Everyday my mind races about many insufficient possibilities of what I might happen after the next time mistake made in the prison I call life.. Many have found happiness in high and beautiful places, but only my happiness can be found in the rough infectious plains of a horrific place that only exists in my mind... I sit in my own self mutilation night after cold deceitful night and await a hand promised to me by a man said to be there.. Issues are what run my life and give me the reason to be around in this suffocating ambience that torments my inconsiderate curiosity for misery.. The memory of my happiness was lost after I stumbled across the roots of my agony which have shattered a once great foundation I know as my heart.. The race for peace we all mourn for is only an endless journey with a unforgettable ending which leaves you empty handed with bloody feet, blistered hands, and tired eyes only to realize the only happiness you have is the end that awaits your unforgivable mistakes you will be punished severely for. The key to my fate is hidden far from this hell where I cannot reach even if my soul depended on it’s retrieval the self inflicting pain is only preparation and comfort for the time left in this fight for the other side of this life. My peaceful in harmony blinds those from seeing the restless infection that eats away at my being slowly everyday for ever since it lets me remember.. The feeling of love, hate , loss and happiness will never occur to my invisible soul. I was told that after you pass you see angels awaiting your arrival to the other side. My arrival will not exist because I know there’s no place for a child of the wretched and untamed.. People look at my words and see nothing but a troubled youth but never see the truth that chokes them as they read the words of my dreams and philosophy. Remember that you have more time to die then you do to live in this plague that won’t stop multiplying you know as life. Soon enough you’ll finally realize your truth. Please don’t take my words and thoughts for granted for many will deceive you. My words are from what I have left of a heart torn to pieces by many..


Written By
Johnny Kioke

Loved and Missed And Never ever forgotten

Love is an incredibly hurtful thing if not handled in a truthful manner... people say love involves passion and stability but the truth be told only pain and agony await anyone it touches.. Like a downward spiral towards the utterly in despicable suffering that a waits the one who hits the bottom.. Love can be beautiful at times but only because it chooses to wear one it’s many disguises to fool you until you least expect it, then it lifts you off your feet without warning like a vicious disease that’ll take your life away one breath at a time.. Many experience the loss of a love that you thought was so pure that it could not be tainted and felt the depression blanket you it’s unforgettable loneliness which makes the mind race until it loses control and explodes into raging flames that burn through the protective layers you know as yourself...since leaving you broken and in everyone’s sights showing your pain, weakness, and vulnerability so those who choose can use it to their advantages they think they posses.. My love is for the one person who doesn’t exist. The myth of the one person who will understand the trails and tribulations love has to offer and embrace it’s flaws like a new born child and respect it’s mind boggling games it likes to play on the mind like an elder well known to all... love is not a gift but a curse that we all have a temptation and curiosity for that will torment us until we have nothing left to give. I was once told “love will end a loneliness not even a mother could”.. And I was ungratefully speechless for he spoke the truth I couldn’t see for myself.. These feelings are only masks worn by this thin we call love, see through it’s dark deceitful eyes and you will find a better way to adapt to it’s pains and trails.. Don’t take my words as an insult to something you have but only view from someone who has felt these pains we know as feelings.

My regards
Johnny Kioke

Rest In Peace Johnny... Loved and Missed by many.. Never forgotten

picture it like this
you could have a messed up time In this life
2 many feet deep
Remember this untill u stop with your heart beat
and through the hardtimes
keep your dreamz
dont give up
whatchu believe
if ever look around
is this whut u wanted it 2 be
Succeed,Believe
listen 2 whut i go by
2 get by,But this time it aint the same with out anyone around anymore
but i remember life carrys on
so dont surrender so quickly ,like you got nothing for ya anymore
got the whole world left for ya
but in my head its to big to configure, but i couldnt figure it out just right
So im locked,Blocked....i guess im fucked
theirs so many other ways to understand,but i still have 2 learn
in my life time i still wonder?? in my life time am i gunna be a fly straight G
one day i may be
but you never kno whut ur gunna be
so realize how good it is to stay alive and 2 be right ...because you kno man even through the hardtimez and rough timez
Life carrys on
even with out a few that were their...once their
gotta keep going
untill you can go no ferther

writen by my Lil Bro.. Mitchie R.
Miss ya and Luv ya and Can't wait to see ya Bro