This is more than a resolutions post. True, I am making resolutions for the new year, but I'm also throwing out a big plan of things that I want to do. Not silly things, or cliched things, like lose weight or quit smoking (because that would require me to actually start smoking, but you get the picture). This is going to be a detailed life plan for the present, in the guise of resolutions, just because the new year is an excuse to do this sort of thing, and any excuse will do. Some of these things might be really simple, and others might be quite complex, and the idea behind them doesn't automatically expire on the first day of next year. I don't even know what these are yet. I haven't thought about them, though I will have put thought into them. These are just things that I want to do for myself. It's not really something that I've set out to do just because I have to make resolutions, I'd be doing these things, or wanting to, anyway. So, here we go. Thinking on your feet is good. I just hope I can get this all out in one go.

I want to improve myself. This is a biggie. How, you ask? I'm not really sure. I want better skin, and smaller, more toned thighs (ask Mark, I'm having a leg crisis at the moment). I want to get fit and eat healthy. I guess it's not really that big, but those examples aren't taking into account all the mental stuff that I want to improve on. Like I want to learn more, have more motivation, beat depression, become someone amazing. I want to become more patient and more understanding, and beat all the habits I picked up that caused me to be depressed.

I want to be a more likeable person. I think that no one likes me. I don't do much with other people outside of seeing them at work or chatting on Facebook. I want to get out more and do things with people. I want to make them like me, because I'm afraid that no one likes me. I want to do things with people, and have people like me just for who I am, not who they want me to be. I want to be able to meet people and not think that they instantly dislike me. I want to not have to be so self conscious of what I say or what I wear around people.

I want to do a complete financial overhaul. I suck at keeping money, so I really want to save it. I want to overhaul the budget idea and get better at spending money on groceries and not spend so much money on nothing. I just want more money!

I want a girlfriend. Someone like Melissa, who can actually be who I want them to be, who can actually be with me. It's not as if this is something that I can just go out and do though. But I decided I'm going to actively try now. I've always said that I've never really been looking for a girlfriend, just taking each new person as it comes and seeing what happens, but now after Melissa has come and gone again it's going to be so hard for me to get used to not having her again, even though I only saw her for a few days. It's just that I want that so bad, and it's always been something that has been impossible for me. So now I'm actually going to try to get out there and meet new girls, although I'm sure that there aren't many around here. I might try the net thing again, and just hope to god that it doesn't turn out to be another Sarah situation. And Mark seems way more open to the idea now. Back with Sarah and Amy, and even Melissa this time last year, he was so insecure about it. Now I think he's fine with it because I've done it a few times and haven't left him yet. And I'm not planning on doing so any time soon either.

I want to beat my depression, and move to getting off the medication. Of course though I know that that may not happen this year. Every time I think I'm ok I have another down day and realise that maybe I just can't do it, yet. I want to move towards that though. And even if, by the end of the year, I'm still taking what I'm taking now, or even if I'm taking more than I'm taking now, I still want to be able to know that I've tried.

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finish my psychology/sociology course at uni and get a degree
travel to Europe, New Zealand, America, Asia and all over Australia
buy a house and decorate it how I like
own a dishwasher!
have kids, two or three maybe
learn how to play Konstantine on the piano
teach myself how to play the violin
perform in a concert solo or in a large choir
audition for Australian Idol
buy a clarinet
publish at least one fiction novel
sell some amazing photos
have a successful polyamorous relationship with a man and a woman (at least)
live in some different towns/cities
go to nightclubs in some big cities around the world
save someone's life
visit the wonders of the world
experience great loss and suffering to know true happiness
get a group off the ground with a friend
create the meaning of my life
publish a website
prove myself
kiss a girlfriend on a cute street corner in Paris
visit the Moulin Rouge
sneak my way backstage at a concert
learn ballet
make every cocktail I have a recipe for
keep learning everything I want to learn about
do something to make me realise how small I really am in the great scheme of things
go and see the Auroras
hang Keith Garv erotic art on my walls or own a book
throw a sex party
see my favourite bands in concert
experience college life
get at least one tattoo
dye my hair crazy colours (and not get fired!)
pierce my lip (a la Monroe)
star in a sexy photoshoot
throw a costume party
work in a bar
go and do medicine after psychology
be a wine snob
attend a multi day music festival
throw a high end dinner party
go to a rave
earn over $100 000 in one year on my own
put my kids through private school and pay for their uni fees
go and meet all the people I love online
get over my fear of rollercoasters
meet as many famous people as I can
learn a few different languages
read all the books I've found that are on various "must read" lists
learn how to dance rock n roll
live in a different country for at least six months
build my own dark room
collect good books
collect antique wine glasses
make a wooden dolls house
attend a red carpet event
collect sexy underwear
watch an animal/child birth
climb a mountain
own an old house
draw chalk outlines on the footpath/road
own enough books to fill a library
sew a dress good enough to wear to a formal event
dye my hair blonde