I wuz n a world of shock wen i got a phone call at 1:50 a.m Saturday mornin Oct.11,2008..... I wuz told dat mi best fren wuz shot. I cried and cried becuz i didnt kno if u wuz ok.... i jumped up n terror prayin ta God dat i didn't lose u. At 3:06 a.m, i wuz told u wuz dead. Mi mind went blank and mi heart wuz racin. I broke down. I kept askin "Why take mi best fren from me?" "Why Him?" I couldn't understand. Days went by i wuz so depress. I found myself thinkin about you every wakin second cryin miself to sleep at nite, wishin i could hold u and c ur smile. I wuz on mi way to ur funeral and "Did you Wrong" was playin on da radio. Lookin down the road i saw memories of us havin fun laughin. I started singin and . I started cryin becuz i saw yo pretty brown eyes and ur bright white smile.I kept thinkin 2 myself "Iesha b strong" but i cudn't stop miself. I felt lik i wuz goin to go krazy. As i walked to the door of Ray Brooks high i felt mi eyes gettn full of tears. I cud barely c. As i stood n lie to go up ta ur casket those same memories came baq ta mi mind. i jus cried mi sista held me so tight as the tears kept comin. When i got up der i cudnt hold it any longer. The horriable thought in mi mind of u layin on the ground blood on ur chest made it even worse. Wen i saw u layn n dat casket i cried mi eyes out not knowin how ta feel. I kno u n a betta place and i am acceptn da fact dat u gon but i miss you so muc. At night i stay awakin thinkin about the last 5 years of bein wit u. I dont regret any moment spent wit u. Even our arguments meant somethin becuz we always made up da next day. The summer that we spent tagetha n 05' wuz wonderful. We talked da whole summa day & nite. Be4 u went ta practice @ 7 n da morin and all nite afta u came home. I missed how we use ta sing yo 2 favorite songs all nite "i Refuse" by Urban Mystic & "Don't Worry Be Happy" When i wuz sad u use ta always tell me "Cheer up girl and smile 4 me" I had da biggest smile known ta man wen u said dat. I will always rememba da 1st tyme we met. I looked u n da face and we both jus smiled. U reached out ta shake mi hand and at dat moment i knew i wanted ta hold on 2 u. Dat whole da i sat n da livin room pretendin ta watch a borin ass movie i neva liked. We jus stole looks 4rm each otha and laughed wen we caught each otha. I use ta ask yo brotha about u everyday i saw him. Until finally one day u finally called. We talked 4rm sun up ta sun down dat day and talked half of dat next mornin. We grew up so fast it don't seem lik u graduated last year and um graduatin next year. We made plans ta go out da country wen we both graduated 4rm high skool and jus go wild. Who is goin 2 fulfil those dreams wit me na??? I love and miss u Robert Johnson. Who am i goin 2 talk 2 na. Who can i call on wen i have a problem. I am so lost i dont kno wut do. I haven't been da same since u left. I dont wanna seem selfish or lik i dont care about nobody else but i feel lik nobody else is herre 4 me . Robert u dont kno da pain um feelin ryte na. But guard me n dis world.Show me how ta live. Eventhough u gon yo spirit still lives within me i love u Remix. & dats always n foreva. I still hear da words u told me wen we got into it dat nite da summa of 05'. You said "Iesha, You Mi Best Damn Fren & I Love You!!!! Those Words Will Always Mean Something To Me. I will neva faget u & i cant tell u i love and miss u enuff. We will b tagetha again one day. Until den wait 4 me!!!! I love you Robert. R.I.P Robert James Ke'Yon Johnson 12-10-89-10-11-08!!!!!!

