A Prayer From GodMamii .

little baby on the way, getting bigger every day.
kicking mommy here and there.
god please listen to our prayer..
keep this baby safe and strong, let bub time with us be long,
help us teach bubz right from wrong and
we shall praise thee all day long.
this little one, though not yet here,
is loved so much, has grown so dear.
delivering time is growing near,
that’s why we pray our plea you’ll hear.
please help us lord, we pray to thee with a thankful heart,
to raise this child, that he/she might be,
a happy child because of us.

Heartbreaking Story .

mummy keep me safe, mummy keep me warm,
and with all your love help me to form..
Im six weeks today ad a birthday gift to me..
Is a pair of bright blue eyes so that one day I might see.
Ive already got my arms; I have a puggy little nose,
And at the end of m feet are funny little things called toes.
Im looking forward now to life, ice cream, snail,
Teddy bears and long fairy tails.
Where are you going today؟؟
In a bus, in a car, far far away.
Why are you lying down being pushed on four wheels؟؟
This doesn’t usually happen, how funny it feels.
Banging through doors, all people in green,
If they hurt you mummy, mummy just scream.
Don’t go to sleep mummy, don’t leave me along.
Mummy im scared, I want to go home.
Mummy whats happening, im starting to cry.
Run quick mummy, I don’t want to die/
They’re killing me mummy, they’re pulling me apart.
My legs, my arms, they’re cutting my hart.
Goodbye mummy, mummy, mummy, mummy goodbye.
Thanks for trying but I wont see the sky,
I wont see the birds or the grass or the trees.
I wont sing sweet songs or feel a cool breeze.
I love you dear mummy, I really really do..
And I hope dear mummy that you loved me too.

Melika-Jane Leigh ::
(my bean, cutie, ickle-ray of sunshine)

Your were a surprise, a good one ..
in the short time of having you apart of me
i felt so lucky to looking foward to you calling
me mummy . though that changed..
suddennly .. and i tend to regret it from
time to time.. there is no day that goes by where
i do not think of you.. my darliing
and what it might have been like
if things were different . your daddy and i were
looking foward to you coming into this
world even though we were incredibly scared .
The day you left us is the day my heart began to break ..
feeling like there was no choice but what i did .
i wanted everyone to love you and be excited
for your welcome but that unfortunatly wasnt the case..
only 4 people knew in the family. you were amzing
to have inside of me ... the joy you brought
daddy and me... you are definatly irreplacable
and i will never forget you..
you are truly my little angel and will forever be with me .

passed 07-09-06 ; to be born 08-04-07



Arrabella Peri-Lee.Rueben Dale James ::
(my twins, double joy, baby bumpies)

My two beautiful bubiiess.. you truly were a double blessing .
You tow helped me incredibly in the time we were together ,
and mummy thanks you so very very muchh for that .
When i found out about you two my heart just began
to beat faster and faster and i felt scared and sooo excited
at the same time.. the day i found out was 31st December 2007
and instantly i rang your AuntyLucy who was in Sydney
at the time and we were both excited all the same .
The next day i, what felt like it "broke" the news
to your daddy who didNOT feel the same way..
besides him a majority of the rest of the family
felt the same which made my heart begin to break
slowly and painfully, Your grandfather however was
over the moon with joy, and couldnt wait for you
two little bumpies to be welcomed into this world..
my joy, excitment and the love from you to darliings is
what kept me going through the next few months until
i was crushed by both your grandmothers, this in the end took
a turn for the worst and i did what i promised myself
and your older sister i would never do again.. and that was it...
your were both gone in an instant, and in that exact
instant my heart broke. From that moment on i have regreted it
and will for the rest of my life. I am so sorry my babies </33
my two beautiful bumpies . Now my heart is broken and the pain
of thinking of you two is unbairable but i can promise you
there is no day that ever goes by that i do NOT think of you
both or your older sister so you are all always playing
on my mind and i will always love u.

passed 17-01-08 ; to be born 08-09-08


i have shed 3 tears everyday for you all, my babies
and i cannot wait until the day comes when
i can have you 3 in my arms, and hear you
say "mummy i still love you" . this day will come
and it will be when i close my eyes forever <3