more then human so now hunt me down.

I’m not just some teen with a mental problem or one of those emo freaks who think the world hates them I really want there to be more and I want to be more. this is the last thing on this earth I want and if that’s not what there is I shall go out of it fighting shedding as much blood as one male can welcome for others to join me but only if I have the common care for your life after all its not like it cant be taken without remorse.

So I ask …is there more?


Signed BlackW0lf

first the things i hate.. propbly in no particular order
my self
my life
how nothing i do is any good
how no one and nothing have any afect on anything in this world
how the only person who ive ever cared about proved to be the only person to ever be able to hurt me
how nobody in this world can save you from anything or help you no matter what it is
the human race
how no matter how "better" im getting its jsut a lie im not feeling any better and i know i never will if anything im worse
anything that even slightly reminds me of her ...which is almost everything i can think of
how people say you will find someone else you love more... thats just bolox
how the only thing that can make me feel better is the last thing on this earth i actualy want
how ive fucked EVERYTHING up...
how the only way i seam to sleep at night is have to cry myself to sleep
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3:20-3:40 and 11-20-11:50

if you dont know why i feel so shit i prob dont want to talk about it with you but cause i dont want to sound like a fucking emo who brings everybody into there problems cause everybody in this world has there own but heres whats up with me..
i had an amazing girlfreind who i loved and would do anything for .. i listened to her got to know everything about her and was there when ever she needed me or jsut anyone to chear her up.. id would have done anything for her yes anything .. i know i dint treat her rigt 100% of the time but everything i did wrong i regreted cause i hurt her... i never forced her to do anything and only ever wanted her to be happy
then everything started going down hill...she started hateing everything i did for her useing me and cheated on me... i let it all go cause i loved her other things were fucking up in her life which i cant even help with or be there for her .. now shes run off with someone else probly drinking and haveing sex probly even started smokeing again or worse on drugs ...
so now what?...
i cry myself to slee[ .. ive had 3 nervus brakedowns nerly killing my self each time.. twice in public once when at home on my own... the onlything keeping me at the sanity level im at is school and what 6 weeks off great... ive try almost everything to chear up i instaled morrowind again played ps3 for 10 hours straight gone out with my mates and freinds .. but everything i do i still cant get over her... only thing i havent tryed is getting anew girlfreind and tbh i dont want one all the people id even consider going out with are either going out with someone else or i just dont want to lose being freinds with them cause i dont want anything more.. well im single now and open for anyone to ask me out go ahead just dont expect me to particulay show i any relationship stait but if you wanna try and help you know were i am...

only things that i wanna do are things that only happen in games or books life aint a fairytail its just some shit thrown together

afew people have asked why my relationship staituse is set to its complicated.. few of thease people are just trying to get to me i know but its working... it is complicated how i dont want anyone enuff to have a relationship only person ive ever loved and cared enuff to even care about hates me and trys to show it yeah i am single but i can hold a relationship .. so thats why its complicated stop fucking asking

friends... they say they will help you through everything always be there when you need them .. but come on no one "friend" knows you or what your going through enuff to help you yeah you piss around with tem and hang out and have a good time but if somthing seriouse happenes no one can be there for you all they can do is sit on the side lines and whatch as you crash and burn or pull yourself through all the shit... and were do you get "i will take a bullet for my freinds" ... wtf this is the most stupid line in the world ok you who ever you are reading this think of your freinds now im gonna get a gun and 1 bullet for everyone