So theres thit bitch rite? used to be a friend. someone i cared about. but you know how sum things go.
we're good friends.. tell each other everything.. work things out together en work our way through the world as best as we can.
then theres the occasional fightings. you kno. shit always happens right? thats the way the cookie crumbles.
well this one day, she witheld some important info that needed to be shared with the one who the whole thing was centered on. she kept her mouth shut.
so i get this fone call from a better, more trustworthy friend. kind of like brother kinna friend. he told me the info. he also told me that he got it from the person who i just talked to the day before, the bitch i was talkin about. fukked up ennit?
So i get the information. im sitten there almost in tears. I called up someone else and talked to them about it, and they told me they didnt say SHIT like that. i know to believe this person. so i do.
then i call that bitch up. ask her why she didnt tell me shit. gives me some excuses, you kno. like they always do. no surprise.
so im sitten there, angered as FUCK and still with a few tears still lingering in my eyes - not falling, just chillen. i tell her i gotta go (hey, i needed time to think. and to cool down). so she hangs up in a bitchy "fuck-you" kinda way. now she didnt say those words. but thats what it felt like. she tried to act like the victim. fuck that.
so life goes on rite? im sitten there, angry at two ppl: one person, because she wuz the one who supposedly started talkin bout untrue shit, and the second person, because she acted like she didnt giv a dam bout the info she held from me- as if I didnt matter to her- when she called me her "sister"

you got this so far? did i lose you? sorry if i did.. its complicated BULLSHIT.

so life goes on..
Im not talkin to those two ppl. but im talkin to the one who first told me the info and one whom the info was directed to- the one who i trusted when he told me he didnt say SHIT like that.
So I'm happy with my boyfriend. [I LOVE YOU TYLER] then i get slightly into it with the person who was sed to originally start talkin shit. then we get over it. now WE'Re cool. things are goin good.
so every so often im writin to the one bitch who witheld such shitty-and-heart-affecting info. secretly trying to get through and over all the shit. yeah ive sed some things- but i didnt over exaggerate. i spoke the truth.
so then one day this bitch writes back- practically screamin at me through this bebo message shit. lol.. hav to admit the shit wuz funni. but stupid. blew up on me en over-exaggerated things to make it sound like Im such a "bad person" . shit. shes the one to talk. but you know how this goes. just anotha bitch.
apparently shes told some ppl some of my secretive info that ive told her in CONFIDENCE because she never trusted ME. and did i EVER tell a secret bout her to anyone? nope. kept my mouth shut. even when we fought, kept my SHUT.
When a person is intrusted with things in which ppl confided to you about, ur given a certain..respect.. and when ur given respect like that, you should honor that. otherwise that respect and trust, turns to nothing. and it'll make a person to never hav that respect and trust AGAIN.
I try my best to honor that. one of my morals i try to hold onto tightly. but some ppl dont giv a fuck. too selfsih. too impulsive. too unable to kno how to be humble and respectful.
Why am i putting this whole thing out? because its a fukken blog and so im gonna fukken blog about it.

moral of the story?
honor the respect ur given
know who to trust and whos just a hypocritical bitch
dont get hung up on some "friend" who isnt worth it
laugh when a bitch over exaggerates and yells at you because their all fukken pissed as fuck! watch and listen or read them screamin and tryen ta bitch yu out.. sit there.. LAUGH.. shits funni.

oh YEAH.. and now supposedly shes callin me a hoe? really..? how is that even possi

[Chorus x2]
I'm so
Hidden and you're never gonna see
I'm cold
Forgiven all because of my beliefs
I'm no
Body that you ever want to be
Cause I know that the world is afraid of me

[Monoxide Child]
Now you can try to sedate me
Assassinate or just hate me
But there's nothing you can do to me lately
Now I'm greatly accepted in the mind
So I'm confused and intertwined
From being rejected so many times
I want to leave it all behind
So kind of you to pick up the album
And give it a try for once
And run and tell your homies
That these motherfuckas a die for us

So many questions, fingers point for answers
Suggesting that I'm the cancer
That lingers inside the pasture
Of green grass up to my neck in situations
Its too fast to think about it
Most people can't dream about
A hundred million miles in every single second
And every time you hear this record
I want you to feel me on every sentence
Reminisce from descendants of past treasures
We'll embark on a journey
That will stay in mind forever
Thats how its laying over on my side of the fence
Regardless of the circumstances or the consequence

[Chorus x2]
I'm so
Hidden and you're never gonna see
I'm cold
Forgiven all because of my beliefs
I'm no
Body that you ever want to be
Cause I know that the world is afraid of me

[Jamie Madrox]
I am my own worst enemy
I'm not the smartest motherfucka
And shit I don't pretend to be
And why I am the way I am is not a mystery
My mind's not in proper working order,
We're in therapy
Derranged, confused, and mentally abused
Life been hanging on a string
So what the fuck I got to loose?
And what the fuck I got to prove to you?
If you don't know me by now
You'll never know me
You can put that on my real homies
I got problems and they stack like bills
And I relate to the broken, bleeding heart love killed
And I awaited in the shadows
Awake in the dark hoping to talk to the passed on
I'm falling apart, I'm such a mess
Indecisive, fading away
I'm outta touch with society,
You living today
Never relied on my sanity, I threw it away
To become the maniac that's got your attention today

[Chorus x2]
I'm so
Hidden and you're never gonna see
I'm cold
Forgiven all because of my beliefs
I'm no
Body that you ever want to be
Cause I know that the world is afraid of me

[Monoxide Child]
Can you keep a secret?
Well I'm afraid of the world
Because they want me to die
Can you believe it?
But I'm still alive
And been floating since '95
With my chin held high
But I'm so dead inside
That the problems just roll up
On my back into a pile
Because its just a bunch of shit
That I can't deal with right now
And I'm tired of always guessing
And messing it up again
And the next day It's even deeper
And I'm steady sinking in

[Jamie Madrox]
I took a look at myself
And came to grips with what I found
It was a vision of a child, disturbed and broke down
No soul, no heart, cuz I gave it away
No time for feeling sorry
I'll grieve another day
And all those tears are stored in storm clouds
That hover above me and cover the ugly
Continue to haunt me when I was feeling low
Thats the same reason I hold on and never let go

[Chorus x4]
I'm so
Hidden and you're never gonna see
I'm cold
Forgiven all because of my beliefs
I'm no
Body that you ever want to be
Cause I know that the world is afraid of me

No time for goodbye he said
As he faded away
Don't put your life in someone's hands
Their bound to steal it away
Don't hide your mistakes
'Cause they'll find you, burn you
Then he said

If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive
Run for your life

This is my last time she said
As she faded away
It's hard to imagine
But one day you'll end up like me
Then she said

If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Run for your life (Life)
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Run for your life

**If I stay it won't be long
Till I'm burning on the inside
If I go I can only hope
That I make it to the other side
If you want to get out alive
Run for your life**
If you want to get out alive
Hold on for

If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Hold on for:

**If I stay, it won't be long
Till I'm burning on the inside
If I go I can only hope
That I make it to the other side
If I stay, it won't be long
Till I'm burning on the inside
If I go, if I go**

*Burning on the inside
Burning on the inside
Burning on the inside*