For some amazing people that I love lots and lots. :-]

I love my friends. I'm not the kind of person who goes from friend to friend, I make them and I stick with them though thick and thin. I guess I'm lucky that I meet such amazing people. Sorry if I write too much.

I'mma just keep adding to this I think.

Just Nelson people at the moment.



1. We met on MSN - a mutual friend told us we were soul mates. My first impression of you was kinda like 'Okaaaaaaay this is weird'. We were in the same core class for Year 10 and got closer after the SS4Q trip. I started to like you as more than a friend and we went out. It was bad timing for both of us and it didn't work out. Things were weird for a while but we got past it. I tried my hardest to help you through a horrible time. This year we've just got closer and closer. I can talk to you about anything and everything, I know you're not going to leave me. Your hugs make the rest of the bad days bearable. You don't always take my advice or agree with everything I say but you always listen. I know that you are one of the most important people to me in the world and I will always be there for you, no matter what happens. I've seen too many people hurt and abandon you and I never want to be one of them. I love you. <3


2. We've had a weird relationship. When we first knew each other you were just an annoying boy in my computer class going through a 'goth' stage. You were persistent though and kept coming to talk to me. I realised you weren't so bad after all and we started hanging out. You asked me out which scared me - I wasn't really sure how I felt about it then. I said we could try it. That weekend I went to Blenheim and was scared the whole time that I'd made the wrong decision and would have to hurt you. Then we spent more time together and everything worked out. I think I fell in love with you and I don't like it when people use that term lightly. I loved the time we were together - we were definitely one of the cutest couples ever. Unfortunately other things in my life were getting me down and you couldn't handle that very well. We broke up for various reasons and for a while things were horrible. Eventually we managed to get past that and stay good friends. We've been through a lot together, experiences of the good, bad and totally fucked up kind. We've made each other who we are today and I'm glad. You will always mean heaps to me - no matter how much I get hurt or what changes, you'll always have a place in my heart. Things are different now, you're not a very nice person and I can't put up with the way you treat me any longer. I've got a lot of built up anger towards you but deep down I think I'll always still care.


3. I'm not really sure how we became friends, it just happened. For a while I felt closer to you than anyone else - we would go everywhere together, hugs and hand holding - you would wait outside my classes and off we'd go again. There were rumours going round about you but I tried not to listen to them, I didn't want to believe anything until you told me yourself. Eventually it kind of came out and you told me the truth. It made me care about you even more. I didn't want things to be awkward for us, I wanted to stay close friends even though I think it was hard for you. You confuse me a lot and sometimes I don't know what to think, but I don't want to give up on you. You don't realise how amazing you actually are. We aren't as close now as we once were, but you mean a lot to me and always will. You got my name tattooed on you and we promised to be friends forever. I don't make promises I can't keep, remember. I love you. <3


4. We were friends through friends before you moved here. I remember when you first got my number and asked me if I'd be your friend when you moved. I laughed and told you I already was your friend! There's a lot more to you than I first thought there was. You ha

My thoughts tend to be confusing, contradictive and indecisive. Just needed to ramble with a keyboard to get better understanding.

I've never been particularly fond of change. I still find it hard to accept it.

Though I suppose it depends what kind of change, not all changes fit into the same category. Big changes. I don't usually like those.

Change can alter many things but it can also depend on how you choose to let it affect you.

I miss having people there that I could always talk to, about almost anything. Sometimes those people aren't far away but the bridge you have to cross to get to them isn't safe. Sometimes you can talk to them but it's pointless because they aren't listening hard enough.

I use 'sometimes' a lot in my blogs.

I don't want complications or confusion right now. My head hurts. I want to go to Blenheim and have a break from my mind and enjoy spending time with all the amazing people there. :-] Unfortunately I have to wait. Grrr.

I'm sick of how things are going and I'm afraid of what will come. I can pretend it isn't happening but when the pieces are put together the facts are there. I don't know how to stop it.

I care too much about other people sometimes and I don't stop to think what's going to happen to myself. Apparently that's not good but I think it's who I am, at least at the moment.

I am strong in some ways, but incredibly weak and scared in others. My personality can frustrate me muchly.

On the outside things are getting better but on the inside they might just be getting worse.

I feel like I'm on both sides and I don't know which is right.

This is just a big ramble that won't make sense to anyone else and some of these things are completely unrelated. Ahhhhh. I'd been blocking out my mind recently. Guess that's not a good thing either.

Lalala. These holidays have been really busy in a good way. I should be at Andrew 's 18th right now but I had to babysit. :-[ I hope everyone is having fun though :-]

I think it's time to curl up in bed and watch a movie, get away from the place I'm stuck in. Yup.

I want to dye my hair nownownownow please.

I need a job. I always need a job.

Anna-Kate got 'Tabby Toxic' tattooed at the top of her back. She is amazing.

Me and Kim got stalked by cats last night. :-]

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Night night to Tabby's mind xxx

Watch my videos, la, you will laugh lots!

1 - James HAS A BIG Mouth

http://bebo.com/watch/7090510754

This is James lip syncing and lip other stuffing to Guns 'N Roses whilst being drunk on shots of invisibility. He eats my phone at the end. Lots of James being weird basically. Only worth watching if you're really bored or obsessed with James.

2 - The Life of Tabby and James - YAHH BITCH YAHH

http://bebo.com/watch/7096064118

WARNING: This video runs for 9 minutes and 58 seconds. We had to cut the end off too. It is however definitely worth the watch! We will not be responsible for anyone who dies of laughter.

This is me and James eating toast, being bored and hyperactive at 4am on a Saturday night. As usual. ^_^ Lip syncing to 'YAHH BITCH YAHH'. Guest appearance by Sam. Includes dancing, a hair straightener and a mirror.


3 - Toast Party

http://bebo.com/watch/7091012060

This is me, James and more toast! A music video for our song Toast Party by Narcotic Daisy. You can find our band page here: http://www.bebo.com/narcotic-daisy
Guest appearance by Sam and the straightener. Includes 'how the mouth works', 'Cruiser toast' and stolen bling. Guaranteed laughter. :-]

THANK YOU!

More videos from this coming weekend are to be expected.