Put An X Next To The Ones You've Done, If You Get More Than 40 Your A Bad Person

01. smoked X
02. consumed alcoholX
03. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex X
04. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex X
05. kissed someone of the same sex X
06. had sex
07. had someone in your room other than family X
08. watched porn X
09. bought porn
10. done drugs X
TOTAL:8

01. taken painkillersX
02. taken someone else's prescription medicine X
03. lied to your parents X
04. lied to a friend X
05. snuck out of the house X
06. done something illegalX
07. cut yourself X
08. hurt someoneX
09. wished someone to die X
10. seen someone die X
TOTAL: 18

01. missed curfew X
02. stayed out all night X
03. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself X
04. been to a therapist X
05. been to rehab
06. dyed your hairX
07. received a ticket X
08. been in an accident X
09. been to a club X
10. been to a bar X
T0TAL: 27

01. been to a wild party X
02. seen the Mardi Gras
03. drank more than four beers in a night X
04. had a spring break in Florida
05. sniffed anything X
06. wore black nail polish X
07. wore arm band X
08. wore t-shirts with band namesX
09. listen to rap X
10. own a 50 Cent CD
TOTAL: 34

01. dressed gothicX
02. dressed prep X
03. dressed punk X
04. dressed grungeX
05. stole something X
06. been too drunk to remember anything X
07. blacked out X
08. fainted X
09. had a crush on your neighbor
10. had someone sneak into your room X
TOTAL: 43

01. snuck into someone else's room X
02. had a crush on your best friend X
03. been to a concert X
04. dry-humped someone
05. been called a slut X
06. called someone a slut X
07. installed speakers in your car
08. broken a mirror X
09. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house X
10. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush X
TOTAL: 51

01. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
02. seen an R-rated movie in theater X
03. cruised the mall X
04. skipped school X
05. had surgery
06. had an injury X
07. gone to court
08. walked out of a restaraunt without paying
09. caught something on fire X
10. lied about your age X
TOTAL: 57

01. owned an apartment
02. broke the law in the police's presence X
03. cheated with someone X
04. got in trouble with the police X
05. talked to a stranger X
06. hugged a stranger X
07. kissed a stranger X
08. rode in the car with a stranger X
09. been harrassed X
10. been verbally harrassedX
TOTAL: 66

01. met face-to-face with someone you met online X
02. stayed online for 12 hours straight X
03. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straightX
04. watched TV for 12 hours straightX
05. been to a fair X
06. been called a bad influence X
07. drink and drive X
08. prank-called someoneX
09. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex X
10. cheated on a test X
TOTAL: 76

01. cheated on homework X
02. held hands with someone of the same sex X
03. been pushed into a pool X
04. played pool X
05. watched 5 hours of MTV straight X
06. had a crush on someone 5 years older than you X
07. had a crush on someone younger than youX
08. worn eyeliner X
09. skinny-dipped
10. laughed at a retarded person in a wheelchair X
TOTAL: 85


ooops =]
so beat me for it.

Lately I have been looking at myself deep inside. I noticed that I don't like using my emotions much because I feel it will leave me vulnerable. To what? I don't know. But to me, emotions are a weakness. People have told me many times to see a doctor. What they fail to realize is that I have already seen a few doctors.

Doctors have already seen me and just think I'm in a high state of stress and depression. They only advise rest and relaxation. But unfortunately, my life cant handle that. I can't sleep at night, I cant afford to go on a vacation, and all I get from my parents are constant bitching and complaints on how "terrible" I make their lives, or how I need to get a job and stop relying on them for everything. Cryin because I ask them to buy me things, not even that, to HELP me buy things that I can't afford on my own. Then they bring up the "gas price" excuse.

Rants.....hate them.

I thought about killing myself to end my constant struggle. I wanted to film it being done so everyone could see what a failure I was. Then they would laugh and laugh, and eventually forget I even existed. The way I feel is....1 in a million. No, that's an exaggeration. It's more like.....1 in a a hundred. But, it's amazing how little worthless words can affect someones life. How they make you feel about yourself, how they make other feel about you. People don't even make an effort to know you, but they still judge you based on what the hear about you. They call you names like "loser, gay, faggot, queer, spaz, freak, emo, loser loser loser, mentally ill, satanist" but then they get all defensive when you laugh in their faces for their own ignorance. Why? Because they didn't have enough balls to form their own opinion based on facts. Actual facts, and no pointless speculations.

People always tell me that I'm just going to end up being a waste of space when I get older. That I'll never be anything but a worthless human being. That's highly hypocritical on their part, because they're the same things they claim not to be. Because the have a job, a life, friends means they're not failures? Someone could be very successful in life, and be a failure. It's all about attitude. How you present yourself, how you feel about yourself and how you make everythnig work for you that defines your success. I plan how I want myself to be. I don't want to be someones "golden girl" like they all seem to want me to be. I just want to make it through my day.

When you force yourself not to have emotions, you end up thinking about a lot of things when they suddenly come out. How you feel about yourself is one of the things you mostly ask yourself. The answer you usually come up with is a negetive. You'll think normally that you're happy, but then you'll find something that you hate. And I don't mean angry teenage grudge hate. I mean a disgustful loathing hate. A hate that you feel is unacceptable to yourself. You think about how it would make you look if people would know. Pointless suspicions that run through your head.

People like to critisize, but then they act all shocked when people commit suicide. Maybe if they would think more about how they treat others, and themselves, maybe then we'd have a few more people on this earth instead of in it.

Sorry for the rant.

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All I want is for you to hold me dearly,
Within your grasp.
All I wish for is to be,
Your one and only for
Always and eternity.
All I hope is to spend
Every moment possible
Gazing longingly into your
Grassy eyes
Take my hand in yours
My heart is complete
I could never move on,
This much I know.
So I sit here, wondering how
Everything could go so terrible right for me.
All I dream about today where you are
Come to me.
All I think about anymore
Is how you said you loved me.
All I can do now is ponder in my dream
Wondering where you never
Ask me to be your one and only.
Before I met you I never knew what it was like to smile for no reason at all


i hopes you likes this one mores than the others.