I don't generally condone "blogging", but I've just decided to be smart about what I put in my blog. I think I might be a little healthy to get some of this stuff out

So, today is March 10, 2008, and in the process of me just writing that that, I realiized how fast I'm growing up. Now, as I was just writing that last sentence, I realized that pretty soon I'll be grown! My cousins are alredy there!!! I can remember when we used to cry cause we didnt want to leave each other's houses!!!! I'm just really "wowed" by the whole thing because I'm ready and prepared, but it just came so fast. I kinda want to go bac to the 90s, but then when u think about all the lil adolecesnt {{sp?}} ish we had 2 go thru, I want to look forward to the future, but then what about all the responsibilities I'll have?? And then I realize that life is full of struggles we have to endure because that's how we grow and mature. Someone who doesnt have to go thru anything is living in a freaking fantasy world and I suggest they get out as soon as possible because that is not a healthy way to live; u cant function in the real world like that; people suck!; they will eat ure butt alive and spit u bac out!

But on a lighter note LOL I'm really in love with my boyfriend who I call my hubby cause I really think we're gonna endure cause all da ish we've been thru, a happy marriage better be some compensation for dat ish!! LOL, plus I really love him, but now I kinda feel I cant express it as much as before cause when I did, soon after he hurt me sooooooo bad && he'd love to say it was all my fault but it wasnt. I wilol take a little blame for it now that we've talked about it but he still hurt me, && even tho he said he didnt mean it, it was just outta anger, it still really put me thru alot of emotions && it's just hard for me to open all the way up again...

Today, I am sick thjo, I've been sick for a few days now and I want it to go away!!!!!! I missed yet ANOTHER soccer conditioning && I think I'm the main one who needs to be there!!!! So yea, I really need to get my life together!!! LMAO. But I freakin love my lil sis Tracelyn. She's not my real sister, bt we've known each other for years ans we're really close. When I get married she's gonna be my maiden of honor; she deserves it. We've been thru SOOOO much together, but kno she's always gonna be there for me. Even if she doesnt know what to say, I kno she's still gonna be there even if all she can do is make me laugh. LOVE YOU TETE!!!!

O, and u kno I forgot ALL about bebo until like I think 2 days ago && I think it's comin bac to me a little bit, but I just dont feel like editin NOTHIN!!!! LOL

Well that's all I have to say for now

<3 Nique
`smoochez`