I'm a click away from deleting my bebo.

I can't believe it. Sunna did it. Fiona did it. Susan did it. So why can't I do it?
Apart from wanting to come back one day at the end of year twelve and realise why i failed the HSC, and having a look at the blogs and photos (although i could just burn those onto a disc which i am likely to lose), I don't know what it is that's stopping me from ditching this thing.

Is it.. nostalgia? Is it wasteful? I mean, i did manage to get almost 5000 profile views (over.. four years =_=) and almost 250 luvs.

Or is it, like how I said in my previous blog... fear of losing connection? Cos i do have a few friends that don't use msnor facebook.. just bebo.

So later on, even if i wanted to talk to somebody that I hadn't seen in a long time, I would have lost all connection because.. I don't have bebo anymore.
But what the hell? You live in the same country. It really shouldn't be that hard. And when facebook takes over the world, you can use friendfinder to find them again. Or you can use a friend of a friend to find them again.

And if those friends really do mean to you, then you would go out of your way to see them in person once in a while and keep their phone numbers (and not lose your fucken phone...yeah, good job Michelle).

So what am I so nervous about?
Why can't I fucken delete bebo?

It's the number one source of my procrastination. Commenting on the pages of people that I haven't seen since year five at harcourt public school. If i delete my bebo, I would be procrastinating on the ABC News website rather than this bebo shit. I'm in fucken year twelve! SHIBALLLLL i need to get a REAL LIFE! i need to throw away my cyber lifestyle and being bebo-less, to me, is a great start.

Thinking about it.. on the night before the yearly exams last year, i was on bebo typing random messages to people in New Zealand and Canada. I was checking out my friend's friend's friend's good looking friends. and i was digging out gossip about family friends to dob on them to my mum so that she can bleed the information to other korean ladies.

Sad?

i think so too.

All the more reason to abandon bebo, to become a better person.

Note: After this, if i don't end up deleting it, I'm going to look like such a fool...

i was on the phone talking to someone about sex and prostitution just then, just because, well, it's easy to talk about that stuff to people your age. Does it hurt? Does it feel good? What does it feel like to girls etc. Of course i didn't have the faintest clue, so i said what i could collect from reading erotic books and watching redtube (JOKING) and then..
my mum was staring at me from the entrance of my room. "What the hell are you talking about?"
I nearly jumped out of my bed, I was so surprised. Later on i was fken embarrassed. It felt like my mother had caught me with my hand in her purse or something.
I quickly changed the subject, trying to relate to "does it feel good" "Uhh, yeah, like i said, it would feel good to get into Sydney University.......it would feel REALLY good to get into Harvard or Yale.. yeah, that'd be awesome. orgasmic."

SHIT=_=;;

how bored am i

RULES:
1. Put Your music player on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS


IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
두글자 - GavyQueens
두글자라면 - "아니"


WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
"예배자"
Hey a Christian song!


WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Touch My Body - Mariah Carey
ROFLMAOx37481795601478560483975


HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
CHANGE - Lee Jung Hyun
no.. not really. Been sitting here doing nothing, havn't changed a bit


WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Jacob's Blessing - Soriel
Wow!!! "너는 하나님의 선물~~ 사랑쓰런 하나님의 열매~"


WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
And Then.... - Freestyle
WTF.. "ANDTHENANDTHENANDTHEN.."


WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
나만바라봐 - 태양
맞아.. 얘들아.. 나만바라봐!


WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
My Tears Won't Stop - Eru
oh man thats morbid =_=


WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN ?
사랑은 개나 소나 - highkick
HAHA


WHAT IS 2+2?
Further Away - Sweet Sorrow
thats my way of saying i don't know i suppose <.<


WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIENDS?
Hawaiian Couple - Humming Urban Stereo
Two of my best friends will become a hawaiian couple. Yes.


WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
There's Gotta Be More To Life - Stacey Orrico
lol there must be MORE to life than this one person


WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Energy - Mighty Mouth
haha pretty accurate


WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Crazy - Lee Jung Hyun
Huh? No. No! WTF i dont need to become something i already am!


WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
웃다가 울다가 - SG Wannabe
너때문에 웃고, 또 너때문에 운다...


WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Girl's Generation - SNSD
HAHAHA


WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
In a Typhoon - MtoM
but this song is so dramatic and sad i can't dance to depressing music!



WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
L.O.V.E - Brown Eyed Girls
(i think the song above and this song should swap...)


WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
추억은 사람을 닮아 - 박효신
Wow. NOSTALGIC


WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
I'm Sorry - SG Wannabe
후회가 제일 무섭지...


WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
But I Love U - Big Bang
..lol?


WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
I Loved You.. - SG Wannabe
어머.. 얘들아 오해하지마!!! O_O