Dese few weekz hav made me fink alot, n make a realise a lotta tingz

no1 No matta how much u try (wether verbally or prostitutin urself) u can NEVA make sum1 love u

no2 sum peepz were jus born 2 let ova people dwn, derz nuttin u can do 2 change dem

no3 u DONTTTT need ne brehh 2 make u happy (YESSS lizzie sed it hehehehe)

I jus fink dat dis holidaii is wot i needed 2 clear ma head, n it DID, coz lyk now i TRUELY c dat will u NEVAA b da person who i want u b, so i need 2 stop tryin n jus walk awayy. Ma problem is doee dat u will alwayz b a part of ma lyff, so i fink i need 2 stop tryna change fingzz n jus accept u as ma fwend n stop tryna make u more dan dat coz dat where problemzz start occurin.

Dis septemba i swear imma pimp lyk a fukkin boii, i absolutely REFUSE 2 give ma heart out agen, n i refuse 2 believe ANY shit boyzz give u boutz (der not all da same) coz in my eyezz dey r. Imma stop finkin boutz ova peepz so much n start doin tingzz 4 me. If a boii cumz along n wantzz 2 b part of ma lyff dan datzz up 2 him, bt as far as im concerned, itz all boutzz lizzie, singing, n dancing nowadayz.....i have NOOO time 4 nefin else........

Lyf'z not fair....i learnt dat a looonng tym ago. Bt stoopid me, itz in my nature 2 believe evry1 is as innocent as dey seem, 2 blieve dat no1 around me has hidden agenda's, 2 blieve in peepz n nt care wot ne1says. Wen i 1st met u i shudda KNOWNNN u were bad from da start. Der were SOOOOOO many signz literally slappin me in my face, bt i chose 2 ignore dem coz i believed in u. I rmemz wen we were 1st jus fwendz n i woz dwn ova sum nx boii, u told me i shudnt b sad coz dey aint all da same, ur not da same....little did i kno dat u wud not onli turn out 2 b worse dan dat boi dat hurt me, bt da BIGGEST dickhead i've met in my lyf.

I rmemz da 1st tym u EVA hurt me, it felt lyk sum1 had stabbed me in da bk, lyk sum1 had stolen chicken from ma plate....evry1 told me u were no gd 4 me, n i agreed...coz da pain i felt woz on sum NXXX level, bt part of me jus cudn't help bt feel sad seein as i put SOOOO much trust in u . Bt surpise suprise, a month l8er u came bk around n walkd bk in2 ma lyf bare casual lyk u hadnt dun nuttin rong. N stoopid me missed u SOOO much dat i welcumd bk wif open armz 4getin how badly u hurt me. it woz den wen ma fwendz clocked u n were lyk nahhh liz u need 2 show him da door coz he's playin gamez wif u, bt i stood up 4 u, wen EVRY1 woz tellin me da same fing, i told dem str8 dat evry1 deserves a 2nd chance, n dat u ddn't mean 2 hurt me last tym coz u hav my best interestz at heart....little did I kno how rong i woz....

Now lookin bk i can't evn count all da tymz u've let me dwn. All i do know is dat it shudda neva let it get in2 da state it is now. It shudda been dat 1st tym u hurt me dat i 4got u 4 good, bt i cudn't coz u had me unda ur spell. Partz of me wishes i DID coz know ur leavin me, evn doe i shud b leavin u coz u treated me lyk i woz jus ne gurl from dai 1. I woz onli important 2 u wen UUU felt lyk it, where as u 2 me, were an evri dai all dai Priority.

Evry1 aroundz me neva undastood y i woz soooo bang on u 4 sooo long. Bt i ddn't care wot dey fought, coz wen i woz wif u, u lit sumfin inside of me....i woz truely happi. From dai 1 ur swagger caught my attention, n ur personality caught my heart. Da way u cud make me lauf coz u loved on goin on lyk u were hard bodied n no1 cud touch u loool. I aint gonna lie u alwaiz knew wot 2 do 2 make me lauf. N u were alwaiz da 1 who knew how 2 sway me coz u wud alwaiz cum out wif dem sweet boi commentz dat wud neva fail on makin me smile. No matta how much shit u've put me through da 1 fing i can neva saiii is dat der WERENT gd tymzz coz der were bare. Datz y i wud alwaiz stand up 4 u wen peepz wud chat n ask y i woz still on u, sayin dey dun knoo u, n u dun mean 2 fuk up bt ur onli human so of course ur gona make mistakezz. I fought at da tym dat evn doe u hurt u me more dan u made me smile, 1 dai u wud grow up n realise dat i had bare love 4 u, n treat me beta....little did i kno dat 1 dai wud NEVA cum n dat u wud jus prove all my fwendz ryt.

