I tried to forget you because i told myself you werent worth it. That you were just another boy who faked it. That i deserved better.
I remember the first time you told me you loved me. It was March and it was 2am and i was upset. And then you told me you loved me and suddenly everything was good again. Like when you miss someone and it seems like forever and then when you finaly see their face its like they never left. Things are hard when your fifteen and think your inlove with someone.
When all you want is that one someone whose dark hair sometimes covers his smiling eyes and whose teeth arent perfect but almost and whose cheeks only have one dimple. Things are hard when your fifteen and you dont know why you spend so much time thinking about someone whose supposed to be only a friend. When you realize that same someone with dark hair and almost perfect teeth and the dimple is the only person you ever think about. The person you want to see more than anyone. Things are hard when your fifteen and your at this someones house and your play fighting and then you realize that this person isnt just a friend anymore.
Things are hard when your fifteen and you think your inlove with someone. When your fifteen and you try to forget him because you told yourself he wasnt worth it. That he was only another boy who faked it. That you deserved better.
But its even harder when your fifteen and that someone with the dark hair and almost perfect teeth and dimple doesnt want you anymore.

Its hard during those sleepless nights, staring at the ceiling, all those memories replaying through your head and you feel your tears streaming down your cheeks and your wishing he would tell you that your beautiful again because thats the only thing that ever got you by.
Its hard telling everyone around you that you have forgotten about him. Because he wasnt worth it. Because he was just another boy who faked it. Because you deserved better.
When your on your way to class and you see him holding her like he used to hold you. But you smile and tell him that your happy for him because hes your bestfriend and he deserves that.
But you cant forget that night when you stood up and he put his hands on your waist and all you wanted to do at that very moment was to turn around and kiss him but you didnt because for some reason it didnt feel right. But it was right. I know it was right.

Things are hard when your fifteen and you think your inlove with someone.