The worst of us dies when the rift returns, we will become nothing if the worst of us is the most of us. eaten away, swallowed and shat out, discarded - to have no part in new birth - no future beyond death - we must prepare - pull down the zipper of your mind - ready yourself -unclothe your identity and remove that false armor that you cling to in fear- these things will not protect you- this ominous something already knows you - you provided the momentum for its return.

An accounting of dreamscapes and disasters, how any created world falls. No vision is perfect when filtered through the eyes of man, yet they continue to be created, shimmering their brief lives, perpetual creation and destruction, shining ideas, being merely for the sake of being, In the creation we exhibit what we know, what we see, in the destruction we see where we were wrong, how little we know, we should not grieve their destruction, but pick up the things that remain whole and put them to use building another fabulously flawed building, a dreamscape of life,
This is my world, exhibiting my creations flawed though they may be, I have had shining ideals, I have led my mind into escapism, explored the worlds of others, I have been caught up in lifes whirlwind and throw back out, I keep my pain as it makes the sweet memories sweeter, the more your being is hollowed out by negative, the more it can be filled by positive- I move towards destruction and rebuilding eagerly, as every new world generated will have more life in it than the last

Intro



I am taken by a terrible searching, a searching of the mind and soul and a rendering and refining of all that I believe, yet how can one analyze the spirit without maiming it?

Things become written. To kill time whilst awaiting death I write what seems to me to be true, what seems to hold meaning and what seems to hold significance, yet as this whole life is a seeming none of this is real, and I claim nothing as truly true. In reality I am having fun in the darkness of my confusion.

In order to understand what precedes I feel it would be better for you to know me, not as a writer but as a person Thus I have taken a survey to a few of my friends, family and teachers- the people whose blows will fall the hardest the question being What do you think of Dylan? (Me) feel free to list any and all faults, be brutally honest, maim away

These are the responses I got:



Daniel

Fucking stupid hair out of the ordinary, an ingenious piece of machinery



Michael

A fun, loving gentleman



Peter

Seems a bit odd at times, sexually I mean always a bit to far, fleeting never, actually he is not it. where is your life? what did it?



David G

a troubled intellectual with some common sense possibly sexually frustrated, leaning towards insecure self doubt i.e. having this object of people defining him in their own views. All round G.G.C (genuine good cunt)



Zane-

probably the best Christian I know, even though he says some stupid shit sometimes. Deep guy.



Jeremy

I have no idea funny when he is not being a fucker peaceful when he is not being angus



Brad

mess with him and hell fuck your shit up



David Pickett-

wannabe busty Asian



Selveraj

youre angry and you have issues



Tony

too much pot led to a funky hair style and some flaring sexual tendencies.



Kyle

an indecipherable catalogue of disasters



Arvin

Dylan surprises me with his many talents, of which includes his bluntness in conversation which sometimes leads to people being left in the cold and/or emotionally scarred



Lara -

well I think your a awesome guy and your real deep and intellectual (I cant spell) and I recon your real easy to get along with and I feel I can tell u anything (even though I havent told u deep shit) na your a crack up as dude and your real talented, your going to be FAMOUS and yea I really appreciate you as a person your awesome!



Callum

I think this is a stupid idea, the person who started this should get some mates Dylan is a fuckwit.



Cameron

Dylan is an odd character with many outrageous talents



Mark

what the fuck! What do I write?



Tom/Peter

sometimes the urge to kiss him is too much! If only he had more scene points.



Brendan

known him most of my life, he is a wicked guy, can be quite the random at times i.e. with this thing. But is a good friend, gets angry then happy, maybe a schizo? Good luck best wishes (you are such a conformist. Just to piss you off some, dont hit me!!!)



Ben

the funny artsy other Irish guy. A good dude all up god damn crows



Tim

Im sure there were some exotic substances along the way but all in all an interesting and funny guy.



Ben Slatter

one has to look at Dylans inner being to find out what hes about. I think Dylan is going through a time in his life where he is questioning his purpose in life and his point. Dylan has been gifted with incredible talent and intelligence. I think he will go far in life and succeed. (Maybe he can help me with my spelling). It has been a privilege to know Dylan over my time at HBHS, however it hasnt all been a bed of roses, Dylan has at tines pushed my buttons, made me mad you could say it was all to do with some chicken stock. I forgive him for that of course but he thinks I hold it against him. When talking to a few girls that know Dylan they say that he is an