dont leave the one you love ..

for the one you like ;;

cuz the one you like ..

will leave YOU for the one HE LOVESZ ..



AND YEAHH .. THAT WAS MY MISTAKE ..


I LEFT THAA` ONE WHO UNDERSTOOD ME, COMFORTED ME, and

THE ONE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME WEN NO ONE ELSE WAS THERE ..




FOR THE ONE I LIKED .. THAA` ASSHOLE,

THE BITCH WHO DIDNT EVEN CARE ..




DUMB RIGHT?! .. YEAHH I KNOW ..



AND NOW I CANT GO BACK TO THE GUY I LOVE ..

HE WONT TAKE ME BACKK .. I KNOW IT. BUHH YEAHH ..



JUST WANTED TO LET THIS OUTT ..

COULDNT HOLD IT IN ANYMOREE ..



TO MY BEST FRENDS , THNKS SOO MUCHH !! ..

FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE .. iiLOVEyou GUYS !! .. <3

Okay.. let`s just say that i havent` technically been in love . But i have found a person that i have .. lets just say [[again]] ;; might love. I mean we all have the special someone that we think we will spend the rest of our life with . and i was told that at my age, thats just puppy love..?? Come on` i'm only 13 but i dont know wat love is. i guess it is just puppy love . cuz my family be sayin` "oh! you dont really love him. your just saying that!" but i can honestly say that i love him. It seems as if he is the only person who understands me . and all the other guys i went out with, only liked me cuz` of my appearence!! that is booshee. meaning they never liked me for who i am. i know i'm only 12 and i still have a long way to go but . being with him is like, floating on a cloud! lol! hearing his voice, puts a smile on my face . seeing him, makes me blushh.. hugging him, makes me never wanting to let go. <3 I know all this sounds pretty corney but its all true. People think hes weird and crazy but thats him.. and thats wat i like/love about him. nobody can change him . and i know that he doesnt want to change..

For now, i wanna not love, even though u think u love the person, u really dont. cuz the last time i loved someone, i got hurt! && i dont want to go through that again.. all the heartache and suffering. i hated it! but yeah... i'm over that, i've moved on. [[Love can make you happy, but in the end, it will hurt you.. even when you least expect it.]] Everything can be going great! until one day, when he seyz "We need to talk".. && its over, in less than 5 mins. and your crying your eyes out cuz` you really loved him .and now its all over. Thats why right now, at my age i dont want to love. but its like i cant help it i just really do love him. Words cant express how much i love him. hes just so different && everything i want in a guy... i mean i want to love but i dont.. get itt?! i dont want to love cuz` i dont want to get hurt again . but i want to [[</i>right now</i>]] cuz` i feel so loved wen i'm around him. Hes so special to me. and if we do break up in the future i still want to be VERY close friends! <3



My Life.. is complicated! so much drama going on at home with my family and at sckool with my friends. i just cant take it anymore. i just want to be in my room under the covers all day, so wont have to deal with all the crap! i mean i talk to my babez about it and hes going through a similar situation with his family so he can relate to wat i'm saying and he understands. but its like i just want to runaway.. Runaway from home! i know its not going to solve anything but, thats the only solution.. so i wont have to deal with it anymore, just to get away from it all! I talk to other people too. like my sisters. they do understand and they agree with me. I just feel like crying. but i dont, i want to be strong about it. and not think about it. and not pay attention to the people around me and to not let it affect my life. I mean my family and friends arent' alwayz like that. we have our laughs too.! But sometimes they just really piss me off and it seems like they dont care. about me, about wat i think, about my life. it seems like i'm invisible to them. they dont notice that i'm not around. and if they do, i get in trouble! thats the only time they notice me. i seriously cant stand it. i just wanted to let ALLLLL this out! hahaha. so yeah. =P