Have you ever stood in a crowd and wondered what they were thinking about you. What they see when they look at you. And then wondered why you should really care at all. Cause even if they hate you or think that you’re ugly. It’s not going to change who you as a person and as long as we are happy for who we are then its all good because the only real option that counts is ours cause we are the ones that have to live wit us for the rest of our lifes. And as long as you are your best friend and you love you. Then we should be happy. But we are not cause most of us believe what other think counts. That if we become what others want it should make us happy. We need to accept people for who they are. We all different and that’s they way it should be. Change no one unless you wish for them to hate them self and make them live wit regret. Changing a person is like killing the person they are inside. So let them no longer be slaves to the world. Lets us be free to be who we want to be.

Have u ever not wanted to be a person and woke to realise u are exactly the person u hate. You are one of those friends you don’t need in your life. One of those people you can live without. Well that’s me today. I have suddenly realised im going down a path I wish I had never stepped into at all. And maybe but not hopefully a path I can never go back on. But the only way to continue is to choose a totally different path to follow. Only problem is that you don’t know the direction. Maybe we have to jump and hopefully we will land in a better place. We have to have faith in who we are and I am a person I hate. And yet it will be scary to choose a different path for my life. I know it is worth to become a different person. Someone I will love and to be proud to be and maybe I will even want to be my friend.

I thought since I have nothing to do. That I would finally write a blog. I guess to sum up my year. Well I have had one crazy yr. I moved out of home and now live with my auntie and uncle and their family. I went from the living in the middle of nowhere to living in almost the city. I have had some family problems that have stressed me out a lot. I thank god I have my friends and my auntie and uncle to support me. Otherwise I really don’t know if I could of coped at all. I have lost contact with some of friends and have also got to know some of friends a lot better. I chose to change my career drive all together by going from wanting to a baker to now childcare. I guess I always knew that I was meant to do. And I guess my word of advice would be to follow your heart and go for what your passionate about and what makes you happy not the rest of the world. People say you don’t change much in a year but for the past few years. Every year has changed me. And this year I believe I am really starting to become the person that I want to me. I learnt to understanding, to look at a person not only from there outside appearance but also the internal person that lives inside us all. I have learnt that you have to try to understand what others would feel in different situations. I have learnt to look past the pain and realise every one has a reason why that chose to make that decisions. I have learnt no one perfect so how can I expect myself to be. I have learnt that hate is also an emotion and if you hate someone then at one stage you had to love him or her and if you hate them it means you still care. I have learnt everyone has the right to live and yes even me. I have learnt that its ok to remember loves one even if that love may have passed. I have leant that my life isn’t that bad when you compare it to the rest of the world and no one ever said life was meant to be easy. I have learnt many other things but at this point I cant remember to be honest with you. I will finish by thankyou everyone that has helped me this year without you guys I think I would be lost and I wouldn’t have learnt so much this year.

I thank you Corey. You have been there so much this year. Listen to me complain and trying your best to help me thank you so much for just listen and being there for me when I fell apart. I thank you for being the big bro that I have never had. Oh and thanks for making me laff when I am about to cry. Yes people I do cry.

I thank you Tom. You are an emotional guy and I thank you for letting me try and explain all my mixed up emotions. And thankyou so much for having the time to listen when other were to busy. I thankyou also for teaching me so many life lessons without them I wouldn’t be the person I am today. So thanks so much.

I thank you Shane. I know this may sound weird considering you have had one crazy year of your own. But you have teached me so much. You have teached me that life is worth fighting for.

Yes I do have to thank you Chad. While I don’t know you all that well. You are the reason I still have a special friend in my life. You are the one that explained love is straight word. And one sentence has always suck in my head. That love makes people do crazy things and deep down u really know that he is not that type of guy. I thank you so much for listen to my crazy love mess love story. You have helped me out a lot of things and have helped me see other point of view.

I thank you Kristen and Bec. Without you guys here I would be lost you have showed me that life is worth having fun and to not take life so serious and that it was meant to be enjoyed.

And lastly I have to thankyou to my auntie and uncle. You guys are so amazing. Without you to I would nowhere to call home. I believe home is where you most feel you. Well for now u guys are my home. You guys have been strong and have helped me out so much this past year. I thank you for everything. I love you guys forever and ever.