Hahaha to all you *HATERS* ... and people that go outta their way to attempt to be in *MY WORLD* I have one thing to say.... JOKE'S ON YOU BIATCHES!! lol all I can do is sit on my ass and laugh.....
You people will NEVER compete.... so you can keep HATING, cuz I am gonna do the damn thing regardless..... you just give me some entertainment along the way. The funny thing is you gotta make fake accounts and say shit to me .. grow some fucking balls and be a real (WOMAN) or (MAN)...who ever the fuck you are, you should seek some professional help.....and stop hiding behind a computer screen.
Your bullshit attempts to try to be on my level.....keep 'em coming cuz I'm loving every fucking second of it.

life now, is being someone new. being gone. Being me. beginning something new. Life is missing my friends. Life is learning who my friends are. Life is learning what im doing wrong, and what im doing right. Its nights meeting new people, its mornings waking up with him. Its learning to love. Its learning what it means to be broken. Its wanting him everytime im gone. Its the happiness i get when im with him. Its The laughs when its the 4 of us. Its the phone calls home. Its not knowing what to expect. Its knowing your losing a friend, but realizing theres nothing you can do about it, but wish him the best. Its about losing a friend, but knowing theyll be back. Its Cuddling with deuce. Its wanting to be in Ohio more than anything. Its your team losing in the post season, but cheering on a friends team. Its being there for a friend in need. Its wanting to do nothing but make them happy. Its birthdays, and getting older. Its Tickles that make you laugh so hard you almost pee. Its a friend in seattle, that worries about you when youre gone.
Maybe ive lived before, Maybe im starting to make the most of it. Maybe its ive finally gotten to the point that im not scared of anyone anymore. maybe its just its all coming together now. But all i know. is im happy. Im happy, and I love. I love myself. I love My best friend. I love him. I love nights with Doug, Michelle, and David. I love coming home after a week, and missing my mom terribly. I love waking up with someone there. I love that feeling i get. I love being happy. I love being more independant. I love the feeling that Shannon is an amazing true friend, that unlike everyone else, cares. I love Matt, and how he still makes me laugh. I love Jimmy, and how his team is in the superbowl, and he makes me not feel so bad that my team didnt make it. I love mike and how he cares. I love Jesse, and how I want nothing more than to be there for him right now. I love my family, and how William tells me stories. I love movie nights with my family. I love quoting Cars with Douglas. I love Playing moonsand with Ari. I love walking around elbe late at night with michelle. I love meeting new people. I love getting out of here. I love Copper creek. And i love T-rex and Julia. I love being free. I love the fact, that i miss those 5 more than i miss anything, but ive gotten to the fact, that i know missing them will do me no good, but ill see them again someday. I love Washington, and i love the suprizes it brings me. I love home, and i love being away. I love michelle, and our talks about random shit. I love Douglas, and how he makes me smile. I love the way everything is falling together now. but most of all, i love being free. and i love being this happy...
Im gone alot, but i love you guys, Know that.
Shannon, Mike, Matt, Jimmy, Monster, Jesse, Corianne, Marie, Melinda.... You guys have kept me, me for so long. And i wont forget that. Even if im away, something little, is reminding me of you. And making me laugh. Thank you. And I love you.