I AM DA CUZN, DA SISTA, AND DA GODSISTA TA DA MEMBAS OF PURPLE CITY. I AIN'T GON STOP BEIN DAT CUZ DEY GOT BEEF WIT OTHA PPL CUZ UM KOOL WIT ALOT OF FOLKS 4RM DIFFERENT CLICKS. I JUS WISH DIS SHYT WUD STOP BECUZ I DON'T WANT NUN TA HAPPEN TA MI FAMILY OR FRENS. BUT I JUS WANT EVERYBODY TA KNO FLORENTENO JAMES HOLLINS JR. A*K*A TJ 4RM PURPLE CITY...... IAN PLAYIN BOUT DAT 1 OR LAWSON HARRIS A*K*A LYL BOO. I LOVE MI CUZ & BROTHA TA DEATH AND WILL DO ANYTHIN 4 DEM. WUTEVA YA'LL GOT AGAINST PURPLE CITY AND ANY OTHA CLICK YA'LL NEED TA SQUASH DAT SHYT & DO SUM BETTA WIT YA'LL LYFE. ALL YA'LL GOT ALL DIS DAMN TALENT PUT IT TA USE WIT SUM DATS GON HELP U N LYFE. AFTA WHILE WE AINT GON HAVE NUN LEFT N GREENVILLE BUT A GRAVEYARD FULL OF YA'LL OR A NEW PRISON FULL OF YA'LL. ITS A SHAME HOW PPL DONT WANNA GO NOWHEA CUZ DEY DONT FEEL SAFE BECUZ DEY WANNA FIGHT OR SHOOT AT SUMBODY. ALL DATS DOIN IZ CAUSIN MO PROBLEMS. YA'LL CLAIM YA'LL GROWN AND CLAIM YA'LL AINT ON DA LYL KIDS SHYT BUT FIGHTN CUZ SUMBODY SAID SUM BOUT U DATS CHILDISH. YA'LL THANK YA'LL KNO EVERYTHIN N DA WORLD & KAN'T NOBODY TELL YA'LL NUN BUT UM HERRE TA LET U KNO I DON LOST A CUZN, A FREN, AND A BOYFREN TA ALL DIS GANG SHYT & I B DAMN IF I LOSE DA ONLY LYL BROTHA I HAVE. I'LL DIE 4 DAT 1 MI DAMN SELF CUZ HE DOIN SOME WIT HIS LYFE. HE GOIN SOMEWHEA WHILE DA REST OF YA'LL STILL B SITTIN ON YO PORCH TRYNA FIGHT OTHA PPL CUZ OF YA'LL PROBLEMS. GET YO FUCKN LYFE STR8 AND GROW DA FUCK UP CUZ ALL DIS FIGHTN & SHYT REALLY AINT CALL 4. IAN SCARED TA SPEAK MI MIND CUZ UM TIRED OF WANTIN TA GO SUMWHEA BUT SCARED CUZ IT MITE B MI LAST NITE LIVIN. I SHUDNT HAVE TA DO IT AND UM TIRED OF DOIN DAT. IT SHUDNT TAKE 4 SUMBODY U KNO OR KOOL WIT TA DIE BE4 U DECIDE TA STOP DIS SHYT. STOP BE4 DAT SHYT GET OUTTA HAND. PERCY SHOULD HAVE BEEN A LESSON TA YA'LL BUT LIK I SAID UM AM & WILL ALWAYSPURPLE CITY DIVA/ANGEL/PRINCESS 4 EVA & IAN GOIN NOWHEA!!!!!!!!! I LOVE EVERYBODY I JUS DONT WANNA C NOBODY ELSE GET HURT. ITS A FUCKN WAR N GREENVILLE YA'LL NEED TA COME TAGETHA LET ALL DIS BEEF SHYT GO AND MOVE DA FUC ON.

~ ALWAYS A REASON ~

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there ... to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may be but when you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, will power or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere.

Safe and comfortable ... but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create who you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart to.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and to open your heart and eyes to little things.

Make every day count.

Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high.

Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you.

Create your own life and then go out and live it.

Has anyone made a difference in your life?

"If you take your eyes off your goals, all you see are obstacles."

~~I CAN TRUELY SAY DIS POEM SPEAKS FA LYFE ITS SELF..... IT WILL HELP ALOT OF PPL N LYFE~~