i dont know why i did write what i did in the last blog i posted, i felt i just needed to vent my anger and feelings and bebo was right here at the time so i figured it ws the perfect place to do so but i now know it was the stupidest thing i have ever done, not only did i hurt one of the most amazing and beautiful girls on the planet but i made her hate me so now she will never talk to me again because she thinks that i think so lowly of her.
what i really need to do to everyone, and i hope everyone learns from this, dont listen to what other people say, they always make up shit and spread it to create breakups and things between friends etc so please learn like i have not to listen to the shit that comes out of people mouths unless u know for a fact that it is true, and if you dont know if its true then do not say anything until you either know its true or find out its not true.

and lastly please nobody especially my friends end up doing what i have done because it is something i regret more than anything i have ever done.
thankyou for reading this if you do

ross.

sometimes i think to myself that life isnt fair, and its true, sometimes life isnt fair to the people who do nothing to cause such pain and suffering.
my poppa is in hospital right now as i am writing this (about 7.30 on 08/06/09 )
he is in hospital because he is in so so much pain because he has cancer, i went up along with my mum to see him at around 6.30 and while i was there i almost cried, it is so hard to see someone i love so much in such a way, i feel so useless because i cant do anything to help even though i know he appreciated us being there for him and helping him though these tough times but i just cant take it anymore it hurts me so much i just..........this is to hard, i may finish this later but i cant right now

WOULD YOU?
kiss me?
let me kiss you?
be my bf/gf?
have a relationship with me?
Stick up for me if i was being put down?
Say yes if i asked you out?
Get wasted with me?
Hang out with me?
Bring me around your friends?
D0 Y0U...
think im hot?
want to kiss me?
want to hug me?
have a crush on me ?
ARE WE...
friends?
in a relationship?
gonna have kids?
enemies?
AM i...
sexy?
cute?
funny?
cool?
adorable?
Annoying?
mean?
odd?
HAVE Y0U EVER...
thought about me?
found yourself wanting to kiss me?
wished i were there?
had a crush on me?
had a dream about me?
been distracted by me?
ARE Y0U...
happy you know me?
thinking bout me?
going to copy this so that i will return the favor