Year.
2008 is almost over , what have i done?

Lost a friend?
Three.

Stayed single almost the whole year?
No, Benjamin has been here almost all year

Kissed in the rain?
I can't remember,, probably. Shower count?

Had your heart broken?
Naa.

Broke someone elses heart?
Hope not

Had a stalker?
Haha yes, two. One in the mall and one at work... fuckin cornered me in a chiller

Got pregnant?
Haha ... i hope not.

Got somebody else pregnant?
Yes Paula.

Had an abortion?
Not that I recollect

Got married?
Too young babay

Lost faith in love for a while?
No sir

Lost someone?
Yes

Kissed under mistletoe?
No. I'm probably allergic to it

Caught a shoplifter?
Yes lol

Been caught shoplifting?
Nope

Got a promotion?
No but nearly. If i left school I'd be a supervisor. But I'm too cool.

Got a pay raise?
no, shithole. even though I do two jobs now

Changed jobs?
No. Well kind of in the business, but not company.

Lost your job?
No

Quit your job?
No I love it

Applied for a job?
No

Got fired from your job?
Almost for throwing a rotten tomato at Tom,, but no. Lol.

Got straight A's?
In Japanese and English yeah

Met one teacher you really like?
Um, not met this yr.

Met one teacher you really hate?
I'm neutral to teachers cause I'm a good little girl [in class]

Found one thing you love doing?
Being with Ben

Failed a class?
Nope

Cut class?
Uh, not THIS year...

Taken/snorted/smoked drugs?
Uh, same answer as above

Did something you were proud of?
Yessa.

Discovered a new talent?
Hmmm... probably but I can't think of one right now.

Gave the teachers a reason to teach?
Yep. Mr Just said as much to me.

Proved to yourself that you're an idiot?
Haha,, constantly.

Embarrassed yourself in front of the class?
I'm usually quiet but there was the time where someone said "my page is wet" and i replied "you're wet",,, and the class went silent. didn't sound too good.

Was in a school play?
Drama class plays count?

Tried out for and made a sports team?
Merlins netball Under 19s

Were involved in something you'll never forget?
Yep, probably Tautuku with Ben

Got sent to the office?
Define "sent.." i was called in, but not really sent.

Painted a picture?
I'm a shit painter, but I draw. Oh I finger-painted with my niece.

Wrote a poem?
Yep I like them

Ran a mile?
Yeah probably, seeing as I run, play sport and go to the gym,,,

Listened to music you cant stand?
Ugh, yes. Paula's crazy neighbour and her bloody classical weird shit

Double dipped?
Heh, yeah.

Went to a sleep over?
Indeed

Went camping?
Um, it wasn't really camping

Threw a surprise party?
Haha yes for Jess. Well I didn't throw it, but I attended.

Had a party thrown for you?
Lol no, I'd probably die.

Laughed til you cried?
All the time

Laughed till you peed in your pants?
Uh, no.

Slept the whole day?
Nah I can't. My body clock goes off at 7

Visited a different country?
No, not this year. I've only ever been to Japan, that was 2006.

Cooked a gross meal?
I think all my cooking's been safe

Lost something important to you?
Yes

Got a gift you adore?
Yep

Realised something new about yourself?
Yes

Tripped over a coffee table?
Not a coffee table, but I'm quite gam and I run into stuff.

Dyed your hair?
Yeah but normal colours this yr! No purples this time.

Came close to losing your life?
When Paula drove my MANUAL car. Lol. No she wasn't that bad. But no I've been safe this yr

Went to a party?
Yep

Read a great book?
Yes, Kaleidoscope by Danielle Steel, and Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen.

Saw a great movie?
yes, Pride and Prejudice (BBC version with Colin Firth)

Saw a movie that made you cry?
Fuck, I cry in EVERYTHING. But only recently I saw The Curious Case of Benjamin Button - cried the whole way thru. embarrassing. Ben thinks i'm a knob now

Saw someone famous in pers

Pick me up,
been bleeding too long.
Right here, right now
I'll stop it some how.

I will make it go away,
can't be here no more,
seems this is the only way,
I will soon be gone.
These feelings will be gone,
these feelings will be gone

Now I see the times they change,
leaving doesn't seems so strange.
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind.
All this shit I seem to take,
all alone I seem to break.
I have lived the best I can,
does this make me not a man?

Shut me off,
I am ready,
Heart stops-
I stand alone..
Can't be on my own.

Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm running from?
is there nothing more to come?
Is it always black in space?
Am I going to take it's place?
Am I going to leave this race?
I guess god's up in this place?
what is it that I've become?
is there something more to come?

Now I see the times they change,
leaving doesn't seems so strange,
I am hoping I can find,
where to leave my hurt behind.
All this shit I seem to take,
all alone I seem to break.
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?

Top 20 natural highs ive been thinking of, not in any particular order

1. falling in love
2. laughing so hard your face hurts
3. getting mail
4. taking a drive on a pretty road
5. listening to the rain outside
6. hot towels fresh out of the drier
7. a good conversation
8. finding $20 in your jacket from last winter
9. running through sprinklers
10. first kisses
11. having someone play with your hair
12. wakin up and realising you still have a few hours left to sleep
13. making eye contact with a hot stranger
14. warm homemade cookies
15. running into old friends
16. sunrise
17. really good hugs
18. good or funny dreams
19. making new friends
20. running through the rain, then having a good hot shower