Itz jus sooo mad how u can b sooo dedicated 2 sum1, yet dey giv u SOOO little bk in return. I gave u ATLEAST a gd 8monthz of my lyf, where as u jus gav me a few hourz or 2 weneva u felt bored or needed sum TLC. Itz sooo mad coz i wud alwaiz tell maself 1dai, 1 dai, 1 dai u'll realise im ryt 4 u....n after w8in 4 u 4 SOOO long u've now decided im old newz n instead ur plannin 2 wifey sum NX gal who u FINK i dun kno boutz (bt u shud kno now lizzie has connectionx loool ). All i can saii is dat i hope u find all da happiness i've eva wished 4 wif u...in her. Coz da truth is yehhh ryt now u may b bare on her n dat, coz she's calmer dan me, she has more bk off dan me lool, mayb prettier....bt i DOO kno dat 1 dai u'll realise dat u wont EVAAA find ne1 dat woz willin 2 giv u as much i hav. Coz it may hav been in bitz n pieces bt i gav u da best of me.

Lookin bk i honestly wudn't change NEFIN, coz u showed me dat sumtymz it IS bad 2 b sooo open n wear ur heart on ur sleeve. U burst da bubble i woz liv

1. Slept naked? yh man evri summa loool
2. Taken a shower with someone? nah
3. Kissed a member of the same sex? nah im too man hungry loool
4. Drove a car? Yes
5. Stole anything? no (im PWOUD 2 sai dat loool)
6. Been in love? errmm yeh :S
7. Been dumped? nah
8. Stole money from a friend/family member? NO! datz mean loool
17. Had a crush on your neighbour? loool nah
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? Yeh loool, i still do
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the opposite sex? yup
20. Lost a friend? Yer
21. Been on a plane? Yes
22. Been to an island? nah
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? Yep defo defo =(
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yer lol im kinda sad init =P
26. Made a snow angel? yup
27. Played dress up? bk in da DAIIIIII man loool
28. Cheated while playing a game? Aslong as u WIN! who carez wot method u used loool
29. Been lonely? Yes
30. Kissed more than 10 people in one night? Nope (i aint no tongue hoe
32. Felt an earthquake? Yeh
33. Touched a snake? R U DUMBB!!!
34. Ran a red light? nah
35. Been suspended from school? yeh man loool 4 sum dum fyt lool
36. Had detention? who HASNT???
37. Been in a car accident? nah
38.Had a party in your house while ur parents were away? nah coz dey NEVVAA leave man kmt loool
39.Used a fake id? nah
40. Crawled through a window? nah
41. Been lost? Yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? nah
44. Cried yourself to sleep? mmm yeah many tymzz
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes, many timez
48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yh loool
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? nah
50. Kissed in the rain? no, bt i fink it wud b SOOOOOOOO sweet doe
51. Sang in the shower? shower, toilet EvRYWHEREE, da q is wen am i NOT singin looool
52. Made love in a park? nah looool
53. Had a dream that you married someone? EVRIII DAIII!!!! ive had boutz lyk 10million loool
54. Glued your hand to something? nah
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? no bt i ran 2 da corner shop wif jus a hoody n a bra undaneath loool
57. Been a cheerleader? nope
58. Had more than ten boy/girl friends? No
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? nah LOWW TTT!!!!
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yhh man!!!
61. Played chicken? Yes
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? nah loool fank god
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? lol yeah
64. Broken a bone? jus da toe
65. Been easily amused? YHHH, datz me 4 u lool
66. Laugh so hard you cry? lyk EVRRIII DAAIii
67. Mooned/flashed someone? YEAH lol
68. Cheated on a test? Yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? all da tym, i dun rmemz naymz bt i rmemz faces loool
71. Done something dumb while drunk? I dun drink
73. Blacked out from drinking?
74. Played a prank on someone? lol i calld ma fwend n sed her mum had died loool
75. Gone to a late night movie? Yes
76. Made love to anything not human? lol nah
77. Failed a class? yhhh
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? Yes wen i stole jellof rice from da pot wen it woz cookin, i ddnt expect it 2 so spicyyy man loool
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? No
81. Celebrate the 4th of July? No
82. Thrown strange objects? lol yehhh datz me angry 4 u loool
83. Felt like killing someone? yes i get easily pissed off looool
84. Thought about running away? all da tym, bt i neva wud doe
86. Got a piercing? 7 in total 6 on ma earz n 1 on d belly
87. Cut your own hair? yes lol in yr 8, im still burnz me 2 dis daii looool
89. Made a parent cry? yes
90. Cried over someone? yehhh many tymzz
91. Owned more than 5 knives? no allow dat samari shit loool
92. Dated someone more than once? nah
93. Had/Have a dog? NEVVVVVVVVAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!
94. Have an iPod? NAh
95. Smoked a cigarette? allow it
96. Been in a band? yh man looool, u kno im on gettin famous quickly
97. Drank 25 sodas in a day?