1st relationship wen i was 15 lasted 4 months, he cheated n me with my best mate
2nd relationship, i was 16, lasted a year, was fed up of empty promses and i met sum1 else
3rd relationship, was 17, lasted a year n 4months, possessive, paranoid, and pc obsessed
4th relationship , was 19, was a brilliant 9 months, amazing, he dumped me 4 days b4 valentines n sed *hes not ready for a relationship* Broke my heart, i gave him chances n i didnt even get 1. sux

single lyf :

started dating sum1, he lied to me n afta dat it put me off.

met sum1 fae net, nyc dude, but, clingy, paranoid n possessive, n wsnt even in a relationshp

met sum1 thru a mate, interesting, talented, wsnt ready 4 a relationship cos hes moving away, he calls it off cos he meets sum1 betta,

tried wiv a mate n the grounds it wodnt feel lyk he was nly afta 1 fing, stupid me, gave, n next day, sat away fae me, no cuddles kisses or nyfing.......rejection sux ass

like a mates mate, awesome guy......bt wont do nythng as we respect my mates feelings too much....but will still give me mixed msgs.....n then regret them. rly sux to be led on


so so far, rly sux, im beginning to fink on giving up

thought i'd leave how t went lol. ll start from the very begnnng.

i wore a pure black strapless flowy dress, that i had to keep pullng up cos my boobs kept fallng out lol. im sure my nplles were going peekaoo lol. but was a brllant way to dstract ppl during a pool game lol.

started off at my m8 rachels house, few poof pops, and beers, wth my uncle scotty, tony and myself wiv rach, gd banter, then my good frend chris came over, everyone got on rly well so m so pleased,themn euan came over too lookn very pimpin then waited for 2 of my other freinds who i begged not to be late, and to be there fo 6.30.....7pm no sgn, and jst fnshng gettn ready only to fnd out a college friend had left hs house earlier and should of been there by now.....no sign of hm ether, so i was miss stormy sendng txts to abody apologzng that IM gna be late, en got a txt sayn my 2 mates were now at rleys.... ddnt get an apology fo lateness. but at least they came thats whats important.

met kat,sandy,spencer, and levi at hmv, went to bank. then headed to rleys, by now it was 8ish, got table 10, had first game, a few more drinkies and the nyt started to pick up, was so happy, then there was the constant fag breaks and make up checks, so got out the ol' camera to take sum piccos, which wll be on once i find my bluetooth fing lol. got loadsa bday hugs, and there was sum very random conversatons going on, and found out one fo my close frends is a completely dfferant person from what hes lyk around me , and it absolutaly shocked and dsgusted me, and my uncle was a mad bugger, acting gay lol. i fnk i won 2 games, and then kat won against me, so well done hun,it was a brllant game. rachel went homes as she wasnt well, but invted every1 back to hers when wed finshed town.

decded to get a kissathon pics, got smooches from, tony,levi,sandy, rachel, leila, psshead and chis b, so thankyou lol.

left rileys about 11.30sh, headng for prory....long queue and the bouncers shouting to folk that EVERYONE has 2 show there .i.d ve got a citzencard and they dnt accept that even tho its legit, and got a pass hologram on it , ad photographc id also one of the ids on the drink aware webste, so....me not havng a very expensve passport or provsonal runed that plan, scotts balloon got burst by sum chck wth her fag lol. went to triplekirks and headed to exodus.....non-danceable music, very vey busy, bumped nto pamela buchan, chris, john,polly and dave, gave pamela a hug as its her bday too, got snubbed by john,polly and dave....one extra fing to bum me out, i had drunk qute alot during the nght, couldnt get tipsy or drunk, my uncle was very very very drunk lol, and had another prory balloon, whch he pretended (nfront of a heap of ppl) that he had magical fingers that made it levitate (it had helium n the balloon) so he looked lyk a bg tit. lol. so it cheered me up alot.
seen kev b, but ddnt speak to hm cos he dsappered lol. then decded to grab everyone and head back to rachels.
got cheese n chps...i.t was okay should of added gravy.lol.

then went to rachels, ad a poof pop and gt rly sleepy so stole rachels bed.

when got up everyone was up, lookn very tired, tony fell asleep n rly funny postion (whch got pics of) then stuart crashed out, then steph, then missy rachels dog went over to tony and started lickng hs lps and i couldnt stop laughng. was feelng perky n the morning.

well thats all can memba at the moment, so all n all t went from bad-ok-gd-soso-bad-ok.
my keyboards broken so if theres nythng misspelled thats y lol.

thanks for those who could make it and got the days off work to spend it wth me, it meant so much, and i enjoyed your company, .....not so much the night n general but the comapny was brllant, except a few minor dfferances. lol.

so am 20,single and ready to get out more, ny1 willing for another nght out to top that 1^^^ lol. xxxxx

i miss the gd old days when at least once a month i could get a group of friends togther to go for a gd ol game of pool. Nowadys it's a mission all the same questions *who's all going* and if theres one person they don't like its panick stations and a big fat NO, or they ask there friend if there going and it all relys on there decision if the persons going or not old on im inviting you individually, not as a pair...individually, people your not joined at the hip, if they don't go theres bound to be someone there you'll get along with including me.

when sum1 wants ti get passed you, insted of saying excuse me they jst shove into you, have ppl got no manners nowadays jeesh.

its strange how you think about the past and how close you were to sum1 and everything can change when they meet new people or when you move your friendsip starts to distant, wats appened to all my so called good mates? just cause i've moved doesn't mean im gone forever i still ave feelings and miss you, i come into aberdeen most the time and either ppl ar busy or don't answer i try my hardest yet i dnt see ny1 coming to see me? why should i waste my money coming in when it takes 2 to make the effort. maybe it's just me as a person or you's really dont give a shit.

when people grade there own friends looks, i'd never eva do that to one of my good friends. i got a 4/10 for my looks, my fault for loking at the paper, but honestly i feel insecure and shitty bout my looks already than having my friends confirm it aswell. so thanks for makin me feel like more shit bot maself.


shallow people are pathetic, it doesnt matter whats on the inside does it, it's all about looks, how pretty sum is, but rememer this you may find gorgeus quine/guy nd they'll end up being a complete twat. looks arent everthing personalities worth trying aswell you may be surprised.

people who smell like ashtrays if your gonna smoke like a chimey at least buy some deodrant to spay on yoursel cos it's like being around 2nd hnd smoke constantly. it stinks.

older guys who date preteens, come on ure lyk 18-25 odd getting with 13 ys olds or under 16.....wats that sayig out you...peeeddddooooo. where is the fun in leading on people who arent legal to drink of ave sex, your just risking yourself on the sex offenders register. just think abut that.